If u're seeing this....... MOVED!!!!!!!PLS CLICK HERE TO VISIT THE NEW FARM!!! MOVED!!! Yesh... Yours truly has finally moved on....Courtesy of the folks @ Liquidblade.com.The new moo moo farm is here. Do drop by!!![Pardon the construction works though!!] *Hacked* The most unfortunate thing occurred to me last night.Apparently my school email & domain password was hacked and changed without my permission.After much confirmation with friends that the webby's not down, I'm certain it is not a case of forgetting a newly changed password cos:1) I am NOT so stupid to forget my new password2) There wasn't any initiation of change of passwords, and neither was the password going to expire soon.3) I was still able to access my email @ 10pm but by 12MN, I was unable to instead.Given that the IT dept will only be open tomorrow, I'll have to wait till then to get them to reset my password (since I forgot to register for SMS reset) and check if it was indeed a hack or error on the system's part.Meanwhile, pray hard that nothing's lost for all my vital information for school and work's all in it.[and my freaking com don't allow me to access offline. =*( ] 精神分裂 莫个女生曾经对我说, “嘿， 你有点酒醉的时候真好玩！”While that really made me go -_- for a moment, all I could mouth was "orh..."始终，这毕竟是事实...由于我被太多的约束牵绊着，我实在无法对任何人表露出那躲藏在内心深处里我真正的那一面。毕竟，我曾经因为那么做，而受到伤害。一次又一次的创伤，令我实在无法完全去相信其他人...唯一能让我不被那些约束牵绊着的，就是陷入“半酒醉”状态。 （aka "high" or intoxicated)这么一来，才能够唤醒那处于“沉睡”状态的另一个我...死了！！我认为我患了精神分裂症...咳~ Summary of events... Past weeks have been spent drinking, drinking and trying to study while drinking.Nothing much have changed though...Meanwhile, some status update...1) Renovation's 95% done but on halt till next week cos everyone is out on hols, meaning I wouldn't be ard to supervise due to class.2) Reset of Cowboy Bar & Opening of applications to public. Machiam like China tio liberated, 中国开放 lidat. =PAnd as usual Cowboy Caleb, the owner of the bar cum brokeback gaylord cum sicko who indulge in horse pron & his stupid magic ponies, invites all who are interested & fun-loving to sign up and join us!!Do join us for lots of endless hedonistic fun!!!Upcoming event? MDM!!! MARTELL DEATH MATCH!!!Sign in for more details...3) Once again, drinking as usual.For a change, drinking on Wed nite till Thurs 4+AM when class's at 8.30AM on Thurs = instant zombie.Thanks to a certain unca (not disclosed) who invited me for the concert, i managed to catch Clash in action...Extremely crowded last night at the venue with lots of folks showcasing their cam to snap a shot of them.And my N82 just can't take a decent shot... =*(Nevertheless, it was a great night... =D4) I was 'assaulted' last night. Bah.Thank god my 'green white' ish still intact.No thanks to the other unca who keep 'instigating' me to do sth not-so-nice...Meanwhile, Hell Week #1 coming...Time to get busy I guess... Renovation - Day 3 Apparently, the workers were either:1) back from Tao Huay break (Jaywalk & his PCK tao huay break thingy...)2) On steroids (cos there's only 2 of them)Cos by the time I got home after night classes, tiles and pretty much laid up to like 50% of the dining hall,(I still no like the mound there. Mounds are better.) And 90% of the living room...With the exception of the balcony which requires HDB approval to level it (WTF?!), I foresee the rest of the hall should be done by Fri/Sat?? Pretty fast given there's only 2 workers who are mixing the cement and laying the tiles...[The foreign workers does mainly those heavyweight stuff like clearing of debris and moving of materials] Renovation - Day 1 & 2 Remember around 6+ mths ago when the tiles popped at home???After a long long time, we finally decided to have all the tiles removed and replaced with new tiles since the other tiles are pretty hollow below and at risk of popping up too like their earlier counterparts.Day 1On Tues the workers arrived and started to remove the existing tiles with their drilling equipments.By the time I've gotten home from school in the evening, everything's been fully drilled and in the mids of being cleared.Fastforward to 8pm...Voila...All the tiles cleared and the materials shifted indoors...Day 2As usual, wasn't around in the day. Progress today was kind of slower than expected, since when I gotten home, all the sand are piled nicely in mounds (not THAT mound) at home, making movement kinda difficult.Even my dog who decided to 'escape' from the room was smart enuff to avoid it..To my surprise however, only 1 worker was cutting the tile, mixing and applying the cement, and laying them in place.[What happened to the other 2 that I saw in the morning?!]Comes nightfall at 7pm, only the small section near the entrance/kitchen was completed.Not exactly fabulous in terms of progress, but at least it beats having nothing to walk on.While equipments like spades and barrows are pretty much kept properly, I can't help taking a shot of this:Cos for a moment, I wonder why the heck would someone leave the cap on the spade.So sibei RIP...[too bad not helmet]Now comes the $1000 question...[Not as difficult as the million dollar qn...]If the person starts laying tiles at the entrance inwards...How is he going to use the wheelbarrow to transfer stuff into the house w/o damaging/scratching/cracking/etc the tiles there???I'll be glad if someone cares to answer my queries... MEME: 10 things that make me happy Courtesy of Jas not who tagged me with her menses..YUCKS! meme.So basically "Just list 10 things that make you happy on a regular basis. Hence, pay raises that typically come once a year won’t count. These are things that make you smile at least once a week…"So here's the 10 things, not in any freaking order... (lazy to prioritise...)1. Sleeping. MooMoo needs to zzz to be happy2. Drinking. 1 glass a day keeps the Heart Attack away...3. When folks say hi to me even though I don't bump into them oftenly. [esp. so at nightspots]4. Babe-watching in school...5. Encounter with cute stuff6. Happy Meal! Helping others7. Lazing ard doing nothing..8. Food. Subsistence precedes all other nonsense.9. NIL10. NILThou shall not tag others cos everyone probably done it alr.besides, I can't think of 10 things oso.Aku not so happening + happy + god-knows-what-other nonsense. lalala... Hello Kitty Sorry for the LONG absence (though i think u readers probably don't really care).Have been out drinking for a LONG time...Anyway....Awhile back in end Dec 07, Sanrio announced new products specially targeted for guys. [Link]While I'm pretty much a sucker for getting cute stuff for gals, Hello Kitty for guys seems pretty ghey in a way or another.And fast forward a couple of weeks, guess what I found...?...............A Hello Kitty Guitar.And in a LIVE BAND pub/bar/club, no less.This ish da bomb, I must say. =)VIVA LA REVOLUTION!!! 2007 vs 2008 A couple of days late, but this entry still pretty much serves many purposes...For starters, from an accounting perspective comparison of historical performance vs forecast gives us an insight into variances and help formulate new forecasts.Also, for the sake of a written record, since human memories are fragile.In 2007...- Gotten my best result evar so far after suffering poor results and a near-miss heartache (of dean's) in May. [BEST BDAE PREZZIE EVAR!]- experienced being 'mod-less' during 1st week of sch..[stupid bidding system...]- Thru my brudder-cum-boss JF, discovered new and fun places with live performances...- Broke my NY resolution of quitting drinking, and drank like a fish after exam. [Not exactly a gd thing, but that's altogether a different thing]- Met up for the 1st time with Uncle Jay, who never fails to make us all luff with his hilarious tales. [“又是你干的好事！！”]- Took the plunge in many things. Some good, other bad. [Let's forget abt the bad, shall we?]- Realised I tend to be quite a sucker AKA Robert AKA 菜头 and do stupid things sometimes...As such, in 2008 I wish for the following...- Dean's List!!!! (B+ avg... =P)- To get my OBU degree by Dec 08- If possible, to take my 2 option papers in Dec 08 and to pass them! =)- To gain a better understanding of myself and to rediscover myself again...[cliche...]- To clinch that internship at either Big 4 or with Credit Suisse, Standchart, Citibank, etc...- To have a chance to celebrate my bdae properly.- For better health, and a healthier lifestyle.- To discover a new love for hobbies, pastime, or anything...- Try not to be too much of a 菜头 in 2008. [Since I just did a 菜头 on the 1st fri of 08..]Guess that's pretty much abt it.A simple yet crazy list of wishes... Vote Priscilla For Inter JC Pageant 2008! Now now, don't say I 不够讲义气 k?!At the request of my brudders-cum-bosses JesuaFreak & Jaywalk, help vote for his niece, F-13 - Priscilla.[P.S. to clarify, we don't get to earn a date with her. So don't think we help cos got agenda k? Cos we ish nice ppl.]So in return hor, Jesuafreak has promised to open one Martell for every plugged blog and Priscilla will join us for the Martell party when Jaywalk comes back from SpitLand during Chinese New Year.So what'cha waiting for? Start voting and plugging! Mai Too Liao.Please vote for Priscilla (J-13).Help by voting and plugging the vote!!! =)List of fellow bloggers who have plugged the vote:- Jaywalk- Cowboy Caleb- r3gular- JesuaFreak- Princess[do let me know if u've plugged to so i can update...=P] me... Perhaps I just realise it recently, or even a long time ago, though I wasn't fully aware...But.......It definitely ain't easy being me. 2008 preliminary wishes... With 2007 ending, I guess I shld be thinking abt how 2008 shld be........Ok, I want a new stomach for the moment. =) Xmas..... To all, Merry Xmas & a farking New Yr.I ain't liking the year ahead of me.A yr filled with mindless studying, interns, and not to forget, the dreadful Jun & Dec exams, so u BETTA NOT KAJIAO ME!And oh, U better like the year ahead of u.....On a side note, my info-net (or so i called it) happened to catch some unexpected links to certain blogs ard....So if you're reading this....Hi yanyan, merry xmas & a happy new yr! Dilemma Once again, I put myself in a troubled position of having to make decisions in messy situations...Haiz....Only if...such things doesn't exist.All in fear of...a repeat of history.Some things are never meant to be revisited, I guess.Or should I? Lyrics: Picture Perfect Love Picture Perfect Love / m-flo loves MONKEY MAJIK作詞: m-flo/MONKEY MAJIK作曲: m-flo/MONKEY MAJIKTaken from www.corichan.com [pls kindly support them!]* All that time that you were standing by my sideShe's that picture-perfect kindI can't believe I was so blindDo you remember that time, you know I stepped across that lineI made you cry and that's my crimeI wish that I could just rewindIt's the evening and you've been complainingAbout our situation and all my deceivingI know…that everything's going SLOWAnd if you wanna feel better I can tell ya that it's gonna be greatyeah it's gonna be goodOH-OH-OH but I would be lying to youBut these days I'm changingMeeting new facesHow am I supposed to beAnd my feelings for you seem to be changingLooking back…don't look back on me* repeatWhen I RUN I gets NOWHEREBecause your love is on my mind and I can't let go BABEWhen I HIDE she finds me stillI never should have let her into my LIFE…but she came saw andConquered it. EVERY part of me LEFTWhen you settled out that's REALITY just settled INOf course I tried to BATTLE IT, TACKLE IT. when PROBLEMS got out of HANDESTABLISHING the BEST from the situation THAT I'M IN…Couldn't BELIEVE that it could ENDIf LOVING YOU IS WRONG. I don't want to be RIGHT…is that a SIN?Your name is tattooed on my heart IT'S PERMANENTYour voice keep loopin my mind…I SAMPLED ITThe TRACK I'M IN/SHACKLES ME can't get out If I can PICKAll the TRICKS to make it RIGHT once AGAINYou know that's like trying to make SODOM and GOMORRHA IMMACULATETO make us 2 come together's MIRACULOUS* repeatYeah dawg you said it and I really thinkYou meant it I've been through itAll before and I'm about to get in it again,Whats happenin' making new friendsHoping it don't come to an end and in the meantimeI will show you what I meanLet's think of it another way.Everything we do and say.Defines who we are as we live out each dayWhat we did was wrong at the timeBut it helps us go back and rewind.It's a mistake, but it ain't no crimekasanari au no satsumari sore ga aiI said good byeI didn't knowThat it would all turn out this wayBut now I knowI realizeAnd I can learn from my mistakesBut these days I'm changingMeeting new facesHow am I supposed to beAnd my feelings for you seem to be changingLooking back…don't look back on me* repeat Different... I had always suspected that I had a different set of thinking from my uni peers, despite cracking the same lame jokes, saying the same dumb things, and getting the same lousy grades in school.Ok, perhaps not exactly the same in everything, but it kind of became apparent when Charles & I were out with XF & the other gals. [the '87, '88s]So in an attempt to 'ka jiao' 1 of their gal fren who was out 'pak tor-ing' at Geographer supposedly, we end up there not seeing anyone but them being 'suakus', wanted to check out the live performance...And apparently this happened in a conservation between us & the Waitor (W):W: "Now is happy hr, bottle @ $138, later $188 liao."XF: "eh...eh...Do u all have Midori Sprite??"W: "Huh?!?!" *thinking SI MI LAI DE...*W: "U wait hor..." -go to counter and check with the bartender-~after a while~W: "Sorry, we don't serve such drinks..."XF: "Orh ok... what abt...Screwdriver???"W: "Huh?!?!"XF: "eh...it's Vodka Orange..."W: "Orh ok...1 jug only ah???" -eyes wide open while counting 6 of us-XF: "eh yah..."And apparently, it was a bad idea since it's freaking overpriced @ $48.Should had gone Zouk, we thought. BAH!Lots of thanks though to Lex, who happens to work there...[If not u gals probably won't get to camwhore with the 2 thai guys that they find cute. Or was it 3? Oh well..]And a random conversation between the 2 of us:L: "Oh u're here!!! 原来 u all are the 1 who ordered dunno midori sprite or barcardi sprite..."C: "Eh yah...wasn't me...the gals dunno si mi si bottles..." *paiseh*Perhaps I have been deeply influenced by my older peers so much that I find drinking from jugs no longer as fun, or interesting.Rather, bottles seems to be more economically feasible and viable, and presents an additional source of entertainment (given the right crowd) or even an extra weapon (in the hands of a skilled wielder).To end off with, I ain't going back to Arena anymore.A rather traumatising experience for me last night.Don't ask me why. U probably know if U were there. BAH! Drink, Reflect, Drink more... A perfect ending for a not-too-fab-start term.15 weeks of hard work, just for that 2 weeks of anxiety waiting for results.With results that far exceeds my pessimistic expectations and optimistic forecast.[Nothing though compared to 6 mths of hard work & that 2 mths of waiting every semi-annum.]Doubt there's chance for repeating such a feat though since the higher I climb, the harder it gets.On a side-note, it took me 1/2 a bottle of Black Label to realise I've never moved on at all.That I'm still holding on to a certain past, even though I shouldn't be.That I thought I have let go, but I haven't.It's painful to see myself in such a state, I conclude.Though there isn't much I can do about it.Into 2008, hoping it'll be much better... GRRRR My right eye has suddenly been twitching non-stop from irritation and god-knows-what-else.Maybe it's a sign something bad's gonna happen.[Or perhaps it's time I go for my 3rd review to see if I suay suay kena eye infection. BAH!] Reason... After much brooding over the reason and purpose for drinking when people are feeling down and low, especially from relationship problems, I can only come to this conclusion:"The reason as to why people drink in face of any problems is perhaps because your glass of alcoholic drink will never betray you, whereby colleagues, relationships and all other matters would."Exceptionally true for relationships, I thought.Or perhaps a case of hasty generalisation for me.On other news,Perhaps I 'might' be trying to take on the role of a teaching assistant again, but this time for another module.An unexpected twist of events, given the surprise in results forecast. lalalaa....[Seems like analyst report lidat, with the forecast figures and surprise...=P] Bunnies U know what? I always liked bunnies... =) Another Yr...22 Not exactly just another year, I supposed.Lots of events, lots of ups and downs.With exceptional peaks and pitfalls too...With some honourable mentions....1) 2006 Dec Y-Camp- Watching my kid beneficiary weijie took the leap of faith finally after refusing to jump off the flying fox tower for at least 5+ mins...- Learning alot from weijie despite the brief 3D2N stay with him during Y-camp and our age and mentality difference as well.2) Paddle & Pedal (P&P) 2007 -Finally the 1st activity which I took part in for SMUX...- Revisited ubin via kayaking over & cycling all over the place, and camwhored like mad with people and wild boar(s) alike. =P - And not forgetting, meeting some of the cute babes available in school...3) Kind of attended my 1st concert @ Esplanade- Was so thrilled that Tokyo Ska Paradise Orchestra's performing in SG during Mosaic music fest that I willingly parted with that little bit of $$ to catch them in action... - And I must say, it's $$ well-spent... 4) Took part in 1st Sudoku Challenge 2007 by Brands- Made it to the Finals as top 30 only to walk home with a small prize... =( 5) Relationship & Love - Fell in love truly for the 2nd time...- Only to fall out of it 5 mths later feeling broke, broken, and depressed at pit bottom level..6) Depression- Combated depression while going for chalets, organising and helping out at camps, bidding for mods (which make me do all the WRONG THINGS!) and of cos, managing classes...- Did lots of crazy things like...seeing my own blood...cutting...etc, though wasn't that serious.- Got chided like mad and didn't understand why...7) Uni-Y FOC- 4D3N of fun, bonding and community service for the participants...- (lots of shit for us though...)8) SMUX Camp 07- 1st event that I kind of participate but as a slacker helper.- As usual, did lots of nonsense...- Unkind weather gave us rain for like god-knows-how-often.- Lucky though for us, cos got eyecandy all the time... =P 9) Bay Escapade 07- 1st time organising outdoors event as an org. comm, only to know the amt of shit and hardwork required.- needless to say, it was full of tiring nonsense but it's rewarding... 10) Blood Donation - Not a big deal but true to my vow to benefit mankind, I stay true to that nonsense and donate my worthless blood to save u all undeserving humans... 11) Teaching Assistant- Become a TA for the fun of it, only to realise there's the need to sit in for 12 classes + do 2 hrs of weekly consultation sessions just for $500...- Got 'abused' by frens who are taking that mods but from diff classes.- Needless to say, life was unbearable if not for the *cough cough* cuties who always come for consultation.- My secret to having them come back for more?? Teach them the wrong things the right thing but in a confusing and brief way. =P12) New project mates...- Yes yes, I know... U're probably gonna dish out punishment on me for dropping charles & deb in fav of the tri-gal grp, but it's always better to work with diff people...- (So u know who in sch u can work with in future...)- It was lots of fun though joking and crapping during project meetings...13) Drink, Drank, Drunk- Went for the 1st drinking session with sch folks...- Got the 1st folk from school drunk/half-drunk/high-until-drunk too. =P- No prize for guessing who. 14) Lasik *ZAP ZAP!!*- Spurred by madness, depression and a dash of vanity, I went for the ops during the break... - 1+ mth of post-ops suffering, a lifetime (I hope so..) of clarity...15) Anal Doggie...- Needless to say, that asshat's still surviving well under me...- He kinda took on the irritating side of me though...[Like fetching the ball and not giving it to u.]- And he has that sweet and lovely cute side of him too, especially when sleeping. [Just like me too...=P]16) Belated Bdae celebration @ Geographer- An unexpected, unplanned, unforecasted msg from brudder JF that gotten me down...- Needless to say, really thankful and glad that he celebrated for me + intro this great place to me.Special mention for the year:Joelle 阿姨, for giving me both good and bad advices.Mostly the bad and farked up ones though. lalala. =PAnd needless to say, 1 of those who will not hesitate to make me 'TAH' if required.TMD... Brudder JF, aka my Towkay...For being so nice and well in a way, teaching me alot of stuff.AKA the 社会大学 way...Well that's all for this 1/2-farked, 1/2 great year.Hopefully a better year after year... =P End & Start The end of 1st round, the starting of 2nd...No one ever said you can rest when you're done with work. Day 1: Stupidity at work Day 1 of exam was met with extreme stupidity on my part.Thinking (wishfully) that the last week's topic wouldn't be out, I decided NOT to print out that week's notes.For the open-book exam, that is.Imagine my horror when at least 5 out of 45 questions came out from that topic.Sometimes, I wish life could just be a little simpler.Meanwhile, I need eyedrops too for the teary eyes... Time-less... In the race between you and time,Bet on time...*Countdown to 1st paper...* Happyness No one ever said happyness is readily available.It only presents itself at random to those who are willing to find it.However, why is it so freaking hard to find it?No one ever said it was easy either.But I seriously question the feasibility of discovering it.Perhaps this whole lot of stories about the pursuit of happyness was all but bullshit.*Perhaps people should learn to seek happyness thru alternate means like smoking weeds and drinking petrol. Then they'll all get brain damage and be happy evar after. Period.* Day 2, Week 14 Day 2 of mugging over...Still as sick as ever...As usual, suspected throat inflammation or something lidat...Shall see the doc then else later really puke blood...Bah. Painful to swallow or even eat.Buy me soup or porridge k?Kopitiam vouchers accepted now too! =P Updated Wishlist 1) NTUC vouchers - For retail therapy + sustaining my dietary needs2) Popular/Kino/Borders vouchers - for all my stationary + reading material needs3) A McD treat - I could use a Happy Meal... (Don't KOPE THE TOY!)4) Simple wishings - It's just so simple. Simplicity is bliss, remember?5) Cold Hard Cash - The easiest gift evar...6) Pencil Case - a big & simple yet nice 1 will do. (P.S. I dun want those can transform 1 wor...)7) Pi Pa Gao - So that I won't puke blood again...As usual, nov exam ain't the time to be happy cos it's associated with sickness.Been feeling kinda unwell with sore throat and stuff lidat...& it only gotten worse when I spat out phelgm which contain a bright red piece of blood clot.Now how's that for a wake-up call...?So meanwhile, no more late-night MacD for me or whatsoever. Bah~ Blog Reading Level Say, isn't it kind of insulting...? Bah. Screwed Q: How U know U're truly screwed?A: When there's less than ard 1 week to prep for exam and U still sleep 1/2 the day away just cos "U dun feel like studying".I'm screwed to the core sia...bah.