Great News I Think.. I'm not thinking clearly. But Feng has agreed (finally) to give me one more chance. His reason is he wants to see me be strong again. I've been going crazy recently. Sorry to scare him. And my mom. And Sue. And those who cared enough to see me cry and hysterical.I still think I'm not thinking clearly. It feels as though I'm forcing him to be back with me. But no matter what, I'll do all it takes to be the gf he wants. I can and will do it.Homework time! Promised Chew to be online on Fri..sorry Chew! Was sleeping the whole day away cause was feeling weak and all. Today I shall do my accounts homework, tomorrow morning have to do IRHR homework. Else I can't catch up. Sorry jiemei...can't be your wife's jiemei tomorrow morning. I'm really facing extreme stress recently. Sorry sorry. Promise I'll help out during the wedding dinner k?!?! SORRY!!Homework time....5 questions and 3 case studies to go..(for accounts only..shit). I Think I Like IRHR1001 Today had IRHR1001 (Organization Behaviour) lecture. Was feeling pretty tired this morning. suddently I remembered that I'm going for class. LoL. So dragged myself out and met Chew at Eunos MRT. We reached school around 950am, but the stupid classroom (forever D-113 lor) doesn't have much choices of seats left. So boh bian, we went to find seats. Still thought can nua nua abit.Anyway when I stepped into the class, I was happy to know that Peter Waring (pronounced as wearing) is our lecturer!! He was the one that made me drop jaw when I went into his office looking for Dr Steve. YES! The good looking one!! Stupid Chew say that Peter looked like Pinocchio cause the nose very sharp and long. -_-" And that he's short. I then told Chew that God made him almost perfect..then decided such man shouldn't exist so took away his height. LoL.OK..I've decided that I'm going to like IRHR1001. Not only because Pinocchio is our lecturer, he's great at making the subject not so boring. He gives great examples and elaborate into details. LoL. Aiyah..I'm drooling over him mah..lol.Seriously, I might get to hate this subject. We had lunch with Chew's friend Nadia just now, and she told us if we did our homework and go class religiously, it's hard for us to fail. All except IRHR1001. It's slightly more difficult. Can get pass or credit, but difficult to get disctinction or high distinction. And like accounts yesterday, we were given homework today. First submission is on 19th Sept, weightage is 10%. It's a thesis (Pinocchio calls it 'essay') of at least 1200 words. Only 1 website reference can be used. 2nd homework due on 29th Oct is worth 20%. 2200 words. -_-"Gotta buck up..but I so wana sleep right now. Tml has to leave house at 740am. Meaning I've to wake up either at 645 or 7am. SHIT. Hmm..I should finish my accounts case studies before I start on the IRHR1001 thesis..........Tml is Econ..wonder who's the lecturer? *yawn* First Day Of Class What can I say about today other than 2 words? COCKED UP. We were given the class list over the weekend and apparently those who are in tutorial group A (eg A1, A2 etc) will be in lecture group A..technically that is. Huda, one of my classmate, was listed in class A6. Meaning she's in lect group A right? So we thought.Huda, me and Thomas turned up for our 9am lecture on Accounting: Business Reporting for Decision Making. That is until one of the staff stuck something on the lecture door (more like big classrom that can accomodate about 200 students) and Huda realised she's NOT in group A. Apparently she had been shifted to group B, which today's lecture for same subject is at 12pm!! Piangz! And apparently half of the students who turned up for the 9am lessons are due at 12pm lor. Waste time! Damn cocked up. And I still have not received my UoN student card and most of the students have not receive their login ID and password!! To this, the staff said that there's 300+ students for this year's intake and only she herself is doing everything. My classmates were like," So? Don't make your business my business. I paid you, you're paid to do all these." My thinking was, the confirmed list of students wasn't given to her recently only. Why now? Why can't she do it first? So what if some students decided to withdraw? Do earlier also won't harm right? Dotz.Anyway, it doesn't affect me cause of my surname. I'll still be in group A with Chew. Let's just call him Chew lah. LoL. Anyway, I took cab to school this morning cause I waited for the bus until it was too late liao. Stupid bus came at 815 lor! I sure late! So decided to take cab. WRONG CHOICE!! It costs me $22!! *Heartache* I am so leaving house at 740am on Wed. Heng tml lesson is at 10am.My lecture is an Indian. And since I'm the stupid and not so kiasu one, I didn't print the lecture notes. A few of the students did. And my lecturer was talking and talking and all me and Chew could do was to highlight our text. And the lecturer damn cute. We didn't know he's cracking a joke until he's laughing. LoL. And he gave homework!!Up till now...only did 2 discussion questions lor. Haven't even reach the homework part yet. Damn. Think I gotta go do liao..else Chew do finish le I also haven't finish. Next Monday have to hand in..class participation is 15%. I need to get my D......PS: Regardin my breakup issues..he's taking time to think it over. But Mike told me to expect the worst. So now, I'm just sms-ing him everyday, showing whatever care and concern I can. Even if he doesn't reply, at least I did it willingly and happily. Wonder why I didn't do it last time..I'm a stupid one. Just...stop asking how I am and everything ok? You guys know me..I like to act OK. So just let me be OK.....thanks. The Arrival Of Shi Jia Congrats to Eileen on the birth of Shijia!! The pretty babe has a high forehead, definitely will grow up to be both pretty and clever. So kiasu to come out, definitely kiasu and study hard next time one!!Eileen, 辛苦您了！！Remember to inform me if there's full month celebration!!! Congrats to Eileen and Daniel once again. Now their family is complete liao. Got son got daughter. ^_^ I'm On Auto Pilot I don't know what I am doing anymore. Nothing seems to interest me. Except sms-ing him (bugging him more like it) and trying to hold back the tears (which I failed). When I used to be angry, I'll just watch tv or play some games and I'll feel better. But not this time. 10min into playing game I just wana shut it all off and go back to sleep.My fever's better today, but the headache's still here. I don't know if it's the weather that's cold or I'm going to fall sick, cause I'm actually wearing a jacket when the fan isn't on at all. I'm just so miserable.Been awake for 2 hours, but I don't feel hungry. I just wana sleep the day away and hopefully the headache will be gone. And maybe, just maybe, my heart won't ache so much. It hurts to wake up to a heartache every morning..to stop myself from crying and wetting my pillows.I'm more like a zombie. I won't eat, I won't go out and I won't play games. Chew (Thomas, my classmate) messaged me this morning asking me to take care. Thanks for the concern. Ok..I don't know what I'm going to do now. Maybe I'll just get another glass of water and pop another couple of panadols.......PS: I told him I'm willing to go donate blood if he's willing to give me another chance. For someone who has such big fear on needles, this is a very big sacrifice for me... The Most Painful Thing In The World Most painful thing is not about losing the person you love. It's reflecting on the things you had done and realised you were treating the other party badly and it's too late to do anything cause the other party don't love you anymore. I guess I can't say I didn't hurt. And I didn't want to announce this..but apparently Weifeng is not changing his mind this time.We had broken up on Monday, 18 Aug.Maybe I was a little slow. It took me about 2 days+ to start feeling the pain. I thought I was feeling the pain of losing him. But no. After so many days of reflecting, I realised it was him who gave in most of the time. I was the one who didn't treasure him. And even though I have been assuring him that I will definitely change for him these couple of days, the only thing he replied was 'It's too late'. It hurt. It felt as if someone had taken my heart out and put it into a blender.I know after so many experiences of breakups, I should be able to walk away. And afterall, I kept telling my friends that I'm not happy. But funnily, it really hurt after I thought through what he had done for me. I really hope there is a miracle that will change his mind.We were together for 2 years and 5 months. I missed the times where he picked me up from work, pat me to sleep, and us going on our first and only trip overseas to Genting. It really hurt. I wish time would turn back to Monday or something. And I won't quarrel with him. Instead I'll treat him nicer. I want him to hug me and assure me everything's ok. I still wana hear him telling me he loves me. But apparently the hurt I had caused made him don't love me anymore. He just wana be friends.I guess I need a long time to heal. Kevin told me to mourn for a few weeks, then pick myself up and move on. Alex (Weifeng) made me promise that I won't do anything silly, take care of myself and be happy. Well, I can't be happy now. I really love him alot. I do not know why I treated him the way I did. Maybe I thought I didn't love him when actually I do. If there's a chance..I would still want us to be together. In the meantime friends, just do me a favour and don't mention him unless it's good news. Ask Drag me out so I won't stay cooped up at home crying my eyes blind. Better still, help me change his mind. I really realise my mistake le. I'm wrong. I'm sorry......... Slack? I Think Otherwise This is my timetable. Because of my surname, I'm put in lecture group A and tutorial A1. So all my tutorial classes will be A1 and all my lecture group A. Heng Thomas surname starts with C!! We're in the same tutorial group and lecture!! But sadly we're in same lecture group with Shaynen and Huda. Wonder where the rest go..Anyway, my mom saw my timetable and said that my timing very slack, might as well study part time. LoL. I told her although I study about 3hrs/day, I'm expected to put in more hours after school for projects and research and such. Furthermore I've tuition on Mon and Friday. Oh yah, my ex-colleague called me yesterday and wanted me to tutor her kid in maths. See..2 tuitions ok. Half of Friday will be spent on tuition lor. And Mon after class can slowly take num 5 to my student's house. Argh!! She failed her maths and English! But there's improvement in her English. ^^Mon got lessons at 9am..wonder what time I've to leave house and wake up. Is damn early lor!! Think I'll just drink my milk and go school, cause I have a break from 11 - 12pm. Furthermore with my braces giving me probs, I can't really eat much things also. -_-"星期一开学咯！！！I told Thomas that I'm going to motivate him to be on time for lessons and we will motivate each other to get D or HD. My school grading system doesn't have A or B. Theirs are as follow:HD - High DistinctionD - DistinctionC - CreditP - PassF - FailOnly students who get HD can do honours deg. Sigh. Nvm..just work hard can le. As long as I know I had work hard, done my best, it's enough. At least I will be answerable to myself. ^_^I go print my timetable lor!! Keke..bb!! Metal Teeth - Start of 26 Months Last week, I went to my dentist for cleaning before I tie braces. I did the braces today!! LoL. I took a picture of myself a few weeks back..without braces of course.Looks straight? Actually no lor. My teeth aren't straight at all..Think this was taken before the cleaning cause the stains were removed. See..so many up and downs. Like my life...more downs than ups...Anyway finally did my braces!! Today only tie the top. Yes, I chose the most expensive type which is ceramic. It doesn't hurt as much and you can't really see it from far. Dr Ho says to tie the top today, and the bottom will be tied 2 months later as it isn't as crooked as the top. But then, after 2-3 weeks I'll be able to see difference in the top liao. Shall see 2 weeks later.I can talk normally and i just finished a packet of instant noodles. Pek cek thing was the stupid noodles kept getting stuck on the wire. Dotz. Now I've to brush my teeth after every meal until I get used to it. And I have to eat soft food for these couple of weeks else the brackets will drop and I've to go back to get it fixed. It feels weird as if my teeth are now very heavy. Keke. OK gotta go brush teeth liao. Ciaoz. UoN BBUS Orientation Yesterday didn't sleep at all. Ok..I was drifting in and out of sleep, but I remember hearing the Mari Kita on radio before finally sleeping peacefully for like..an hour and a half? Today is orientation day for BBUS (Bachelor in Business) and BCOMM (Bachelor in Communication) students. I thought I was late for school cause I waited for the bus like..20min lor. Heng reached school around 9:20.Felt so out of place over there. Everyone seemed to know someone and I was all alone.Kept looking around for Thomas (my classmate-cum-coursemate whom I got to know during my "English" lessons) but cannot see him. In the end I queued up to register alone and overheard these 2 girls behind me chatting. One was telling her friend that she'd absolutely die if she was to come alone lor. Piangz..was so demoralised I almost wanted to just go home and sleep the day away.But I registered, got my goody bag (which consisted of a PSB ring file, a keychain from UoN and some accessory) and walked to the classroom. Then I saw Thomas!! Piang!! He remembered me and my spirits lifted lor!! We sat together and went through the orientation together. Basically hor, it's like..argh!!1015 - 11: Talk by one of the lecturers1100 - 1145: Ice breaker 11145 - 1250: Talk on plagarism1250 - 1305: Photo taking UNDER THE FUCKING HOT SUN1305 - 1350: LUNCH TIME!! And buying of textbooks ($301.50 for 4 subjects!!!!) and getting of my library card1400 - 1500: Ice breaker 21500 - 1530: Talk on student council (recruitment lah)1530 - 1545: Exchange numbers with classmates!! Kekeke..then go vivo wait for dad to pick me up.....We were each handed a piece of paper with boxes like the above, except we had 20 boxes to complete. We had to go around the room asking our classmates to sign under the box that best describe them. LoL. In the end, I was left with the box of birth mark..then I got a guy to sign it. And he promised if he was called up, he would reply that his birthmark is somewhere that is ungentlemanly to show. LoL. Damn funny..but I can't seem to remember his name now. Keke.Me and Thomas were split into different group for ice breaker 2. The game is like...the person in charge will flash a word (e.g. longest) and we had to guess longest what and send a representative up. The first word was longest and I kena. My group asked me up and I was ok with it. We thought it was hair. Then the other 3 groups see me walk up then they started to send girls from their team to compete the hair length with me. BUT THEN...the person in charge wants longest legs lor. Which I won hands..er..legs down. Haha!! I was the tallest among them ma. LoL. I won a point for my team...and the ONLY point. Our group lost (got loudest YAWN, fattest EAR LOBE, brightest TEETH, blackest PUPIL, softest SKIN, thinnest THUMB, hardest STOMACH etc.) but damn did we have fun!! LoL. My group people all very onz one lor.After this game, we had another talk on student council recruitment. I was thinking whether to join or not. I missed the times where I organised events, joined orientations or helped out back in poly. But then, will I be able to score and handle CCA ON TOP of my tuition job? After much consideration (which is like....10min?) I decided to just concentrate on my studies and tuition ba. If my future employees wana see how I can manage people, please see my poly CCA records. LoL. Furthermore I have 2yrs+ working experience. Can lah.Something funny is that I will be starting class on Monday. However, I don't know what class I have on Monday cause I have yet to enrol for that class (we get to choose what class we want to be in at which day and time). We were told to enrol using our student number and the password given. And these...will be given next week. Hahahaha!! Then I Mon no class? LoL. Hopefully they'll send the details by Friday. Anyway, youngest is 17. Oldest is me lor. As in I'm the oldest in the whole BBUS and BCOM. Guys also younger than me. -_-" Demoralised.Average I'll be studying 4 days per week, and longest duration is about 4hrs. Kekeke!! SHIOK LAH!! More time to study and aim for my D or HD!! Then hopefully can do honours..*dreaming liao*. See how it goes..in the meantime, tonight have to sleep early cause I'm getting my braces tomorrow!! YEAH!!!PS: I told Thomas that PSB has the smallest Popular Bookshop in the whole of Singapore..however it contains the most expensive books (one of my text book costs $120 and is not available anywhere else). A Song To Describe Our Relationship The song, Gotta Go My Own Way from High School Musical 2 speaks what my heart is trying to tell. Enough said for now.The Sims 2 versionGabriella:I gotta say what's in my mindSomething about usdoesn't seem right these dayslife keeps getting in the wayWhenever we try, somehow the planis always rearrangedIt's so hard to sayBut I've gotta do what's best for meYou'll be ok..[Chorus]I've got to move on and be who I amI just don't belong hereI hope you understandWe might find our place in thisworld somedayBut at least for nowI gotta go my own awayDon't wanna leave it all behindBut I get my hopes upand I watch them fall everytimeAnother colour turns to greyand it's just too hard to watch it allslowly fade awayI'm leaving today 'cause I'vegotta do what's best for meyou'll be ok..[Chorus]Troy:What about us?What about everything we've been through?Gabriella:What about trust?Troy:you know I never wanted to hurt youGabriella:and what about me?Troy:What am I supposed to do?Gabriella:I gotta leave but I'll miss youTroy:I'll miss youGabriella:soI've got to move on and be who I amTroy:Why do you have to go?Gabriella:I just don't belong hereI hope you understandTroy:I'm trying to understandGabriella:We might find our place in thisworld somedaybut at least for nowTroy:I want you to stayGabriellaI wanna go my own wayI've got to move on and be who I amTroyWhat about us?GabriellaI just don't belong hereI hope you understandTroyI'm trying to understandGabriellaWe might find our place in thisworld somedaybut at least for nowI gotta go my own awayI gotta go my own awayI gotta go my own away School Is Starting Soon That's what I'm doing practically everyday: play games. Although it need not be Viwawa lah. Anyway I only play Sushido on Viwawa. So it got pretty boring after some time. Esp when I keep losing. I'm addicted to winning, so if I lose continuosly, I'll just quit the game and either watch tv or play some other games. Other than going to teach tuition every Mon and Fri that is.Well, orientation is coming. It's on the 20th, which is this coming Wed. And I have been gorging myself these few days. Saturday's dinner was durians and Sunday's brunch was prawn noodles (which I helped to cook, shell and prepare!)..2 big bowls!! And dinner on Sunday? A trip down to Sakura Balestier for a very full dinner. After eating so much seafood, I'm beginning to have rashes now. Damn.Someone asked me if I was excited about going back school. Well, I guess not really. Not as excited as putting on the braces this Thursday!! LoL. Sch..to me, school lor. Make new friends, learn new things, have tests/exams/thesis/projects and then u go on. Maybe I'll feel excited on Tues night ba. Classes starts on Monday and I've yet to know what class I'll be in. It'll determine what kind of timetable I will have you see.Orientation bring what leh? I know I've to bring my nets card cause buying text books. Dad told me to sign credit card and I was like......school bookshop can sign meh? LoL. Not sure. Hope to see Thomas (my coursemate who attended the English lessons with me) during orientation. At least someone I know. Shit..think I need to go take some anti-histamine later. I really cannot take it liao..whole body itching and face also itching. OK..me going to sleep liaoz. Nights!! Fish Porridge @ Amoy Food Market A couple of weeks ago, before I had my surgery, I was woke up at 9+am (Saturday lor!) to go get a referral letter from polyclinic. My parents drove me to polyclinic and I confirmed with them that I ALREADY had a referral letter from my dentist. So in the end, mom told dad to drive us to NDC. When we were there, we were informed that NDC opens from Mon - Fri, 8 - 5pm. Dotz. With nowhere to go and my parents were hungry, they decided to go Amoy food market. Yeah! I can buy my Missy Muffins!Upon reaching there, mom and dad went to queue up for this porridge stall. Even though it's a Saturday, there was quite a number of people queueing for the porridge. Since I wasn't hungry, mom and dad ordered for themselves.Mom and dad were the 5th in queue. Behind them were another 5-6 people. Dotz. People actually wake up so early to come here (when most stalls at level 2 are closed) to eat this porridge. What's so nice wor?they have different kinds of fish. Got the normal fish that we can find in most fish porridge. But not only that lor. Still got seafood porridge and 白鲳鱼 (promfret fish) porridge. Wanted to try the 白鲳鱼 one, but mom already ordered the normal de. Chey.This is their "soy sauce". It's actually bean paste, soy sauce with chilli. Quite not bad. It actually complements the whole porridge..even though the porridge is saltish enough. =)TADAH!! The porridge!! Chopsticks and ceramic spoon are used. Initially told my mom I didn't want to eat, but after eating one spoonful, I COULDN'T STOP!! Hahahaa...I actually finished half the bowl. =X How do I describe leh? Fish is bouncy (Q Q) and porridge is the way I like it, can actually see the rice. You can actually taste the fish taste..in the porridge. One word: fantastic. Now I know why so many people eat liaoz.I went over to Missy Muffin to buy the muffins!! Yeah!! The blueberry one is nice lor. And I saw the owner who joined the Qiang Tan Da Xing Dong. She's quite pretty. Anyway, bought 6 muffins. Each $1 only anyway.Clockwise from bottom left: Cheese, milo and mocha. Maybe I got the milo and mocha mixed up. When I was eating my blueberry muffin then I realised forgotten to take picture. By then mom was already halfway through her banana muffin and dad and me on our blueberry muffin.What can I say? Unless you can finish the muffins within an hour or so, DO NOT BUY SO MANY. By the time I got home, the other muffins already nua nua. When I first bought it, the top is crispy crispy and the middle soft soft one. When I got home, I wouldn't touch the remaining 3. Waste my money. But blueberry one really nice. Maybe next time buy 1 enough le... Happy Bithday Singapore!! So Proud Of You!! Happy birthday Singapore!! I am so proud of you..from a sleepy small island to what it is today!! You have came a long way. So proud so proud of you! Apparently so are the other 4411 people who had taken the poll at Yahoo! Sg.Quite sad that 35% of the voters are so boh chup. What is disheartening is the fact that 7% of the people do not know today is National Day. Either it's on purpose, or they're not Singaporeans at all.Had a little tiff with dad just now. Was watching the NDP on TV just now and dad kept making remarks saying that after watching Beijing Olympic opening, the NDP is just oh-so-boring. And when the MP (military police) came in to start their guns twirling, dad was like," Every year also like this, so boring lor! NDP every year also same, and nothing compared to the Olympic opening. So boring!! Every year the same thing; same opening, same gun twirling, same people, same show. SO BORING!" This is when I had it and started quarreling with him.FYI, I'm proud to be a Singaporean. And even though those performers on stage are unhappy that they have to train every single weekend or something, I know when they're on stage, showing off their skills and everything, they will feel something inside them: pride. I regret not joining in the NDP years ago and every year without fail I ballot for the NDP. Sadly, I'd only been to NDP in 1998. That was my first and hopefully not my last.When I was out with my poly mates yesterday, Ah Yeh proudly told us that 2 years ago, he was one of the twirlers for the gun. And the gun weighs 5KG! Imagine the effort they had to put in to make it look so effortless and pretty. And Alvin proudly said that 2 years ago, he was one of the guys in the '0' of the number 2006. And they were proud cause they were the last batch to have a display at National Stadium. I am so proud of Singapore and the people who had worked so hard to make the NDP so great!! They made so much effort, the least we could do is just appreciate their work. Just like if you make an effort to do something, the least people could do is to appreciate. I APPRECIATE YOU GUYS!!HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!! MAHJULA SINGAPURA Degree Is Somewhat Important This is just a small prove of what a degree is worth. Let's say take 2 people, one with diploma, one with a degree. The pay difference? A $840 difference. Doesn't seem alot? That's a 40% more EVERY MONTH. Which equals to $10,080 a year. This is the government sector, of course they pay more.Verlyn, you say degree doesn't mean earn more. But then you're a financial planner. It's not counted cause yours is commission based. I'm talking about the normal *yawn* mudane, 9-5 job in private sectors. Office jobs WITHOUT commission.Vera is now a manager in some bank and Crystal is some operational manager as well. Even government is placing more importance on that stupid piece of paper by paying more. Isn't that enough evidence? A diploma nowadays is so common, like an O levels cert is some 5 - 10 years ago. LoL.Actually the motive of my previous post is to tell people that having a degree isn't everything when you don't have the right working attitude. And having the right attitude but no degree can't help much in the promotion if some companies need their employees to have a degree before they can promote them to a certain position. You must be willing to learn and have a positive attitude. So apparently my friend had misunderstood me. I never said that a degree IS a must or will definitely earn more. But then, the pay as mentioned above apparently showed that a degree student will have a higher starting pay. Attitude counts on the yearly pay increment ok. LoL. Jiayou people!! I AM CAPABLE THANK YOU! Eh enough is enough lah! So what if I'm an only child and my parents are still working?! So what if I'm no longer working full time? DOES IT MEAN THAT I'VE TO DEPEND ON MY PARENTS?! I'm damn pissed off lor!! Just because I'm an only child? Just because my parents can afford for me to do full time studies?!?! Hey listen here and get things straight. I'M LOANING THE 25K NEEDED FOR MY STUDIES FROM MY DAD. It's better I owe him without interests than to bank with interests which will kill me. I HAVE TO PAY BACK THIS SUM OF MONEY BECAUSE IT'S HIS MONEY. WE HAD COME TO A MUTUAL AGREEMENT THAT I'LL PAY BACK THIS MONEY!!As for my braces, FUCK LAH!! I'm paying that from my own money ok!! I saved up enough money to get me through 2 years of expenses (including transport). Plus now I'm teaching tuition, and the braces costs like $160/mth, I CAN AFFORD IT. And I'M PAYING FROM MY OWN POCKET!! Stop saying that I depend on my parents or make comments like "Aiyah, you still got your parents ma." or "You no money your parents will still give you de lor." I'm seriously insulted by these kind of comments. BECAUSE I DEPEND ON MYSELF!! THEY ARE JUST PAYING FOR MY SCHOOL FEES!!As for those sup cards, HELLO!! There's rebate!! And I transfer the amount I used to my father within the week!! I PAY HIM BACK WHATEVER I USED!!!! Damn dulan lor!! I chose NOT to study part time is because I know myself too well. I won't concentrate as well and can't take the stress. I've low tolerance in everything. Furthermore I have psoriasis!! I can't take too much stress or my psoriasis will get worse! I prefer to have more time and just focus on ONE THING; STUDIES!!So if you're my friend, stop making comments like my parents can afford or whatever. SO WHAT IF THEY CAN? Jealous?! It doesn't mean I'm making use of this option ok!! You jealous and want it so much, ask my parents to be YOUR parents lor!! *Dulan* Attitude Isn't Everything, Just Like Deg Isn't Everything Warning! Long wordy entry!!Like what is mentioned above. Attitude isn't everything when you don't have a degree nowadays. But likewise, just because you have a degree/masters, doesn't mean you are everything as well. I had a serious discussion over this matter with Feng many months ago, when I tried to persuade him to take a degree. But something happened which he'll not be able to take it..at least for this year.During our discussion (more like debate), I stood on the side of having a degree is a plus. He, of course, stood at the side of having a degree isn't everything; attitude counts. He told me he had friends who were degree holders, top honours no less, earning lesser than a diploma holder in the company, working his ass off to get just a measely 3K despite having over 5years of working experience. I agreed to a certain extent that some degree holders are rather sway (unlucky). They paid alot of money to get that piece of paper, spent countless nights studying, killed millions of brain cells just for such lousy jobs. But let me give you 2 examples of my friends who are doing pretty well now. Kids in secondary school/poly/JC, please read and maybe change your failing results to As!Crystal is a friend whom I got closer during my repeat year in poly back in year 2000. Both of us were from the same lecture hall and were smokers. We smoked together back then. But the difference between us is that although she slacked alot during class, she makes up for it by studying very hard (as in no sleep) before the exams. However, I was too playful. I mean, I took for granted that I had studied all these before, I need not work that hard at all. I was wrong. Apparently I failed in 1999 because I had weak foundations. When I repeat in 2000, I was actually given a 2nd chance to work hard to build my foundations. I guess I was too full of myself. When I got kicked out of poly in year 2001, Crystal moved onto year 2. And in 2002, when I returned to TP (another course..apparently IT/ICP and Hospitality Mgmt don't accept removed students), Crystal was studying her final year le. When I'm struggling with my 2nd year, Crystal was already in the work force earning experience whereas I'm still struggling with my studies..which has another 2 more years before it ends.Crystal, after the near-death of being removed, became very hardworking. So much so, she was putting in 18hrs of work everyday. Yes..18. She was having a very good working attitude. The boss and managers all love her. Who doesn't? All these for a measely pay of 1800/mth WITHOUT OT pay. Crystal, after working for a couple of years, decided to quit and study full time. She decided to go Aust to pursue a deg. She can afford it, cause her family's rich. As in really rich! Her house has a gym!! As in HER HOUSE...her mom bought all the equipments on a whim. That's how rich they are. I asked her why she decided to go study. She told me that her manager asked her into the office one day and told her that they wanted to promote her. So they asked for her degree. She didn't have any. She was only a diploma student. And the manager told her this," I want to promote you, really I do. But our company's policy is that you have to have a degree before you can be a manager." This spurred her to get a degree. Life doesn't get more real and uglier than this.Fast forward to 2008. Crystal has a degree in IT. She's working in a company that gives her monthly pay in USD (she's pretty pissed now that the USD has dropped), allows her to earn so much that she's able to travel around the world every year. She'd been to Cairo, USA, India, Spain and goodness knows where. And at every destination, she stays at least 10 days and above. She's now a project manager. Cause she has the attitude AND the degree.Vera. Vera is a secondary school friend of mine. She's in the top class whereas I'm in the bottom class. She's very hardworking also. She's those kind of people who has good grades, go JC, go Uni and have a good job. Not neccessarily though. She told me when she graduated from NTU, her first job's pay was only 1600. That's equivalent to a diploma holder's pay ok. But she was ok with it. She coninued to work hard, and her job required her to fly often. After working at the company for 2 years, her efforts were not wasted. She was headhunted. Now she's earning 4K+ every month, living the life she never had. She can buy things and not worry about money. She has the degree AND the attitude.Back when I was younger, I always wanted to study in Singapore uni. I told my mom I wanted to go SRJC and then to NUS/NTU. But I was all talk and no action. I continued to play around and not paying attention in class. And like most secondary school students, me and my friends compared who had the lowest marks and was proud of it. We would go around comparing our marks and then when someone failed, I would be the one (most of the time) telling them,"Hey your marks still ok lor! You got 40 leh! I only got 20+!" By and by, I was somehow the benchmark of making people feel good about themselves. Whenever anyone failed, they would come to me and compare marks, just in hope that I'll score lower than them. Thinking back, when I DID score better than them, I was elated.Looking back, I did kinda regret why I didn't study just this harder abit. Not during my secondary school of course, cause I did pretty good. =] TK one leh. LoL. Top 30 (ranked 26 in 1998) school in SG leh. *Proud* I was pretty regretting why I didn't study harder back in poly. Cause people of my age are having at least 2 years of working experience by the time I finally graduated in 2005. And by the time I gained 2 years of working experience, they had 2 years of experience AND a degree. -_-" Hard to catch up to them..will never catch up. Cause time is already lost. And now that I'm 26 and pursuing my degree, I feel kinda old. But this time, I'm set to study smart. I'm set to get my degree. Cause in this reality world, it's always better to be more educated than the next person. My uncle, who is 50 this year, is doing his doctorate. I need to get a degree to educate myself and hage a stupid piece of paper to fall back on. It's so obvious. The pay wise that is.Normal uni grad - starting pay $2200 and aboveHonours uni grad - starting pay $2600 and aboveNormal dip grad - starting pay $1500 and aboveMerit dip grad - starting pay $1900 and aboveIsn't this just enough to justify how much aht stupid paper is worth? A $700 difference ok!! 700/mth is equals to $8400/yr!!! Meaning, you can go Japan every year for shopping!! Hahahaha...I miss Japan too much.I told my friend this, so I decided to share with you..Good results + Good attitude = Good prospectGood results + Bad attitude = Good payBad results + Good attitude = So-so life with little prospectBad results + Bad attitude = FailureThis is just my view. I think I wrote too much. But I can discuss this topic for hours!! LoL. Look at my poly classmates (from engineering). Out of the 11 of us who always meet up every month, 2 are graduating from NTU (Huiling) and Uni SA (Sue) next year. 3 are studying in uni currently. 1 is entering uni (me lor!!) this Aug. 3 are deciding to study uni next year. Only 2 are not taking a deg. That's at least a 81.82% of us taking degree. 10 years ago, a diploma is a big hoo-ha. Now, you pick a stone and throw at anyone along the streets of Orchard, chances are you would hit a degree holder or an uni undergrad. You would definitely hit a diploma holder of course, cause diplomas are just too...normal. Just like O lvl certs some 10 years ago.15 years ago, min requirement for a taxi driver may be that as long as you know basic English and mother tongue, it's good enough. So sorry, some 9 years back, an ex colleague was taking a taxi license and he informed me that at least a 3 O lvl credit. The other time I was taking a cab, and the taxi driver was an A level holder! Soon, a degree will be nothing. In HK, a degree is already as normal as our diploma. Someday, even a masters won't be enough...so kids, even if your family can afford to send you to some private sch/overseas to study, wouldn't it be better to study hard now and enjoy later in life? I did the crime (not studying hard enough), so now I'm paying for the time lost. Which is already lost lor. No matter how hard I study or whatever, I can't turn back the clock. @#$%%^. Don't be like me ah!!! Relieve At Last!! After 1 week of agony, I can remove stitches le!! I'll be removing my stitches tomorrow at 2:30pm!! Hope I can see Dr Su/Hsu/Soo. Maybe bump into him "accidentally"? Shit..fa hua chi again! =PAnyway, I can finally start to talk slightly normally le. Been talking like a speech impaired person for many days. Today did the most steady thing..I WENT TO TEACH TUITION DESPITE ME NOT BEING ABLE TO OPEN MY MOUTH!! Steady pom pi pi lor!Gotta ask Dr Eugene tomorrow if my recovery is fast enough. If ok, then I'll go back Ubi Dental to remove one more tooth (yes remove somemore), do some touching up on those bad fillings, clean my teeth and then it's braces time!!I just hope that all these can be squeezed in within 2 weeks, cause I've orientation on the 20th! So ppl, please stop asking me how's school. School haven't start! Orientation on the 20th and school starts on 25th! So gimme a break! Tml after my stitches, me think of going down to Popular and see if they have my textbooks on sale. Yes! My book list is out! And apparently we're supposed to get it at Popular PSB. See outside got or not ba. Just pray hard for me that there's no more pain for the other extraction.I still think I'm crazy to willing to go thru all these. Just to fix up my teeth when I could have done it during secondary school. Mom is always rubbing it in and saying that last time ask me do braces I say ugly, now I'm willing to do all these extraction just to put on something which I used to say is ugly. @#$%But on the other hand, I lost 2KGS and had not been smoking for...10 days!! Kekekee...ok gotta sleep soon. Ciaoz! Long Time No Cook Le About a month plus ago, mom had lunch with her friends, leaving me and dad at home with nothing to eat and nobody to cook for us. Dad was lazy to go down tabao and I was hungry, and didn't want to eat KFC nor Macs, so I've decided to cook. Found some bak chor (minced pork) and some veggies. Should be enough for dad and me ba.Fry fry fry...fry my bak chor. Funnily I wasn't so hungry when I was cooking. Maybe I should cook more, then I won't be that hungry all the time!Fry my bak chor until crispy crispy..and then add egg!! Yeah!! Then become bak chor egg!! I ate the nicest bak chor egg at Old Kallang airport hawker centre the other time with my parents and I have a sudden craving for it, so decided to cook it!Flip over! *Sizzle sizzle* Cook cook cook...me love cooking...Doesn't look nice hor? But it tastes nice lor!! Haha..dad and me finished this before the other dish. LoL. Saded cause it wasn't fluffy enough. Not enough oil and heat. Damn. But ownself eat nia, can eat can le. =]Mummy always says that must eat veggies. Therefore I decided to cook sweet peas and mushroom! My first time cooking sweet peas..or is it french beans? Whatever. LoL. Need garlic, need french beans and mushroom...Cook french beans first, until more or less slightly softened liao then add mushroom..add a little water, add soy sauce, and a little MSG. As in very very little. Like that then will be sweet. Mummy says one. And it's proven.Tadah!! Finished product. Doesn't look nice again hor. But who cares. It was a nice meal with me and my dad having 2 plates of rice each. OK end liao. Me go eat tau huay liao..still can't chew. Saded. Free One Year Supply of Make Up! Hey how would you female readers like to have free supply of makeup for a year? OK ok..not really free supply lah, more like fixed quantities of blusher, lipstick etc. You see this link? Click on it or click on the banner on the right under adverts.I know I don't wear make up, but by clicking on these links, you're giving me a bigger chance to win these..and who knows, I will give them to you if you ask ever so nicely. LoL. So help me to help you too ok? If I win, I'll put those that I don't use (eg. mascara, brow pencil, eye liner etc) for giveaway okies? Guys, click to get for your gf lor..imagine how much you're saving...keke! Click now to get the following:Photo taken frm http://www.shoppinglifestyle.com Home From Operation Loh! This morning I woke up at 6am and left home at 7am for my teeth extraction operation. On the way there, I burst out crying cause I was freaking out when Feng told me that they will inject a metel needle into my hand first before pulling it out and inserting the plastic needle. Was crying and crying. Thanks dear for waking up so early to give me a call. Anyway, cooled down after awhile, and I even asked my parents if I can bring my soft toy up. Not childish lah, just very freaked out. Was hyperventilating when I was called into the ward cause I thought they were going to administer the GA there and then.After registering and all, I guess it's almost 8am le ba. I don't really know cause I wasn't wearing my watch. Had to take weight, take blood pressure (127/57) and was told to take off everything except underwear and change into the operating robe and their slippers. I took the chance to shit! =P This ish my bed number: 5!! Bed look very small hor?Anyway, I took off my glasses, mom and dad came in, help keep my glasses, and then the anesthetist came. He told me he's Dr Su. Damn cute looking leh. He asked me if I'm allergic to anything and I told him needles. LoL.Was supposed to do the plug insertion on my bed, but then doctor come liao and I was making so much noise. Think the nurses there are worried I'll frighten other patients, so asked Dr Su to bring me in to do it. I went in, and it looked like the operating theatres in movies lor, except with lesser metal around the walls. But then wasn't looking much cause I couldn't see w/o my specs. Dr Su was very gentle and kept assuring me that it won't hurt. PTUI LOR!!! It's pain de. I was like "ouch ouch" and the other doctor was like, where pain? I pointed to my left hand. Dr Su was laughing and telling the doctor that I'm scared of needles. Right hand they took my BP again (120/56 I think) and left hand they inserted the plug.And then...MY DOCTOR came in!! He was smiling and greeting everyone good morning. OK, without glasses he still looks cute. With that dimple and all. He pat me on my shoulders and asked if I'm ok. I told him my lef hand is hurting and I think i heard Dr Su telling me that he's giving me the medicine to make me sleep. I remembered asking him how long would it take me to sleep, and he told me soon. The other doctor (old man) gave me an oxygen mask (can't exhale at all!!) and Dr Su told me to take deep breath. Then I heard my doctor greeting someone else good morning and I remembered trying to stay awake. But that was the last I remembered. I don't even remembered closing my eyes or whatever. If this is what it feels like to be dead, it's scary. You just go into darkness. *Snap fingers* Just like that.I have no idea what happened but I remembered waking up feeling cold and my throat has alot of phlegm. I kept coughing and coughing. And my BP was taken again. Every few minutes interval the stupid machine kept crushing my right arm. Dr Su then came out and asked if I was ok, do I feel like vomitting or anything. Through my mumbling, he could actually understand me. *Salute* I wasn't mumbling words somemore. Next thing I know, I was pushed out of the operating theatre and pushed to my ward. I felt high..as if I had too much to drink and I could only rest my head in one position. Whenever I try to shift my head, it feels as though the room was spinning a little. Still groggy I guess.Me is so proud of myself!! I went through the whole operation! Heng I couldn't feel the drip they had given me nor was it around when I had woken up. Oh, I was given IV drip. I have no idea for what. Parents came in, asked how I was. I told them pain and they thought it was my gums hurting since the LA had worn off. I told them it was actually the plug that's hurting me. Gums, still bearable. I just wana get the stupid thing off my hand!By 11am, the nurse asked if I was ok enough to change or whatever..so I told her I'm ok. She took my BP, asked if I'm feeling giddy or feel like vomitting. After that, I was sent to the toilet to change back into my clothes. Oh yah, you see the picture above? I believe one of these pipes were inserted through my nose into my throat. Thank God I was asleep. Yah, Dr Su told me after putting plug, he'll give me GA, then drip and then a pipe will be inserted into my throat via my nose to facilitate my breathing. Can't believe I'm that brave to go through all these..I must be damn crazy.I was so paiseh cause I actually dripped alot of blood on my bed and one of the nurses had to get clean sheets to cover the blood so I could rest properly. Thank you nurse!! The nurses and doctors from NDC today are all very nice to me lor. Assuring me, giving me confidence and all.The nurse helped me clean up the blood (by cleaning the saliva on my mouth with her hands!) and putting them into the plastic bag. The red drink is actually ribena blackcurrent. Didn't drink finish though. Yes I can drink! I told the nurse my left hand hurting (they must think it's funny how come gums not hurting but hand hurting) and she took out the plug. DAMN!!! It's painful lah!!! @#$%^& After that, I was told to wait for the doctor. I could be discharged at 1130 (I was ready to go by 11) but doctor was busy and we waited until 12+. My doctor (daddy says his name is Eugene) told me it's pretty successful, the nerves were untouched and my original teeth are all intact. The only worry is the swelling of my tongue. After that I went home le. Was told to go back next week to remove my stitches. YEAH!! The ordeal is over!!See how bloody big my teeth is? The one on the extreme left is the teeth on the top right. Damn small and cute. The middle one was the teeth Dr Eugene had to break in order to take out. The the one on the right..KNN..1.5cm lor! I'm given 8 days MC (for what?) and was told not to take hot food these few days. I'm not allowed to spit or gargle for today and have to swallow my saliva, even if it contained blood. -_-"Came home, drifted in and out of sleep while my parents went out to search for my receipts, authorization forms and appointment card (which my mom dropped when she went to buy me tau huay) cause it has all my details including my house address. And now I CAN'T SLEEP! Now can slim down liao..kekekekekek..I don't believe after eating 5 - 8 days of porridge I won't slim down lor........having this op is so much better than having it at my familiy dentist. The pain is so minimal (except for the drip and the pipe...the pipe is causing my throat to have phlegm and runny nose) and I can even mumble and smile a little.To all the doctors and nurses who attended to me today (7:30am operation @ NDC lv 3, bed 5), thank you for making this operation a successful and somewhat painless one. You guys made me feel better by assuring me and all. THANK YOU!! See you guys on Tuesday!! Operation Tomorrow Tomorrow this time I should be at home, sleeping away my GA. My operation's tomorrow at 8:30am. Guess I have to sleep early tonight. Not that early though cause I'll be sleeping whole day tomorrow. I'm nervous. I'm afraid. But I know all will be ok and I'll be laughing at my fears and be glad that everything's over in a week's time.Dear God, I pray for the operation to be successful. I pray that my teeth will not be shaky after the removal of the impacted teeth. I pray my tongue won't swell permanently. I pray I won't die from the GA. I pray everything to be well. Amitabha.Update at 3:52pm: SGH just called me. I'm expected to register at 7:30am instead of 8:30am. And I asked how the GA is going to be administer. Guess what. I shouldn't have asked. I'll be having a drip and the GA will be injected into the drip. I lost control and cried hysterically just now. I'm THAT freaked out. I Have Aichmophobia and Trypanophobia I have these 2 fears since primary school. Funnily, I remembered I was fond of injections when I was much much younger. Sigh. Anyway, aichmophobia is the fear of needles or pointed objects and trypanophobia is the fear of injections. During secondary school, whenever the word 'injection' was mentioned, I would begin to have goose bumps and start to cringe. Whenever I see the needles (not sewing kind lah), I would turn my head and start to shudder.I guess that's why I never liked injections. I hated blood test more. At least the needles used for injections were much much smaller. Yucks. Just the thought of the needles poking into my skin is making me shiver right now. Just pray that the operation this Wed goes smoothly, and that my GA is applied by giving me a mask to breathe in the gas..instead of...*urgh* injections...ok enough. I'm going to hyperventilate liaoz...yucks. At least I know my phobia's name. Do you? Check out YOUR phobia name at the phobia list. Price To Be Beautiful Warning. Explicit UGLY pictures.As I mentioned previously, I went to Ubi Dental Clinic to get my braces done. Let me explain the procedure. Before they can get my braces done, they would need to take the mould and x-rays of my teeth/jaw. I took 3 photos (full face - normal), 1 of inner upper teeth, 1 of inner lower teeth, and 3 of outer teeth (left, centre, right). Not forgetting 4 x-rays.Kinda ugly right? I'm actually resting (biting?) on a clear plastic thingy which expands my mouth. This will allow Dr Ho to take the pictures of the outer teeth. Found it funny and ugly, so asked my mom to take this pic. Dr Ho was laughing at me cause she never had a patient who wana take such ugly pic of themselves before. ^_^As I was saying, I had to take 4 x-rays, of which 2 are the inner teeth, one is of my jaw (the cool machine rotates around my head!!), and the last one I can't really remember, but the machine was also rotating around my jaw area.Anyway last Thursday, I went back to Ubi Dental and Dr Ho told me she had bad news for me. She found 3 extra teeth. Good news is that I do not need to remove the extra wisdom tooth at the top right. As for the other 2 at the bottom right, if I don't remove, I can't have my braces done. If I remove, it'll hurt as much as a wisdom tooth extraction (which was hell for me during the last time I removed my last wisdom tooth). Just to make the picture clearer.Anyway I called NDC on Monday (they are opened from Mon-Fri only..after I made a futile trip down last Sat morning) to book an appointment. I thought I would have to wait a couple of weeks for the consultation, but no. The nurse actually asked me if I wanted to go down on Monday afternoon itself. I told her I'll take Friday. So I went with my mom just now. My appointment was at 8am. Dad drove us there and I had to be there 15min earlier. PIANGZ!! I ISH TIRED LOR!!Anyway the doctor who was attending to me is a young doctor (late 20s? Mid 20s? who cares) and has a dimple! He's not those macho macho type, but he's those kind of funny, charming and has eyes that speak. Opps! LoL. I had to avoid looking into his eyes too much. Anyway, he wanted to see if my teeth are near the lips or near the tongue, so he had me go take another x-ray. I went, I took and I returned..all in 30min. Dr Yong (the dentist at NDC) told me from the x-ray, one is lying down near the tongue and one is infront. Meaning, he has to cut TWO slits. One behind the teeth and one infront, to remove these 2 teeth. *Faints* Upon hearing this, I asked if I could have GA. He says he would recommend me to do GA as well, due to the complications. And then he said something that made me shiver..I had to do a blood test for anemia. BLOOD TEST!! I've a phobia of needles!!!!! ARGH!!Oh yah, Dr Yong told me my operation would be next Wed. O..K...that's fast. And he would give me 8 days MC (for what?), cause I'll be under GA. And he says if something happens to me (*touch wood*), he told me to go SGH's A&E, give them my dental appointment card and tell them," I'm a patient at NDC. Don't waste my time by taking my blood pressure or whatever. Just get me a doctor NOW!" *Exact words from the dentist* And then..he told me what to expect...bla bla bla, and told me he'll see me next Wed. I went outside with mom and waited to pay. The consultation + x-ray + misc cost me $91+. And then we went in to get the operation form..that really shocked me.Total cost of my operation (and only operation + GA, not inclusive of med) is $2500. No wonder Dr Yong told me to remove the "wisdom tooth" as well. Cause 2 teeth is this price, 3 teeth also this price. LoL. Well, I'm having all 3 removed next Wed. And this brave girl went to took her blood test just now, which is just opposite the NDC, at HPB. And guess what? This girl made the nurse very nervous by crying infront of her. She also made the nurse nervous by clenching her fist tightly and continuing to shed tears even during the procedure. And by telling the nurse that she's hyperventilating BEFORE the procedure didn't help at all. When the nurse withdrew the needle, it hurts. I was still in a shock until I reached the MRT. I'm THAT scared of needles. Mom said because of my crying, the nurse slowly withdraw my blood, prolonging my pain. No wonder it took so long. *Shudders* Heng that's over with..now waiting for my op liaoz.ME IS GOING TO EAT EVERYTHING I WANT THESE FEW DAYS! AND 3 DAYS BEFORE THE OP ME HAV TO STOP SMOKING AND START EATING LIGHT STUFF! Apparently sick people cannot have operations, which includes mild cough, flu or whatever. Hurry hurry do, then 2 years later me have nice nice teeth!! *Pray that the op won't be too painful*PS: Madeline (Thomas's ex-classmate) says I'm very brave to go through all these just because of teeth. I told her I'm not brave, just crazy enough to do it. LoL. Looking at my needle hole on my arm, me thinks me is really damn crazy. Siao one. Me gotta prepare liao, going to teach tuition at 2:30pm later.... =] Me Thinks God Is Too Fair to Me Many years ago, Crystal and I were having a conversation about fairness. And she was the one who told me God is very fair. She said that God gave her brains and took away her height. I asked her what did God gave me and took away from me. To this she replied God gave me height and took away everything else. -_-"When I was about 22, doctor confirmed that I have psoriasis, a kind of skin disease. I thought about this and felt that God wasn't fair. But I was given a 2nd chance to study, so I thought..ok He's fair. That was the year where my family started getting close also. O..k...Then 1 year+ ago, I had knee problems. That wasn't really fair right? I mean..God gave me sensitive skin, sensitive eyes (I can only wear hard lens), sensitive nose and now? A problematic knee? But then I had a pay rise. OK, in a comforting way, He's being fair again. But I still don't think it's fair lah. =PThis morning, I went to polyclinic for my knee follow up. And the doctor told me there wasn't anything wrong with my bones. Bla bla bla. In short, I've flexible joints, meaning my bones can move, therefore I will get joints pain every now and then. -_-" Oh, so God made me feel pain in the knees because he gave me flexible joints. Doctor told me to stand up and straighten my legs. Apparently my knees go back further than normal people. She told me to bend my fingers to touch my wrists, which I couldn't, so she told me to bend backwards and I was able to do that. That confirmed her suspicions. -_-" God gave me flexible joints, but in return, gave me the pains....In the afternoon, I had an appointment with my dentist regarding my braces. When I was there, Dr Ho told me that she had bad news for me. Apparently, adults are supposed to have 32 teeth. And normallly 4 wisdom teeth (which I had extracted all 4 before). But today she showed me my x-ray of my jaw, gums and whatnots. I have a 5th wisdom tooth at the top right. -_-" Nvm, cause it won't affect the braces or my teeth cause I have space at the top gums. The bad news is...I've 2 full grown teeth..TWO..inside my lower gums. One of which is growing very near to the nerve and there's a risk to take if I take it out. My mouth/gum will be numb if accidentally hurt the nerve. HOWEVER, if I don't extract those 2 teeth, I'm unable to get my braces done. The irony man. After my 4th wisdom tooth was taken out, I was so glad that I'd no need to do anymore surgery. This is really karma. I was laughing at Feng and Nel when they extracted their wisdom tooth. Shit. Now I've to go do surgery (exactly the same like wisdom tooth) to extract those 2 teeth. ARGH!!!!!I messaged Sue just now that I always thought God wasn't really fair to me. He gave me height and took away everything else. That is until just now; I realised God gave me 39 teeth instead of the usual 32 teeth. *Cries* I've to go surgery again....a great time to lose weight...good news though. Instead of 3 years as predicted, Dr Ho says I'll have braces for roughly 26 months only! Me wana be pretty..........PS: Apparently my mouth looked like I'm pouting because of my upper teeth cause they jut out too much. Shit. And I've 3 options for braces...1: Normal - $30002: White ceramic - $37003: Special (shorter duration) - $3650Take which one leh? My First X-ray Experience I went to the polyclinic last Friday. I was only there for about 2 hours, which includes waiting for registeration, waiting for doctor, seeing a doctor, waiting for medicines and all. The doctor, Dr Mok (a HK-er), asked me a couple of questions which had me laughing:Doc: So what's wrong with you?Me: My left knee hurtsDoc: Oh, it's a very long problem? Had been going on for a couple of years now.Me: Ya, recently it gotten so bad I can't really sleep properly.Doc: *Touches left knee and right knee* Are you sure your right knee doesn't hurt?Me: Ya.. *confused*Doc: Cause your right knee is hotter than your left knee.Me: *Had crossed my left leg over the right for 10min* Oh..no no, the left is painfulDoc: Ok..have you fallen on your knee before?Me: NopezDoc: Do you do any sports?Me: *Laughs* NopezDoc: So bone should be no problemMe: Could you refer me to take an x-ray or something?Doc: Sure..you sure you didn't fall on your knees before? Or do sports?Me: *Laughs again* No I hate sportsDoc: Ok, you take this and go out, they'll take your x-ray for you. Any drug alergies? The panadol taken last time got use?Me: Nopes. Nopes.Doc: OK, Come back in a week. I suspect it's your ligament. Nothing to do with your bones. Remember to take the panadol I'm prescribing to you (dotz).I went out, waited for the receptionist to get me my appointment for X-ray. Apparently x-ray must be done at Tampines polyclinic. Dotz. Didn't have time to go down to Tampines polyclinic cause it was almost 3+pm liao. So in the end, I went home, changed and went over to TTSH to visit Feng's father, who just had an operation recently.I went to Tampines polyclinic on Saturday morning with my parents, and the medicine + consultation fee on Friday costs me $12.80, whereas the x-ray costs me $12.50. The x-ray actually didn't hurt. But it was the part where the nurse bent my knee and pushed it down on the bed that hurts. I was limping when I went out to wait for the results. After spending like almost 2hrs there, I was told to go back this Friday to Bedok polyclinic to see my doctor. Hmm..too bad I can't make it this Fri cause I have dental appointment. All these HAD to happen when I'm not working and low on moolah. Sianz. Well, mom asked me to ask the doc to recommend me to physiotheraphy. -_-" More money needed again. And my braces. ARGH!! This Fri gonna confirm everything le. Well, that I will update again. Someday. LoL. My rabbits bitting my shoes..damn, gotta chase her back to her cage. Ciaoz.I pray hard to have money drop down from the sky into my laps. Just enough money for my braces, my physiotheraphy, my school text books/stationeries, transportation and food for the next 2 years without me having to work cause I wana spend the time studying and getting good results so I won't hate myself for quitting a money-paying job to study. *Phew* Money money omph! New Places to Eat and Chill I'm late by a month..but who cares? Well, celebrated Jack's birthday in first week of June. That's how back dated this entry is. As usual, celebration with classmates. Decided to eat seafood, so bday boy suggested going to the kopidiam opposite Soka to eat. Everyone was shocked that I suggested going to kopidiam. -_-" Hello...Jack suggest one. Not me.We ordered 6 dishes: Kai lan, deer meat, prawn paste chicken, fried mian xian, cereal prawns and of course, crabs. We decided to try their salted egg crabs. It wasn't all that bad, and the crabs were all very big. I guess..it's just not fragrant enough. The veggies was nice though. =)We were very full and we finished around 8+ 9pm. Was deciding where to go next. I can tell you, we sat at the kopidiam until 10+ (Jack even had time to go home to put the souveniers I bought in Hokkaido AND come back) deciding where to go. I wasn't driving that night, so we all decided to go Tampines Mall for a drink. Chiang Hui told us that there's a new "pub" in CS, so we went down for drinks.We reached there at Blue Urban Oasis. Let me tell you..it's like Clark Quay in Tampines. The settings are different from the other cafes and shops in Century Square. And the service there? Top notch. At 10+pm, the place was 90% full. Luckily they had one table over at the smoking corner for us. The waiters are humorous and some are actually quite cute looking. They helped us keep the cake in their fridge and served us our beer. They were very patient at our table because we just kept on asking questions after questions regarding their drinks. In the end, we ordered a tower.The waiter serving us (forgot his name) was very nice. I wanted to play with the tower, so I told him to leave it to us. We will serve ourselves. He told me that he's paid to do that, and his manager won't be happy if we serve ourselves. (SEE!! Great service) In the end, he let me fill up one mug of beer. LoL. He's nice. While waiting for 12am to be here, we started chatting and nua-ing (nice place to nua) and started taking boh liao pictures...Dreamy look..I wonder what she thinking of. This is my "lesbian partner", Suefong!! *Hugz*Liang (Weiliang) zai trying to act like Sue, but failed. MuahahahahahaWhy? What? How? Alvin the yandao + alot of questions guy. Haha! He looks kinda like...nvm...Chiang Hui...act cool man. Yo yo..check it out. Haha!Why Ling so sian? Cause she tired lor. Huiling our orange. Keke..Gene my darling came down all the way from Clementi after class to join us. Actually he was aiming for the white lover's chocolate, else he also go home de. LoL.ARGH!! That's me!! Kekekeke..I'm so damn lame lor. Think too bored.Need I say more? Jack the birthday boy lor!The waiters (haven't see any waitress yet) are very nice. When I signalled to them for the cake, they actually light up the candles and put it infront of Jack. They even gave us plates and forks (w/o us asking for it). They did it with a smile somemore. This kind of service, where to find? I swear I'm not smitten by them, although they're witty, funny and cute looking. LoL.He is just so damn young..I'm so jealous!! LoL. This cake was bought at a cake shop opposite TP, one of the cake shop we used to frequent during poly days. The standard is still there; cheap and good.We bought Jack a Parker pen, cause he's a sales engineer and is a student. Nothing beats having a pen. And we bought the refill. The pen comes with a keychain. It has a diamante on it..it's so....girl...anyway, being the cheeky one, I hid the pen underneathe the box and in its place, I put the refill. When I gave Jack the present, I told him to buy the pen himself, I had only bought the refill.AND HE BELIEVED IT. He told me ok, he'll go buy the pen. -_-" I thought he was being sarcarstic, that is until Sue and Alvin kept dropping hints for him to open up the other layer, then Jack realised the pen is there. -_-" Really dots lor. He actually believed I'm so evil as to buy the refill and not the pen. He is a silly guy to believe in EVERYTHING I say. LoLOh yah, our total bill for the dinner was abt $130 and the drinks came up to $80+. BUO is a nice place..I'll definitely go again. Maybe jio BR gang there...hmm... Lousy Knee Problem My knee's giving me problem again. And this time, it's seious until even my mom asked me to go get a referral letter from Polyclinic. Well..just now went gym somemore. When walking on the jogging machine, walk 3min nia my knee wanted to give way. Huiling was telling me to walk slower. But I kept increasing until it reaches 6.2. Dotz. I'm very stubborn. LoL.After walking for 20min, we started to row. But because of the repeatingly motion of bending my knees, I felt sharp pain and stopped after 2min. I really wana give up liaoz. Went over to cycle for >20min..knee was giving me a sharp pain...dotz.I was dragging myself home today. I just hope..tomorrow, whatever it is, hopefully can be cured by eating some glucosamine or something. I don't like needles..dun want anything to poke into me. Guess cannot meet up with Suefong when not wearing proper shoes. LoL. Last Friday we went East Coast and walked for 1.5hrs+ w/o stopping. LoL. Walked too much liaoz. *Sigh*Just now mom was helping me apply those muscle ache cream..but it doesn't seem to help. It's been hurting these few days till I can't sleep well. Oh wells..like I mentioned to Feng, I don't need my left leg to drive. Therefore, I can still go out! Tml Friday le!! Yeah!! I yeah what huh? LoL..everyday's a Friday to me. But then.....Fri le! Can jio friends go out play le!! YEAH!!!PS: On behalf of SF, I would like to thank all those who made the time to go down to the funeral on Sunday and Monday. Of course, those on Tuesday as well (well I duno who went..coz I didn't). And those who couldn't make it but made an effort to send their condolences to her and the pek kim money. Thank you guys. Please do not think she's a strong girl..she's still human afterall. Please help me look after her when she's out with you guys. Thank you once again!!PPS: Meirong says I'm a very nice friend. LoL. Not everyone deserve this kind of treatment from me. I'd given everyone the same chance. Some..more chances to prove that they're worthy of my friendship. Well..some failed..even after repeatedly hinting. Nvm..not worth lor. They don't need me, I don't need them. I only befriend those who needs me..somemore sue had done alot for me to deserve all these. Don't worry Ling, me will lub u deep deep also. As well as Erin. These are the only girls in my black little book...the rest, normal friends lor. Gotta sleep...going to polyclinic tml!!*sings to the tune of we're going to the zoo*I'm going to the doc doc doc, what to do do do. I'm so scared scared scared, so scared of the jab jab jab.. Fragility of Life Friday night, I met up with one of my best friend..for kopi. I went to pick her up at her place. She came down with her eldest sis's boyfriend, who was walking their dog. She told me that her eldest sis and her bf are intending to ROM end of this year. I know her whole family you see..On Sunday morning, I was woken up by a call. I saw that it was my dad, so I ignored the call since I was still sleeping. But then I realised I had 5 sms...4 of which was from this best friend. Something wasn't right. I saw the first message: My sis passed away. The 2nd and 3rd messages were the same, but all at different timing..the earliest was at 9+am. I read her 4th sms and realised that her sis was admitted to ICU on Saturday, but had passed away suddenly this morning. I called her immediately. She told me she's with her dad, arranging for her death cert. I told her I would go down the next day, as during the first night she had many things to settle. In the end, after sms-ing to and fro, I decided to go down tonight with Feng.You see, she isn't just my best friend. She's my "lesbian partner". She's my buddy. She was there when I needed someone most. She walked with me through my darkest time. And seriously, I find her sister very cute and funny. And to think just a couple of months ago, she told me that her sister is going thru a new medication which might cure her lupus. I was glad for her. I even suggested going up to her place and ask her da jie to play wii with me. But....It was all too sudden. Da jie didn't even say goodbye to anyone.I cried. When I went down, I cried again. You see..funerals aren't my thing. Even though she's the sister of my friend, I felt connected somehow. Even though I had only seen her da jie twice..but then...it's as though she's my da jie too.My friend...I can feel your loss. I will be there for you. I will walk with you through this period. Cry if you must. With me, there's no need to be strong. You were the one who wiped my tears away and consoled me when Kev dumped me. Likewise, I will be there to lend you my shoulders and ears. I will wipe away your tears.To da jie of SF..you will be dearly missed by your family members. And you had made the right choice in bf. Your parents had gained a son. He's one great guy. Please be happy and be free of illness. Look after your parents and your siblings from above. I know you will...cause you are the da jie. I can't help you look after your family..but I will help SF in whatever ways I want..this I promise you. As for your parents, your "hubby" will do it for you. He's really one great guy. Rest in peace ba..... Of Me and "Ah Gong" - Past Crush It was the first day of orientation. I was enrolled into my first choice; TP's IT/ICP (Information Technology / Internet Computing). I know one of my net friend was enrolled in the same course also. First day of ofirntation and I was told to go to TCC. I know my class is T11H, and was searching for the seats. This tall and lanky guy asked if I was from T11H, and I nodded my head. He told me to sit down and I sat on the seat nearest to the aisle.I was staring into blank space, looking at the clock change every minute. One girl sat next to me and I realised it was my sec sch classmate, Peifen. We started chatting and more students started to pour in. Then I started noticing the OL (orientation leaders) running here and there. The tall and lanky guy apparently didn't bring his pen and was asking his friends for it. He sat down on the stairs next to me and he had quite a cute expression. LoL. I dug out for my pen and tapped him on the shoulders. I passed him my pen. He was surprised and told me that he'll return me later.When we went back to our class, he gave me back my pen and introduced himself. His name: Weiqiang. As I had not 1, but 2 of my secondary school friends in my class, I wasn't shy or scared. Instead, I made friends with my classmates very fast and was rather noisy. Weiqiang wanted to push me to do alot of things cause I'm very noisy and seemed so onz (according to him). At the end of 5 days (orientation back then was 5 days, with the last day's morning doing social service work, followed by final bash with the other 3 schools - Engine, Design and Business, and party at night), we all exchanged ICQ numbers.Funny thing was, me and Weiqiang chatted on the ICQ every night until past midnight. And everyday we still have new things to chat. I told Weiqiang that my class rep, Adrian, is my "papa", and Weiqiang told me that Adrian is his "son", which makes me his "grand daughter". He likes to call me grand dotter. LoL. Cause I always like to ... alot. He was attached then to a girl called Sabrina from Sch of Business. (OMG, I still can remember her name!!)He's 1 year older than me and like any teenage relationship, his relationship with Sabrina didn't last long. And I realised I was looking forward to his daily chat on ICQ every night. And I realised I was beginning to fall for him...Once, we happened to have the same break time. Back in those days, ITAS was ONE SCHOOL. I was in the canteen with my classmates studying when he came with his friends. I was at the jukebox (which is near where he was sitting =P), choosing a song to listen. He came and stood beside me and chose a song. If, by Daniel Chan. He told me a thank you and smile as he walk off. I chose another song and went up to him to demand for the money. He told me that's his favourite song and thanked me again. I boxed him and walked away. Inside I was smiling. When I walked back to my table, my friends were nudging me and laughing at me. From then on, I would dedicate the song If whenever I have extra cash for the jukebox..and whenever he's around. =]To say he's a nice guy is an understatement. I mean, it would take a blind guy to see that I liked him. Or rather, even a blind guy can see also. But he didn't avoid me or push me away or whatever. On his 18th birthday (17th Sep), I gave him a bottle of 210 stars (which I used straws to fold). Supposedly to be 180 stars, to represent 18 years old..but then the bottle too big, so I folded another 30 stars. All in one night. By next day my fingers were too sore to write anything. He accepted the present and was actually shocked that he has present from me. Think I was sms-ing him the whole day asking him to meet me. LoL.On my birthday the next year, he sms-ed me the whole day asking me to meet him. He told me that he's at the canteen and will be waiting for me there. I went there with my classmates and he walked over. But he sat at another table and asked me to join him. I went over and as usual, very attitude lor. So I asked him what he wants. He produced a box from behind and gave me a smile. He then wished me happy birthday and walked away. I was shocked and happy at the same time. I walked back and my classmates were making fun of me, saying why he didn't help me wear the necklace. Sadly I can't remember which necklace was the one he gave me.. =XOnce, I was at Adrian's house doing project with a couple of friends and I was sick. The previous night I was complaining to Weiqiang about my cough. And next day, he called me on my hp and told me to call him when I reach school. -_-" It was term break leh. And silly guy didn't have a hp. He only had pager. But he made me call his classmates, which I did. When I reached school, guess what he passed me? A packet of lozenges. Made me go all the way from Pasir Ris back to Tampines for this packet of sweets. -_-"" But it was a very sweet gesture. He even introduced me to some of his classmates on one occassion. Sometimes, when we chat too late into the night and I had to get up early the next day, I would ask him to give me morning call. He would set alarm clock to wake himself up to call me, and then go back to sleep. It's as if I'm his gf, yet not. I was confused..and fell deeper....We still chatted from time to time, and back then I was only a social smoker. When I had to repeat my first year, he was the only one who told me it was normal. Asked me to study hard, but must remember to play hard too. And every year he'd either message me or call me to wish me a happy birthday (until recent years lor...hmph). When I was kicked out of school, I was actually wallowing in self pity. He was the first one (among all my friends) to scold me and wake me up. I was even willing to quit smoking for him back then. I held a torch on him for 3 years..and a couple of years later while chatting with him online, I asked if he would be interested in me. He told me I wasn't his cup of tea. That hurt. We still chatted online with each other though, telling each other about the people we are interested in or are with. It was a nice feeling knowing he'll always be there to scold me and lead me back the right route.On my 21st birthday, the actual day, he asked if I would be home that night. I told him I will be. He asked for my address and came down to pass me my birthday present: a bottle of Davidoff Cool Water perfume. He was dressed in army no. 4 and wearing slippers. He drove down. So I asked if he came all the way to pass me this. He told me he bought the present a few weeks ago, so came by to pass it to me since it was my birthday. *Melt* After chatting for awhile (cause he have not eaten yet and his parents were waiting at home for him), he went home. By then, my feelings for him had already diminished. I mean..3 years+, it's enough.When I was 22 or 23, I asked him one day while chatting online if he knew that I used to like him. He told me ya, only a fool will not know. *Blush* He said, my moves were too obvious, especially his 18th birthday present, which I spent alot of time and effort to do. And everytime he plays basketball, I'll be nagging at him since he has knee injury. He felt it. But like he said before, I'm not his cup of tea. Argh!!!!! Paiseh man!! LoL. But we still remain as friends, even up till today. He doesn't message me anymore because he's busy. We chatted alot when he was in Aust though. I didn't send him off..cause it's just his family. It would be too awkward. Every year I would send him Christmas card though. I had his house number cause my house used to have caller ID, and since his surname was rather unique, it wasn't difficult to check out his address from yellow pages. It took me about 30 - 45 min only to find out where he lived. The first time I sent him the card, he sms-ed me and told me that the postal card was wrong. -_-" He's out to make me paiseh..I swear. I missed him...as a friend that is.....wonder when he is getting married......oui krukawa, I miss you leh! When wana meet for kopi?!?!?! Of Me and My Sugar Daddy My sugar daddy wasn't always my sugar daddy. He's my sugar daddy not because he gives me money to spend; instead, he is very sweet to me, therefore the term sugar daddy. We got to know each other many many years ago and went through alot. Let me tell you the story, since I've his permission to blog about it. Mr Poh, see already don't melt k. LoL.8 years ago, I got into TP's IT/ICP couse. I was pretty low profile and stuck to only my lecture hall friends (mostly my classmates). We had a channel in irc (back then very popular) and we created a channel called #T11, our lecture group. And then one guy from class T11D created #condor and then another guy from class T11F created a channel called #matchmakers. Soon, #T11 closed down. We remained in #matchmakers usually. And that's when I got to know haha (sugar daddy's nick). My nick was either girl82 or baby82. All of them call me BB, and my sugar daddy still calls me that even until now. And people from this channel were usually from my lecture group. Haha was the eldest and not even from our course. He was from Mechatronics. Even though we're in the same school, he had already graduated.We started pm-ing each other and realised we stay rather close. We are just 1 bus stop away from each other! And we'd talk for ages and talk about anything. And then one night, he called me. He asked if I wana meet. I think I was rather daring then lor. I went down to meet him alone. This is something I won't do now...as in meet someone whom I had never met alone. From that night onwards, we were pretty close friends. Classmates started hinting that he might be interested in me. I mean, who on earth would drive to my house and bring me eat air the very same day that he passes his driving? But I was interested in another guy back then..which I will write maybe on Friday ba. My life has too many men...LoL.OK anyway, Haha started doing stuff for me. He bought flowers for me, and teddy bears when I'm down. We started meeting on and off, always alone. And when I had to retain back in year one, he consoled me and stuff. Giving me little notes to tell me jiayou, which I think I still have those notes. He was that sweet.During my second year (as in year 1, repeat lah), he came by TP during the CCN day because my class because I had class and he had half day off (he was in army then). And he had borrowed his boss' car to bring me around. In the end, I repaid him by asking him to send 3 of my friends home. -_-" I was that appreciative (note the sarcarsm). I was very bad to him lor. And during term break, I went over to Crystal's house for studying, and I called him at night to see where he was. He ended up borrowing his dad's car to drive from Bedok Reservoir all the way to Newton Circus to pick me and a friend up, and then send my friend back to Loyang before sending me home. And during my repeat year, I was told to go Sentosa for some human chain thingy, and when I finished, I called him to see where he was. And as usual, he drove a car over to pick me up, even though I told him I wana go drinking. At the bar, he sat at one table with a friend of his while me and my friends were at another table enjoying ourselves. When I was ready to do, he smiled and opened the door for me. His friend sat behind while I sat up infront, only to find a balloon dog staring at me. I had complained to him during CCN day that I wanted a balloon, but we couldn't find the balloon seller (or rather too expensive). The balloon dog was made by him. *Touched*He wrote a poem for me. Seriously, I couldn't remember this poem until he showed it to me just now. LoL. Trying to gain credits eh sugar daddy?I remembered I used to like drawing Piyo Piyo, and I drew a Piyo on a piece of paper (he claims that it's in his diary/notebook). And guess what he did? He scanned it into the PC..To me, it's just an ordinary drawing. But this sugar daddy of mine...he kept the scanned picture of this up till today. Oh yah..this was sent to me via msn just now..LoL. And guess what he did to this picture? He went to make it into...This. He colored my picture!! Very sweet guy hor?There's alot of stuff he did for me..like compiling a mini CD on the love songs, making a remix on one of the techno song (This is DJ XX, from FM 51.2 [512 = I love you]), chauffering me here and there when he has the car, finding saga seeds and putting them into a bottle (ask me to count somemore..@#$%...got 99, which represents his love for me..) and etc etc. Many times I was touched. I mean, which sane woman won't be touched? He was so damn sweet.I didn't accept him then, because he was going Aust to study for 2 years. Knowing myself, I wasn't ready for committment; especially for long distance relationship. I was only 19 then. Too young to understand what love is. Me and a couple of friends (my coursemates) went to send him off when he flew to Aust. I was attached then to Jason (Ah Kow). Jason went with me to the airport and I hugged sugar daddy before he left. I told myself I wouldn't cry, but I did when I saw his back. Jason said I must be crazy. Maybe back then, I really had feelings for him..feelings that I didn't know existed. All I know was, we are still good friends. When he reached Aust, he did call me every now and then, and we would still chat on irc/icq/msn. And whenever he has holidays, he would come back and we would meet up. I was with another boyfriend when he came back for his first school break. And then in end of 2001, I heard from a common friend that he's interested in a girl. I don't really know why but my heart hurt a little. I mean..I had a boyfriend then! And funnily, my boyfriend (Eggie), saw sugar daddy walk pass us at Plaza Sing with a girl, even though they had never met before. I hurriedly call sugar daddy and he told me he's really with another girl. Although I was smiling and joking with him, my heart was breaking.A few days later, he told me that he is attached to this girl. She's 8 years younger than him. WTF!! My heart really broke then. Don't know why also. And then, during a lecture one day, I wrote him a poem:You were there when I needed someone most,But it wasn't the same with you.All I did was to laugh and boast,About how the other boys looked so cute.I am sorry.When I needed a shoulder to lean on,You were there once again for me.But when you needed someone to bond,I was out with some guy called Eggie.I am truly sorry.When I was devastated and out of my mind,You were there to hold me against your chest.But when you were going to make yourself mine,I rejected you infront of my desk.I am really sorry.Now when I want you in my arms to hold,You are no longer there.What I see now put me in cold,For there's a girl in your arms so bare.I wished it was me..I am sorryI knew I had lost him. But not as a friend. We continued our friendship throughout these few years..and suddenly, a couple of years ago, he told me that he is purchasing a flat with the girl. And a year or two ago, he married her. I told my friends, if I had accepted him back then, I would be Mrs Poh by now. I was angry, I was jealous and I was sad. What could I do? Sigh. Maybe I'm jealous that she gets to be married whereas I'm still left on the shelf. @#$%^&Anyway, sugar daddy is no longer married and he's sort of available. He's still so sweet as ever. Although no more gifts already, but then we would still come out for a smoke once in a blue moon and chat on msn..and he jokingly tells me that he wana marry me. And then proceed to say that I marry him because I wana get married, and I shot back that he marry me because he wana have a mistress for his house. LoL. We're just so incorrigible. He said he used to love me before. Well, sugar daddy, I guess, I must have liked you alot back then too.XOXOYou'll forever be my sugar daddy lah ok? And I shall forever be your BB. *Hugz* Thank you for everything you'd done for me. Thinking back, I'm still touched even till now. Even though little gremlin is sleeping under my bed and all the other stuff are in the cupboard, I can still remember the memories you gave me...thank you. *Muacks*