forsaken the best thing that ever happen, happened. and for some reasons, you cant help but dwell upon regrets. perhapes, life’s filled with it. for the better, for the worst, because we;re prolly here for a likely reason with a well-planned, hectic and unjustified life. why do you not know how to treat a human with a warm heart of humanity and dignity? have you got no sympathy and gratitude? green elephants and pink pigs reminds me alot of tattsie. yea tattsie? applaud for endless encouragement & timeless jog trips. thank you all for happy days on dull noons. i miss duck already! *sighs addicted for the pleasant-hearted, i present to you: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1dcooYimn1A i hope you love it as much as i did. thankyou, again. have a good pleasant sunday. love, ade goodbye, i never knew i could hurt like this. And everyday life goes on like.. i wish i could talk to you for awhile, i wish i could find a way to try not to cry. as time goes by, you;ll reach a better place it;s so hard to accept the fact you;re gone, forever. keep calm and carry on it feels a lil abnormal sometimes. it;s like being driven to the point where you feel like giving up. things get so out of hand and you are on the brink of giving up. then something happens and from that moment on, everything seems to be a wee bit better off. then things improve and everything falls into place. then it is a vicious cycle, for it is back to where it was when it feels crappy. you get where i;m coming from? yah, that sorta thing. abnormality i suppose? cozz life’s like that? yakety yak yak yak ‘it’ honestly, whatever will be, will be… awesome shit wow. i’m impressed and amused that my 5 lined-entry will actually get a GP 500,000 word essay reply. anyway, my mummy taught me to be kind to animals and never fight a barking bitch. you bet, a million bucks rockingham freeway,east perth,wattle grove, i miss you many smells alot like…you doubt over mt everest “most-loved” sometimes, you just wonder…why some people just cant seem to find friends who really care for them some people just cant stand seeing girlfriends click together some people just cant help bitching about people around them i suppose all they need is a moment of silence to reflect & admit: it boils down to 1 perfect word: jealousy thank you for reading, have a nice day, “it” love, the one who clicks with the girl you cant stand let;s grasp for air and await for a miracle it;s like vomitting but you cant find the right time to do so it;s like a story going on & on and it just wouldn’t end, I dread it;s like missing a train @ a station & waiting, I anticipate it;s like a song with its tune embedded in your head, I hum it;s like wanting to do something but things keep cropping up it;s just like wanting to run but somehow i cant, I hesitate all the times I dread, anticipated, hummed, hesitated.. i hope for a solution…but it just wouldn’t appear.. tell me days are gonna turn out fine, just fine please? awarded: best bitching partner she;s gone and i;m back. i;m back then she;s gone. somehow, it happens… but when we collide, that paints a whole new picture… conversations of many overflowing. an overpowering moment of energy altogether. boy oh boy, what would i do without my bitching partner? *did i mention that she sliced her hair too? oh well..like what many will say..”great minds think alike” *tink tink back by demand i;m home, back in sunny humid singapore. theres a zillion and one reasons i am a lil reluctant though. tattsie is goin ahead with his plans, straying up and down aussie’s embassy and all. making possible arrangments… somehow, everything is gonna change. routines, habits…but definitely, nt feelings. check out: http://youtube.com/watch?v=EkHTsc9PU2A that;ll prolly tell you how i felt everytime i head to aussie. and as the mv went.. flights, road-rides, of beaches, singing, dancing, under the beautiful sky and sun uhuh, i love it, many many. so much so, when i have to head back , i just feel like crap. yea, i dread heading back. dont ask me why..it;s just an unexplainable feeling… pics will be up soon, rest assure a tribute to my #3 as it is, the picture says it all..there goes my #3, my 3rd ink-ed birthday pressie for myself! happy birthday me!!! *claps a series of events warning: the following post will be uber long, hence… kindly endure and yes pics have to be compiled into a collage for ade is too lazy to upload them one by one yes, it;s true,  i;m lazy and i love being lazy so dont judge me… ————————————————————————— FRIDAY 30th MAY my get together advance celebration for sam and my birthday pics will be up yah… ————————————————————————— SUNDAY 1st JUNE everything started out feeling a lil misty and dreamy.. woke up pretty early and rushed to the airport to welcome my parents and bro back and then in the afternoon, tattsie called and came up with a stunt, saying that i gotta meet him for he has secret plans to celebrate my bday.Part 1: he refused to leak anything out and hence, i was forced to his house, giving a lame excuse of, “i L/S so u come my place ok?” and amazingly, he whipped up a decent meal! he prepared pasta and i was surprised by the clam chowder! woohoo..and it tasted pretty good! impressive la tattsie! my tattsie is zai la, he can friggin cook la! hahahaha// Part2: after which, its pressies!…i was misled by the “dior” paper bag lah! like seriously, i thot i;d get some posh wallet or handbag..*bleah but surprise surprise! its a friggin digital cam lah! its the thing i so wanted but just dont have the heart to get! i was beaming can! thankies tattsie!!! Part 3: and then tattsie said, “that;s not all! i have other plans!” and i;m like.. “err..you serious?” and tada!…i was suprised again by the prawn fishing trip.. i had fun la, so excited abd so eager but at the end of the 1 hr experience, we only caught 1 prawn. yes, 1 pathetic prawn but all was good! awesomely good… it was fucking juicy and thick and sweet and chewy and yummy! part 4: dinner with the family~ wala wala! and i;m totally drained already *rah rah rah    the soccer match its my very first time watching tattsie play and he;s adorable. he somehow looked like a toad, a very lazy toad.. *grins but i still adore my love! :p anyway, it was pretty exciting and it wasnt gd watching them get thrashed by the VJCians. but the amazing thing is when they played 7-a-side, it was impressive. i concluded, tattsie’s soccer grp has got excellent skills but no running stamina… anyway, i had fun la watching tattsie and buddies play… its quite a waste kathie aint there..but just charmaine and me.. anyhow, i did enjoy myself, very much..GO MONFORTIANS! *smiles thats charmaine and me tattsie at his best with our fav number jersey *love and as mum and dad prepares to head to netherlands i hope they get me a pair of pretty gladiator scandals when they arrive back home…*crosses fingers.. okie dokie time to get in the blues… uh huh, you bet, the sickening mon blues all over again.. i cant wait to leave for aussie in 2 weeks time..yipeeeeeeeee and I HATE FRIGGIN MONDAYS! i must have forgotten to mention..VJC’s field grass is love! its excellent and pretty like maddddd….i swear! irritated then mesmerized and the picture speaks for itself true as it is, i was iritated with the friggin hot weather and after which, yes, you bet, i was mesmerized. uh huh..mesmerized by the new hair stylist and hence, i;ve decided to let him do anything lah and here is goes: *drum rolls… **the hairstylist is so friggin cute and my cup of tea lah.. that long natural curled hair bundled up in a neat bun, those geeky specs to die for and that deadly goatee that made me melt… i MUST go back again to tell his boss never ever let him go!!!! this horrible month nothing beats falling while rollerblading and as it heals, my life cannot be made any worst when i;m down with fever. yes, i thought i was about to die yesterday when i felt like a walking-heater. i was shivering and my cheeks felt so hot it turned blushy red. it was so warm it felt like i was engulfed in flames… but all is good now…i hope all will be good now..yeah, like seriously wearing you around i love wearing my boyfriend’s shirt . dont ask me why i just have this unusual fetish, thats all…*giggles i;ve been busy you bet, from zouking to swimming to jogging to blading to baking you list it all, i;ll do it all…and here are the lucky pics i snapped my lovely friends are all love love love…. *on a pleasant note, my friggin wound is healing! i;ll go on my bowling trip, tanning trip & jogging sessions!!! wala wala.. now tell me, how not to be happy? yay! yay!yay! i will perform a magic wala wala bing bang, as i wave my magic wand, with a spinkle of magic dust, my bloody ugly wound will heal and i will be able to jump, swim and run. and i’ll be a wala wala la la happy girl again! the unforgivable mistake its pretty dumb when you are always confident and over time, you made a mistake with a wrong gauge of everything, causing so much physical pain and mental torture that… the moment i feel like walking off, i have to repeatedly consider how much pain it will get me into. yes, i hurt myself, unintentionally of course. and no, trust me when i say, i will continue to blade cozz a careless, overlooked fall wont bring me down.. i miss having my friends around me and having all my wala wala sessions of jogging, of swimming, of bitching…*rahhhhhhhhhhhhhh and my pretty doc just told me i got to neglect the above for a full 6-8 weeks now honestly, tell me, how am i to live? oh, and bathing has become such a painful tedious chore i;d rather smell like a human pig…..*snort snort pidians of batch ‘o6 and as per norm, i yaked like there was no tomorrow. i miss school! i miss my dearly beloved tp many many can you help me? i want and i need to lose weight. but i cant stop eating. can you help me go back to then when i was skinnier? ade;s best fren no diamonds for ade, but nail treatment is love! yay! ades a happy duper girl! *trust me, i love mani + pedicures! i feel princessy already! *woot woot woot thankies boyfren for loving me la! wala wala next down the “ade cant live w/o line” the essentials that make me a chirpy happy girl that i am. and i wouldnt know what i;d do w/o you guys… thank you for your abundant love and priceless companionship. love of my life for all the times i lost my temper, for all the times i went crazy and made you embarassed, for all the times i yak like there is no tomorrow, for all the times i ill teated you with pokes and punches on purpose, for all the times i cheated in my self-invented wala wala game, for the small little things that i whined and ranted about you, in particular… happy fifteen months tattsie and for many many more to come! one last appeal for the life i lead stop and stare, i think i;m moving, but i go nowhere yeah, i know that everyone gets scared. but i;ve become what i can;t be stop and stare, you start to wonder why you;re here not there and you;d give anything to get what;s fair. but fair ain;t what you really need can you see what I see? come and go as a matter of fact, sometimes, i wish time will pass faster and things will be a little different. it;s just that simple, not to much of a hassel. aint it? it;ll just come and go.come and go.come and go.eventually and we;ll prolly wont be left in such a difficult spot. you get me? yes, that was it.that easy.just like a wink and it goes poof poof, forever. embedded deep within the depths of my being, scribbled all over my past endless book of yesteryears… are the things i wished you could feel, as much as what i felt like,then…