把愛點燃 some1 told me tat i haven been blogging since… long time ago… LOL well, i got nothing to write.. and no feeling to write… but recently i heard a song which was written like this  所以別輕易把愛點燃 我不要愛了再說好聚好散 一旦我再次把愛點燃 請讓我有天長地久的打算 the lyrics…. so real… write what? actually i got a few things to write…. but i can’t being myself to write it here… seems like i got a few real-life friends reading this…. this blogs was meant to be a place where i can write my darkest secret as well as my daily ranting… things haven’t been quite exciting in my life, i am kind of tired of my current life…. studying part-time as taken a toll in me… apparently my social life is pretty screwed up… i haven had any chance to go out with friends or to make new friends to widen my social circle… this girl, SS, i’m interested in, is in currently doing her student exchange program in south korea…. and she kind of not reply me in anyway… =( i seriously kind of doubt my chances now…. *sigh* while is in sch, things are doing ok… i got my 1st HD in 1 of my assignment, but overall i still flunk 2 tests out of 4 tests…. i hope it neutralise it and my curriculum doesn’t get pull down too much.. =( i had a hard time handing over my resignation letter… *double sigh* i still haven’t found a job, but i really don’t feel like staying here… long time no blog… its been so long since i last wrote something or anything… i was pretty busy with work and class…. and also gaming and sports(yes, i am a busy man)… working on weekdays and classes on mon, thur and fri evening… skating on fri late nights and soccer on sunday morning(which i’ve been missing for a month) is really taxing on me… esp on my sleep, when i do late nite gaming on weekends… tis is getting a toll on me… hardly able to make it to office the next working morning…. i dun tink i hv much updates on my life either, juz boring monotone stuff… same old stuff, same old routine… i club less now.. coz no more clubbing kaki.. and i dun like to take public transport home…. i socialise less now too… well on the brighter side, i’ve made 2 friends in class(after 1 sem).. i know i am lame.. i juz don’t really like to make new friends… nothing much to blog abt.. and i am at work at the moment…. will blog more if i hv something to rant/write abt… who is she? i had a dream yesterday… i dreamt tat i was with is particular girl… having some flirtatious action with each other… but i juz dun seem to remember her face and i dun seem to have seen her b4 (i think so)… she is slender and has long hair…. who is she…. ` haven been blogging haven been blogging for quite sometime… been bz with wrk, sch, GE and meeting up with friends…. i’ve become very very tired almost everyday… slping less than 5hrs per day…. including weekend… i’m back to my old gaming self… except now i’ve switch frm console to pc… i’m so tired…. *yawn* damn vday ya ya, i noe its vday today… and i am hving sour grape moments rite now… why the hell most who see me log in wishes me happy vday…. very happy meh? spending my vday with myself leh… =x anyway, Happy Valentine’s Day to the lovers out there htc or o2? since i got a pay raise and starhub got me a $150 voucher… shld i get a another line? if i shld, wat shld i get? htc touch or o2 atom life? raise yippee! i got a pay raise… 16% increament!!!! though its not alot… but i need to use it as a base pay jump… i’m still leaving anyway.. =x tired of tis field… wanna try something new… wanna b a brave one…. trying something i’ve nv learn so far… new industry, new challenges… =D happy birthday i tink i am beinging to forget thing abt u… i even forgot abt ur bday… actually, i sort of remembered and was tink wat shld i send u tis time… but i tink sch and work has caught up with me badly, tat i didnt realise it was ur birthday till i saw my calender in the fone which marks ur bday in my schedule… then i realise it was too late to do anything.. so i juz send u a sms bday wish… as usual, u wun reply any of my sms.. i begin to tink tat i am able to move on and not cling onto afterall… but juz all wiseman say… time will heal the wound… i am moving on now… but cant help every now and then, i’ll juz miss u once in a while… happy birthday cxxxxx… $14490 i almost become $14k richer…. bought $10 big, $10 small, $30 big(ibet), $30 small(ibet). which if i strike, i’ll get  $8000 for $10 small,  $4900 for $10 big, $990 for $30 small(ibet), $600 for$30 big(ibet)… total winnings is $14490…. WTF!!!!! why it open 1 instead of 0?!?!?!?! i can do a lot of things with tat amt of money…. read: A FUCKING LOT!!!! anime quotes i’ve been watching some anime for sometime liow, like i’ve been following bleach, and completed devil’s may cry, claymore and some misc anime… and still following manga’s version of bleach and claymore… found some nice quotes frm the anime which i tink is quite meaning full… from bleach: If… If I were the rain… that binds together the Earth and the sky, whom in all eternity will never mingle. . . Would I be able to bind two hearts together Live to the fullest, Ichigo. Live to the fullest, age to the fullest, go bald to the fullest… and die long after I do. And if possible, die with a smile.   Admiration is the furthest thing from understanding… Don’t use such strong words. It makes you look weak from claymore: My existence was nothing more to her than a stone by the side of the road. Every era has a hero, too bad it isn’t you. indeed, admiration is the furthest thing from understanding…. worn out… since class has started on wed(which is the day after new year) i only had 1 rest day… my class last week was frm wed till fri immediately after work and sat afternoon… then i went for my soccer game(and ya, i was injured again, will update in another post is i hv time). sunday was my only rest day, apparently i slept thruout the whole day, i still feel tired.. tis week, i’m havin class frm mon till thur straight… the schedule is same for the week after as well… i dun tink i hv the strength to utilise my weekend…. and i still need to finish my liquor at arena, it the storage ends within tis month…. the only avail weekend i hv left is tis coming and the last… sigh~ how to hv social life like tat… how to find a gf like tat… how to play GE like tat… really really very tired… tis is the path i choose, so i lan lan hv to follow till the end.. 2 and a half more yrs to go… ps: i’ll post up my xmas, nye and my injures once i’m free… i still got so many outdated post tat is archive… Sch reopens… apparently i did not realise tat yesterday was my 1st day of sch for my 2nd sem…. i almost forgot abt it… but still i manage to prepare all the lecture notes b4 goin to class… tis time round, there is jan intake students.. lots of new faces.. yesterday’s class, i hardly made it thru… dozing off along the lecture… i’m sooooo tired… and its gonna b 3 weeks of “crash” lecturing… wed-sat tis week and mon-thur for the next 2 weeks…. then routine lesson of mon, thur and fri every week till CNY term break…. then all the way till sem exam ard mid april… i hardly can digest wat i’ve learnt yesterday… so bloody tired… 夢里相遇 我又在夢里看見妳, 在夢里的妳變了. 抽煙,紋身你都有. 說你再也找不到愛妳的人, 而又無法相信, 我又能像以前愛妳那麼深. 好久都沒想到妳或夢到妳. 不知為什麼又會再次出現. 又勾起我對妳的思念. play last sat, i went to watch a play by our very own Zhou Chong Qing, its a solo act.. The play was “第一次亲密接触” by “蔡智恒”, the act was change according to local taste… it was my first time hearing him swear publicly… the feeling is quite weird… he acted very well.. the onli thing i felt disappointed is tat its a solo act… it would b better if there is an actual female lead… tis was my 1st stage play, i think i kinda like it.. mayb next time i will catch somemore… its the time of year… where every1 is so giving…. everytime of this yr, u will sing to mi “Rudolph, the red-nosed reindeer, had a very shiny nose.” in ur cute way…always making mi laugh… i nv believe u its the actual lyrics and try to correct u… but later i found out its the actual lyrics… its been 2 xmas i last heard tis phase to mi… i still kinda of like to hear u sing… Rudolph, the red-nosed reindeer Rudolph, the red-nosed reindeer  had a very shiny nose.  And if you ever saw him,  you would even say it glows.  All of the other reindeer  used to laugh and call him names.  They never let poor Rudolph  join in any reindeer games.  Then one foggy Christmas Eve  Santa came to say:  “Rudolph with your nose so bright,  won’t you guide my sleigh tonight?”  Then all the reindeer loved him  as they shouted out with glee,  Rudolph the red-nosed reindeer,  you’ll go down in history! bad year… tis yr end seems like the worst yr since i join the company…. there is no year end shutdown and the year end bonus is lousy… although i haven take my cheque, admin told me its real bad… =( it seems like a catalyst for my to tender my resignation earlier…. there nothing for mi to look forward here anymore… the onli last thing i was holding on in tis company is gone…. so are all my hopes… i finally can leave the company in peace as i hv finish all my current project.. there is no unfinish work by me… i am at least responsible in watever was given to me… gf dream… i tink i am getting desperate to get attach… i dreamt tat i’m attach in my dream… to keep me in suspense, i dun remember the face of my gf in the dream… -_-” they say, 日有所思, 夜有所夢… but i not tinking of getting attach during the day leh…. how come like tat… god like to play trick on ppl…. *sigh* i feel… i feel for u…. i saw how he treated u…. u shld be treated better… i dun tink both of u r incompatible, juz that lack of communication… i dunno if u noe i’m talking abt u… but if u feel its u, its u… if u dun tink its u, then its not u… =x KL pics actually i take onli very little pics… nowadays not very into taking pics… the petronastower… apparently i’m blocking the bridging between the 2 towers -_-” 大頭照 of me and 1 of the tower… =P ZOUK KL!!! but we din go… not realli in the mood to chiong oso… old skool train pass… dunkin donuts… i tink donut is still overly rated… J&Co, apparently our malaysian counter part oso hv donut crazt… the Q was so long tat i gave up the idea of trying them… i cant even squeeze in to see wat donut flavour they offer… their new shopping mall… pavilion… its like soooooooooo bigger that i gave up trying to walk thru all the levels… the singing xmas tree… inside the pavillion… there were carol singing thingy there…. tat’s abt it… too lazy to take pic… =P 假装的背后 忍受不应该是劳累的牵挂， 坚强也不应该是逃避的虚伪。 忏悔，在这个不分对与错的世界， 呼吸着冰冷的空气，一种名为孤独的味道在唇齿间慢慢化开。 孤独掩藏在僵硬的笑容背后，在你沉默以后， 那种心跳的感觉慢慢的被淡忘掉，我开始讨厌自己。 受了挫折的人，或多或少会找借口掩饰自己。 其实，我们都逃不掉这场游戏， 而自己，也一直分饰两角， 一个是假装坚强的角色， 另一个是坚强后面，躲藏着受伤的角色。 也许我们早就该放弃， 早就不该再去浪费时间找寻不属于我们的天空。 假装爱情总有一天会回来， 这正是爱情最悲哀的地方。 当爱情都已被耗尽，我们还剩下什么？ 孤独的、悲哀的、盲目的。。。 也许，一个拥抱已经是一种奢侈。 于是，我们开始冷战、沉默，甚至是歇斯底里。 用一生来还你的一辈子，却不知道何去何从。 隐瞒，是一种畸形的爱， 假装，更是精神上的一种背叛。 当爱情只剩下貌合神离， 不如算了吧， 就让我们都假装活得轻松一点。 back~ i think cobwebs is growing ard my blog liow… its been sometime i last do any update..  >. juz came back frm KL for a very short weekend… initially was suppose to go with “rnc” and another of our common friend… but kena “aeroplane” by our common friend.. apparently she’s so tied up with her work she gotta go back office during the weekends to clear her stuff…. so “rnc” gotta give up her place coz she dun wan her bf to feel uncomfortable travelling with a guy alone… luckily for me i found 2 replacement to go with mi… who happens to be a couple… as usual, being single quite sux… the whole world is so lovey-dovey… sux man… =( will post the pics once i upload into the webby.. biatch nb, damn pissed… dun always assume u r always rite…. stuff dun tally dun always put the fucking blame on me…. its every1’s responsibility… not juz mine… stuff dun go missing for no reason… i dun issue out goods juz like tat… u dun fucking give a fuck face to every1… u r juz as dispensable as mi.. u got no fucking working ethics… quitting soon? i dunno if i’m quitting blogging soon… coz i realli cant find anything else to write abt…. i lead a monotonous life… dun realli hv much life now… lol juz some updates, i went to T3 open house recently… will post some pics later…. T3 in my opinion will be like a mini shopping center in the extreme east… its goin to hv more than 100+ retail shops and 20+ F&B outlets… its like wow… i recently join my 1st online pc gaming.. GE, Granado Espada… i noe i’m late in tis… i usually dun do pc gaming… i’m more of those console(playstation) gamer… and ya, i finally sent out the tinkerbell gift to the her…. i hope she will like it… reality sux life sux when reality sets in… hate tat tis kind of stuff happens ard mi…. luckily i got to vent in on a friend….luckily i still got a friend like tis… i’m goin to kl next mth for a weekend trip… woohoo!~!~! can’t wait… homecook japanese dinner… juz cameback frm a dinner my friend and his partner prepared for us… a japanese meal… no pics coz i left the camera in the car and i din drive there.. they prepared, teriyaki salmon, grilled shishamo, ebi tempura, tobikko sushi, salmon sushi and sashimi, miso soup and some1 else prepared a popcorn chicken(mind u, its homemade not frm kfc)… it was a great meal… i wish to always hv times like tis… btw, some1 told mi these few days i was different… like pms-ing… well… i dunno, i can’t change wat others see/tink rite… its monday blue again….*sigh* 一首歌你我的歌… 有沒有幾首歌是寫出我們的開始, 過程和結束? 如果我寫了一首歌, 寫的是我們的故事, 妳會聽嗎? 聽了有苟同嗎? 寫的是我記憶里的妳. 回憶里沒有壞, 只有妳的好. 里頭會寫我們吵過的架, 妳得原諒, 妳的可愛, 無知, 天真, 妳的歡笑, 悲傷, 絕望, 妳無數的追求者, 我的不安, 俾偽, 妳的成長, 我們的距離, 妳的了解, 妳的決定, 我的成全. 我們最終的協議… Protected: so much so calling urself… This post is password protected. To view it please enter your password below: Password: if i… if i had u by my side, will i still remain as b4? if i had choose to let go and move to a new relation, will u think whatever i said was nothing but bullshit? if i had gone all out for u, will u run away? if i had approach u instead of pushing u away, will we regret? if i had studied harder, will i be where i want to be now? if i…. updates its been a while since i last updat anything here… been on leave since 24 sept till 2 nov… yesterday was like my 1st day at work… damn those backlog stuff… my bro came back frm his oversea assignment liow… and tis time its mostly like for good… return the car to him after almost 2 yrs of “taking care” it… he bought a new pc back as well, and he is giving mi his old asus lappy, at least its better than the desktop i’m using rite now which is like 5 yrs old and start giving mi problem liow… juz finish 2 of my paper… i tink i did fairly well in 1 of them but did real bad for the other 1… i hv a feeling tat i’ll fail tat and gonna repeat 1 sem.. or even a yr… damn the system… i bought a birthday gift for a girl, but i dun tink she wanna take it… she seems like avoiding mi whenever i wanna meet her to pass her the gift… am i tat scary? or is it she is realli bz and i’m juz tinking too much… and i am so freaking broke…. i realli dunno where i spent all my money…. *sigh*