29 Dec '15, 10pm

Sadness and Pain

My grandma passed away on Boxing Day six years ago. No one gave me the news, even though she was the only one who raised me when I was a child. The way I found out was cruel in its offhandedness, the memory loops around in my head every year when the season comes around. It hurts, so much so that I sometimes want to claw my chest out and rip my heart to pieces so the pain can stop. It was the last time I celebrated a Christmas or New Year. There are blocks of days in a year that are blacked out in my mind. These are days where I know I can’t function. I can't avoid the nightmares, I still mourn. Sometimes I wonder if it will only end when the entire year is dipped in black, because then I would have no choice but to accept those days as the new norm and live. Maybe I hold on to too much, maybe I am not as strong as others, maybe I can never become a person who doesn’t cry ...

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