suddenly i feel a sense of lost-ness.and no, i'm suddenly not excited about IPP.i totally don't know what went wrong.excite me, please. bring me to a faraway placelong post ahead..yes, please, bring me to a faraway place. PLEASE.i just wanna enjoy myself. but i guess my parents think that they freaking gave birth to a freaking robot, which will only study, and try its best t score good results, and a robot which will only WORK its metal off t earn money.i'm trying very hard t please you, what more you want? can i have my own life back? i don't wanna spend my life thinking how can i enjoy myself better okayyy?thanks.-------sometimes i find myself living in a fantasy world, a world of my own, dreaming BIG dreams that can never come true. and stop telling me t believe in God for these dreams, cos i know it's freaking impossible cause this dreams MUST start from young. i'm too old for it already.dreams, dreams, dream.i know some of you will say, then DON'T DREAM these dreams. you think i want ah?! THAT'S the bitterness of life.really loh, BLOGGER IS FREAKING NOT LETTING ME 'ENTER' IN MY ENTRIES THE WAY I WANT IT!!! Stardust"You know when I said I knew little about love? That wasn’t true. I know a lot about love. I’ve seen it, centuries and centuries of it, and it was the only thing that made watching your world bearable. All those wars. Pain, lies, hate… It made me want to turn away and never look down again. But when I see the way that mankind loves… You could search to the furthest reaches of the universe and never find anything more beautiful. So yes, I know that love is unconditional. But I also know that it can be unpredictable, unexpected, uncontrollable, unbearable and strangely easy to mistake for loathing, and… What I’m trying to say, Tristan is… I think I love you. Is this love, Tristan? I never imagined I’d know it for myself. My heart… It feels like my chest can barely contain it. Like it’s trying to escape because it doesn’t belong to me any more. It belongs to you. And if you wanted it, I’d wish for nothing in exchange - no fits. No goods. No demonstrations of devotion. Nothing but knowing you loved me too. Just your heart, in exchange for mine."yeah random. now i don't know what time t sleep :/and blogger is being weird this few days. they don't let me 'enter' in my entries the way i want it! humphh, bummer. HAPPY GIRL! :Dyes, i'm a happy girl td! had my favourite food for lunch, bought my long time childhood favourite 'toy' LOLtadahhhhhhhhhhhit's hard t find it ard singapore nowadays you know! haha everytime i go back t khatib for prawn noodles, i will definitely go back and buy that 'toy' lol.NOT ONLY THAT!i went down to Raffles City to the 'Welcome back Team Singapore' event in the evening! whooooooooooo.saw feng tian wei, li jia wei, wang yuegu. hahah touched feng's hand! :DDdamn high!thennnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn, who knows!i thought i won't get t see bryan tay. but yeah, WHO KNOWS! i saw him when we were going down the escalator. God's gift for me HAHAHA then rah said, go back go back! go back and take photo with him! lol cause we saw someone taking photo with him.and yeah! we went back t take photos with him HAHAi'm a happy girl!i'm a happy girl!i'm a happy girl!i'm a happy girl!i'm a happy girl!:DDD time has past and gone.very quickly, our exams are over. the academic semester of year 3 2008/2009 is over. soon, 6 months will fly pass and we're officially the pioneer batch of hospitality students t grad from NYP.how cool. no?many thoughts still running in my head. i don't know how to pen them down at all. too many to organise.now that exams are over, we've got one week t rest before we go for our attachment. sadly, we haven't know where we'll be going yet. well, basically, there was some problems here and there.thou shall not comment.--------different people have different opinions, different way of seeing things and life. we meet many people through our daily lives, and very much discover more about our friends, each day we spend time together. good, bad, we can't judge them, but we can accept them for who they are.days and years pass in our lives. many would have grown and matured, i believe. while there are some others who are haunted by their past or just can't move on in certain areas of life, be it friends, past relationships, school work, nonsensical stuff or even stuff that are plain stupid.i've realised that, i, for once, am tired of searching for some things. i will put in my effort, but it takes two hands t clap. well, i got nothing much t say.-------discipline. independence.what can i say? i've really learnt a lot from this short 6 months. as my friends and i have discussed when we looked back, things really changed. we end up spending the last months of our academic semester with people whom we never would have thought will end up spending with.we were always in our own comfort zone and circle of friends since year 1. come year 2, we still had the same friends with us in class. who knows, that opportunities got the whole of them. learning to be independent, we all separated and i believed we all learnt a lot. well, at least i can say that i DID learn a lot (:hey girls, i don't know who will be reading this, (maybe germ, rah.. heh) but, thanks for everything in these past 6 months.. i always thought i knew how t prioritize, but now i know even better how to. even better, i've learnt to be more confident of my proj grp mates and myself (:ermmm, maybe it's a bit too late bout the proj grp mate part, but still haha it will apply to the working society i guess..woah, at the blink of the eye, it's really years flying past. seriously, time and tide waits for no man, therefore, we all think that we do not have enough time HAHAgame time, drama-shows time, sleep time!p.s. i think i am being quite random in this post! lol urpsi suddenly realise that, i have a lot of thoughts within me. i'm trying hard t fight them away. urps HAHA ya, fight them away.HOW TO?!omg faint.exams are coming. i'm still stuck on my last report. constantly looking over t MSN, watching dramas. FOR WHAT?!uhhhhhhh, i'm not a sparetyre horrrrr. just so nice i was still awake. THANKS UHHHHHgo find your sweetheart -.- the ugly sidewe were the officals for the Flag @ Padang event on National Day 2008. and we literally saw the ugly side of Singaporeans. tsk, cheapskates.bahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhreports. my last report, maybe for the rest of my life :/jy!------- empty on the inside, but thank God for great friends (: i know lah, i know lah,i'm just the shit cleaner mah.i'm the toilet paper mah.shit work let me do.do alr no 'thank you's.nvm it's ok. give me all this for what?stop sending the emails lah.stop calling me lah.you think i like it ah?ungrateful people.once help is given, you close your eyes.when you need help, you look for the sai kang king.finish alr, you just slap your buttocks and say goodbye.you think what?i'm your slave ah?IN YOUR NEXT LIFETIME LAAAA.whatever okay?I AM DAMN FREAKING PISSED OFFFFFF!!scarifice so much for what?do so many things for what?i'm already keeping my cool ok?if i don't know anything about it THEN DON'T FREAKING SEND ME EMAILS CAN?!go find other substitutes can?you think i'm the best choice so?YOUR ACTIONS SPEAK OTHERWISE!ACTIONS SPEAK BLOODY LOUDER THAN WORDS.I DON'T CARE WHAT YOU GONNA SAY NEXT.EVERYONE HAS A TEMPER.EVERYONE HAS A LIMIT.SO SHUT UP!JUST LET ME GET THOSE FREAKING WORDS OUT!BUT FREAKING AMAZINGLY I STILL FEEL THE SAME AFTER TYPING ALL THIS. SO CAN YOU FREAKING IMAGINE THE AMOUNT OF HURT YOU HURLED AT ME?!to think i trust that you trusted me.FINE! ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!YOU BETTER FREAKING STOP PUSHING ME AROUND AND START WORKING YOUR ASS OFF FOR SOMETHING YOU SHOULD BE DOING FOR!seriously lah, you've changed okay.i don't know what the hell happened, cos you changed FOR THE WORSE. so WAKE UP WAKE UP WAKE UP!sigh, i can't control your life. you shall see for yourself what you have done.maybe i'll leave and not come back. at least things will change? for the better or worse? i don't know. but i guess my presence doesn't make much of an impact since it seems like i'm not needed? aiya it's ok lah, you got so many people to help you. or maybe 'help' you lah.you will see at the end of the day, who are the real ones who will stand by you. shouldn't havehow i wish i don't have to come back t singapore. HAtrying to be strong when i am not.lifelessemotionless vienna videostaking a long break from projs from just nw till now, i decided to watch the videos charlene sent me. orchestra performance at musikverin.DAMN, i'm damn proud to say that we really worked hard for this trip man, esp the strings.THEIR BOWINGS!sweeeeeeeeeeeet!so together!i totally love the last past of underworld. when the strings' bowings were damn vigorous LOL but damn together! LOLi can't help but keep re-watching it loli'm missing viennnnnna :D lies?sometimes you realise what you hear may not be the truth.disappointed. i really don't know how to react :/stressed? stressed? stressed? bahhhhhhhhhI'M CRAVING FOR LAKSA NOW!:Djust let me be. i know i'm packed with many tasks, but i just wanna enjoy lifewithyoua secret that mustn't be let out. ENTRE PROJ SUCKS! BIG TIME!omg la! it's like alr 4.34AM in the morning, YES MORNING! WHAT THE CRAP and i just completed the website from where my dear friend left off.grrrrrrrrrrr entre like totally suck big time? so many projs to do!!):i wanna cry cry cry alr!):MUMMMMYYYYYYYanother 6 more hours and i need to be off to school alr ):i think i can only sleep 3 or 4 hours td, again ):my post is filled with ):and ):and ):and ):forever ):lemme countdown ):.friday, 250708, entre presentation.monday, 280708, MCE presentation.friday, 010808, ROM presentation.friday, 010808, NAFA test [WTH].monday, 040808, HHO presentation.saturday, 090808, SEFM hands-on assignment.monday, 180808, MCE semestral exam.wednesday, 200808, HHO semestral exam.thursday, 210808, ROM semestral examI SO WANNA SLEEP CAN?! I SO WANNA PLAY AND REST AND RELAX CAN?! my friend's msn nick is 'wake me up when AUGUST ends.' SO TRUE!BYE )):script timep.s. staring at the laptop screen for such long hours has made my eyes teary and tired. now my laptop has been like running for hours and i pray it won't start burning soon! if it burns, I'LL BURN THE WHOLE SCHOOL DOWN! grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr memorieswehhhhhhhhhh you have to bring home a different girl every year during your birthday is it? zzz i don't know what else t say :/ random postoh welllllllllllllllllllllll, i hope that year 3 academic year will end well and end sooon! as for now, we still have an overload of projects. it doesn't seem to reduce! goodness, i haven't finish my parts ):-------i don't know why, but suddenly after the trip, i felt a sense of.. calmness, a sense.. of purity! till td, after making so many detours, i still managed to kept to my promise to God, although, yeah detours :/heeee everything just disappeared from my mind, my brain. and all the matters that i'm focused now is school work, band and how to manage my time to make myself free-er LOLi'm glad! I'M REALLY GLAD! :Dand i think i'm hooked back onto blogging. guess it was livejournal that turned me off from blogging? hhahah anw i don't know why shutterfly can't seem to be able to upload my photos!!! zzz-------oh ya, i've got a piece of shocking news!my PRIMARY school friend is getting ENGAGED! like goodness!my mum told me about it cause she heard from my other classmate's mum. and i was like damn shocked! i thought my mum was kidding you know. she wasn't shocked at allllll! but okay la, one thing is cause the guy is about 5 years older than her i think.but omg shocking!hahahah back to projs. dinner out soooooooon! :DDBYE Summa Cum Laude International Youth Music Festival, Viennayupp, this post is dedicated to the trip!but let me digress a little first :Dwent for cellgrp meeting and pohchoo's water baptism td (saturday)! and i really felt whoooooooooooo! so loved by God! heh i miss church!wellowship was only with 5 people, including myself, so we went somewhere comfortable and centralised. din tai fung @ raffles city! haha it was a hearty meal and, yeah i enjoyed wellowship:D-------wehhhhh, i haven't update on vienna trip. i'm kinda lazy t do so actually. well, all in all, i enjoyed myself, though when we were at vienna, we didn't had time to shop cos of the competition and celebration rehearsals. lucky we had time in saluzburg!alright, i guess i've finally decided to post up everything at one go LOL initially i wanted to post a few pics only, but why not just do everything?! lolpast few days i was too lazy to do so, that's why this post came a little overdue LOL *caution: highly overloaded with pictures! read the words toooooo laaaa! :Dbtw, captions are all under the photos so, don't get the wrong captions for the wrong photos!NYPSO at Singapore Changi Airport, waiting to depart! we were trying to take a proper group photo haha efore we board the plane. at the "tunnel" to the planeon the flight t London!!! at the london airport, T3, after touchdown.the london airport staff didn't let us take photos of the airport, but i guess, we still secretly took some! LOLwhoooooo, part of the band with edelwise! while waiting for our turn to check through the transit "customs". at the transit area! flutes plus oboes! while waiting for the airport to "flash" our gate number at the screen. bahhhhhhhhh they took just a long time to show and open the gate! cute toddler we met at the transit area FINALLY! we reached vienna! and yupp! we got down the plane by that staircase. haha first time in my life! i guess it's because the airport ain't big? or maybe because it's alr late at night? this is our room for one night at the Euro Hotel. yupp short isn't it? apparently we were told that it's the vienna airport hotel but it was still quite a distance fr the airport LOL. the next day we moved to another hotel, called Academia Hotel, which was quite eeeeeerie :/strange things happened when we were staying at Academia Hotel. brrrrrrr the thought of it, makes me don't wanna think about it HAHAA i preferred the first hotel to the second one! before we went down for breakfast. i kinda love my hair that day LOL my first breakfast at vienna! we had the same kind of breakfast for the next 6 to 7 days -.- a horse carriage! yeah, they still use this kinda transport device! but it was more of a tourist attraction cos i heard it's quite expensive. but oh well, it made the whole street stink of horse dung! OMG! wahahahahah some random signage. i actually stole this from cheryl! :/ rehearsal for competition! at the University of Music! the strings had no rehearsals that day, so they got to have free time to walk around while we rehearsed hard!!! ): another rehearsal pic buildings outside the university buildings outside the university gay partners at work! lol it was lunch break for the band, our first lunch in vienna. Musikverien in the day! random building some kind of transport. looks like a monorail lol another transport. i think this is more like a tourist thingy, like singapore's ducktour, hippotour kinda stuff i guess.. at the festival's opening ceremony! everyone was tired, some were dozing off :/ if i'm not wrong, this is called the St Stephen's Cathedral.dinner time! our first dinner in vienna. lol some asian restaurant set up by a family from china. ehhhhh the food kinda suck. some chicken were not fully cooked, we could see the blood :/and the rice was...... overcooked. got chao ta smell-.- flute section! before the competition. whoooooo NERVOUSeugene low and i, after the competition, while waiting for others to load their instruments to the truck.. LOLOLOL after the competition, back at the university of music, while waiting for our workshop to start. flute section w mr leonard tan! eh han, not young anymore hor, don't make fun of me! uncle han (:heh! *inside joke NYPWO!since they like to label themselves as nypwo :/that's us while waiting for the next music lecturer to come in. random building random building. ain't their architecture B-E-A-UTIFUL?! hahah! spot me! if you can! wehhhhhh handsome waiter! we were having our lunch in some restaurant after our orchestra rehearsal. yeah, that's how busy we are. NO TIME TO SHOP IN VIENNA!!!!and we thought the trombone pang-seh us for lunch so we went without them. when we return then they ask where we go! lol they were waiting for us initially! that's alvin and me! and this's benny and me!waiting toooo long for our food, we got bored. next stop! some fellow's castle lol! it was an attraction and we were on some kind of a city tour. i can't rmb whose castle is it lol but mozart visited the place before! sar and me. i kinda like this pic. abstract! lol jump! yeah, my dear jiahui said i looked squashed between the guys. like wanna fly but can't fly! hahanext up: some jump shots! looks very sequential lol jump 1 jump 2 jump 3 jump 4 jump 5finally we managed to jump! and mr tan wasn't jumping at all -.- yeah, i'm short lol! jump 6 jump 7 amelia and me (: nice scenary huh? the summer palace of don't know who haha dinner at some wine restaurant. and this the time when they annouced that NYPWO WON THE COMPETITION!!!!after the orchestra performance at the celebration concert. having lunch while waiting for us to go in for the Gala Winners' Concert.during the Gala Winners' Concert (:can you see me? Musikverien at night (:B-E-A-UTIFUL at the Gala Winners' Dinner!this is some girl i know while waiting for our turn t perform previously at the Gala Winners' Concert. heh she's a malaysian studying at an australian school! mr tan and the organiser of the SCL festival maynard, phileo, hongyee and me. yeahhhhh maynard is TALLLLL one of our tour guide! his name is karl. both tour guides followed us throughout the whole trip! next stop: Saluzburg! on our wayyyyy scenaries on our wayyyy at some garden which was supposingly a scene in the musical, Sound of Music that's jonathan, jason, me and zihui at some catholic church in saluzburg a view outside the church hongghee and i outside the mozart museum we played pool at the hotel in saluzburg! oh oh oh! the hotel at saluzburg was the best out of the 3 hotels we stayed at! too bad we were only there for about 2 nights. lol at the bus stop opposite our hotel the next morning. we were waiting for bus 4 to go to the town area to SHOP!!!:D that's us on the bus! some random dude that we bought things from at the town area.this's the guy who did the art work! outside saluzburg's supermart LOL our last night at saluzburg! before that we had a performance at the catholic church mentioned previously. it was a kinda music festival to thank God for our talents. wahhhhhhhhhhh B-E-A-UTIFUL scenary taken from our hotel window!! on the way back to vienna to catch our flight ): while waiting at london for all our luggages and instruments.yeah that marks about the end of the trip. everyone's missing austria! the life there seems so great! but i guess it's partly because we knew that we will come back and suffer with tons of projects and mountains of work that's why we were all sad to leave.but i guess, it's okay!at least we experienced the life there! wheeeeeeeeee and best of all, we may get to go WMC next year, even for the yr 3s! go as alumnus loh! save money now! :Dwe really had lots of fun although some times there are some crop ups here and there. but overall, yeah! fun!imagine you get the chance t go to vienna while our school mates are mugging in schooool! but well of cos, aft we gave back, we kinda suffered? with all the work overloading nad overflowing over our heads loli freaking got freaked out by my PEM pleaseeeeeeeeee. he told my grp mates that he will be asking only ME questions during our monday presentation's Q&A session. mannnnnnnnn he said he wanted to test our grp's coordination while i was away. in the end, he only asked some of us qns -.- but, thank God for that!okayyy, it's like late, or is it early? lol!4.56am in the morning! i gotta slp and wake up early to do projs again!and tri reminded me tht i've yet to post my entry on Singapore Flyer that happened before i flew to vienna lol! next time next time then post!p.s. many other photos of the trip will be posted to my shutterfly asap! i've still got a lot of photos with other people! i took pictures with the coach drivers who made me look super duper like a hobbit between them! LOLOLOL watch out for my shutterfly!!!the link can be found at the right column of my blog :DBYE.i had great fun and i'm missing austria! i wanna go back to Saluzburg! YO!yeah YO! wassupman!it's been awhile and i've decided to come back to kohjolene.bs.com! whoooooooooooooooooooooooooi kinda miss this blog (:-------well hell yeah, i'm back from vienna, saluzburg, and livejournal. HEHand EDWARD! you cheated by using yahoooooo. and that was so rude. to peep into people's privacy without permission.BYE.next post will be about vienna, cos for now, i'm having a headache and i wanna sleeeeeeep (:danke ; bitte ; WC! moving!yup, i guess i'm moving away from blogger.new, or rather the other, address is..http://threwatantrum.livejournal.combut once in awhile i'll still blog here, maybe?honestly i've yet t decide t move or not. i like this blog eh HAHA horror nightan unusual wednesday i would say.after work, it was band pract in school. as usual. but today, i didn't went out for dinner-cum-supper with min and gang. instead i went home.cause, i was supposed t lead adam the way t the GB campsite. yes, here's the unusual part.adam and john came t pick me up at my place at past 11.30pm. then we went down t the campsite. well, adam had no choice but t recce the place at night cause he couldn't take off from work.my sis was telling me, be CAREFUL. it's super scary there at night and she made those ghostly sounds hahah.so yup down t the place. it was ultra SPOOKYYYYY. like man oh my holy goodness. dark with only lights coming from the dorm's corridors and the pathetic vending machine in the middle LOL and also fr the carpark of semb park.the bell fits totally well in a horror show man. it was like A SIREN CAN?! hahaha but interesting night i shld say. great place t stare at the stars but well.. bring your bible and chant some prayers! HAHAHA kiddingjohn and i had a funny conversation.me: scarly during the camp everyone praying through the night man. (laughs)john: ya! overnight prayer meeting! (laughsoutloud) and aft the camp, everyone will be so spiritually on fire for God man!HAHA funnnnnnny.-------now that i'm part of the band committee again, things are slowly starting t come t me again, so yupp will be busy, esp when we're going for the SCL competition in Vienna. it kinda feels good that i can be part of everything again. but of course, i pray that i can handle everything, one at a time.no stress haha all working hand in hand.(: what shld i do?watching August Rush now. and i'm kinda glued. it's alr 1.27am in the morning eh. mannnn i gotta stop soon else i'll be late for work tmr.gaa gaa gaaa..actually i realised i feel happier now that i've set things clear with him. haha and much lighter with a load off my back HAHAyes rah i'm serious.i'm not gonna waverrrrr (:but what does it mean by 'what shld i do?' as my post title? hahahcause i'm starting t procrastinate about work though i know i would need the cash badly. and i wanna go shopping! mannnnn so how t scrimp and save for vienna when i need, yes i mean need, t buy some stuffffi wanna get shoessssss. bahhhhhhhhh! stuff/shopping.using my desktop now cause i'm lazy t on the laptop hahamannnnnnnn, knowing that the vienna trip would still cost a bomb even after a 70% subsidy, i'm thinking twice about spending money. i totally feel the pinch just thinking of itttt.handphone:now, shld i just get a cheap one that's alright, or get a second-hand hp or just make do with the current one?now that i've got my eyes on another handphone (yes i decided against 6500 cause it's trade in price is now alr as low as an E65), i can't use my plan t upgrade cause my dad used it and it's yet t be 21 months !!my gawkkkkk. think my sis will strangle me if i ask t use her plan !:/seriously la, i need a new phone now. the 'on' button of my phone now is like gonna spoil sooner or later lohhh.WHY DOESN'T SINGTEL HAVE VOUCHERS GIVEN OUT TO LOYAL CUSTOMERS LIKE THE KOH FAMILY ?! all 3 of us are holding singtel lines loh. for like 6 years and counting laaa!:'(man oh man.vienna.gonna start sourcing for more $$$$ earning sources.any lobangs anyone?:D-------eliz and sandy have alr reached orlando and to their hostel too. jiayi, belinda and cass came online. but i yet t see eliz and sandy online after they've got their rooms..hey girls! come online soon! hope you two are doing fine, esp eliz, now that you're staying alone. be strong my dear girls! everything's gonna be fine. rahrah and i will be praying for you two over in sg (: xoxo,loves missing piecesthe girls are flying in the air now.feels so weird now, knowing that they are on their way t orlando. another 8 hours and 15mins and they will offically step into orlando.the scene on sat morning was saddening. red eyes, tearful goodbyes.6 months, it ain't gonna be easy. we hugged and cried, knowing that good friends are now gonna be apart. the puzzle is now incomplete.now i don't have the mood t do anything at all, just slacking my hours away. don't even have the mood t attend cg and svc tmr): i'm so missing you girls now.. -edited-i forgot that the video is private and confidential :/ so no video willl be up. goodbyes are always hard.i'm now alr at the airport. another few more hours t go before bidding farewell t our dear friends for 6 months.gonna miss them badly. seeing them with huge luggages, hearing about their packing.mannnnnnnn ): leap years.i finally watched it with sarahlim ytd. was quite a good movie (:okayy, suddenly the urge t blog went away, so,BYE. get a life.crappy super crappy. and cranky now. like HELLOOOOO!can i just get a life out of this dead weeks now?! finally i get t take time off t get tgt with my friends, you freaking ask me t go home.totally feel like screaming. i'm wasting my life away, earning money which i can't spend. wanting things yet i can't get them.SOMEONE FREAKING DROP ME MONEY FROM HEAVEN PLEASE !!! I FREAKING REALLY NEED THE MONEY NOW TO GET WHAT I WANT!!!once in a lifetime chance, opportunity.do i need t give it up? i know i won't and i wouldn't wanna give it up. but circumstances restricts my decisions and choice.so i really do need money now. noah's arkhow t change the world?anAct ofRandomKindness at a time.whatever God has in plan for you, He does it with His love for you. one day, you will understand why God placed some people over you or in your life, why certain things happen for a reason, and all the "why"s you wanna ask God. nope you do not have t wait till you die and return home to Him, you will just know it one day (:He has everything planned for you. oh man.just within a span of 2 weeks, i felt so shagged and weak TWICE!last week i fell sick, sore throat and flu. it totally felt like as if the office was an ice box. kept shivering and felt damn sleepy.and just td, i felt so weak cause it had been a long while since i had my last EXTREMELY-PAIN-period. like what the crap !damn it damn it. so shagged and weak.-------work had been alright, especially alright, aft the first week HAHA. met nice people at work. somehow the office's environment is now much younger than previously lol cause there are 4 attachment students there!got t hang out with chin chye and yangxu aft work for the past 2 days. haha dinner and crappy stuff. going from one place t another.the first time, it was from office t T3. looked ard, decided that there's nothing much t have for dinner there so clever me suggested IKEA. and it took us like 1/2 AN HOUR t get t IKEA from the airport la. three of us were damn hungryyyyy laaaaa. cracked stupid lame jokes on our bus rides hahaas for td, we went from office t siglap. chinchye wanted t chill at coffee club. but of cos we had t have dinner before that right? so we looked ard as usual, was gonna settle for hongkong cafe. then smart chap, yangxu, said no pretty girls! so we went t look at EVERY RESTAURANTS' GIRLS. well, okayy, almost every haha. and in the end, he can't decide where t eat, so we went down t parkway parade.lame right? but funny guys t hang out with la HAHA i had my fill at laughing at them! LOL:Doh and i saw justine td at parkway parade and she said she feels weird seeing me alone without pohchoo HAHAPC! she says we're like siamese twins la! LOL (:-------anw, i was damn amazed and motivated by XIAXUE aft reading her blog and finding out that her room is DAMN NEAT.YES HEAR ME CORRECTLY,XIAXUE'S ROOM IS DAMN NEAT.don't believe? go read it.so now i'm motivated t keep my room neat. but the question is, where shld i start cleaning from? hmmmmm HAHABYE!gotta be on time for work man! the end of year 2.staring at the laptop screen that's showing my results, it marks the official end of our year 2. time flies and i will definitely miss year 2 in nyp.i believe i've typed such a post before.year 3 is so gonna be different. with the class torn into quarters, 1/4 in orlando disneyland, and the other 3/4 still in sg, nyp.it's definitely be a whole new experience for my clique. i do not know what willl be in store for us. i just hope it won't be too much of a roller coaster. even if it is a roller coaster, let it be a fun ride.okayy, i'm getting a lil' bit emo over here.adapting your school life totally once again every year ain't exactly a good experience.from year 1 t year 2.we had a change of class as we had t choose our preferred specialisation. well at least most of the girls in BG has at least one familiar face in their new classes.year 2it was an eye opener for us esp the hospi students. new classes, new faces, totally different module from the other school mates. we had t adapt t a whole new environment.now that year 2 is over, we have t brace ourselves up for a new level.for me, it's definitely a different year for me. no more resposibilities in the band now, and i do not think my services would come into use anymore in future. and friends going overseas either for attachment or exchange programs.and it's very comforting t know that at least i still have sarah limgekhong with me.(:well, there will be more webcams, video conferences, emails and bloggings come year 3. i'll definitely miss the two girls.ELIZ - the ever crazy girl who looks so tame hahah. the one who will laugh non-stop with me during overnight project meetings. i'm so gonna miss your laughter and growls and funny faces haha (:SANDY - the youngest among us, yet the tallest. okay she really can laugh t herself in the middle of the night. good job san! now u can tahan long overnights alr ! lol bet it was good training esp in year 2 for your upcoming attachment in orlando! (:i just hope that year 3 will be a better year, a blasta-la-vista year for all of us.let our last year in school end with a bang! eventful.our dearest lecturer and tutor, tay sock peng, is LEAVING US !:[guess she found a better job other than teaching and took off t a better future. good for her, at least i hope she will enjoy her next job more(:having her as our tutor was a great thing. she cares a lot, EXTREMELY A LOT, about our welfare. really thank her man, for her attention towards us.although she may be blur at times, haha she does help us t check it out and give us the correct information.i'm so gonna miss her laaaa! she's like the best tutor around school, esp during our projects and tutorials.mannn, what a waste. but for her t stay in school, it may well bury her talents.ALL THE BEST MS TAY!-------okayyy, results are coming out in another 30mins time. my heart is thumping like some mad cow, like as if i just ran 2.4km like that.my goodness, i just hope i'm gonna do well and let my vision be accomplished!thanks js! for your help in making me chant that 2 sentences hahhahaGod will bring me through it all.I will do well !:Dyes js,WE WILL DO WELLLLLLL ! a trival quiz.ok honestly it is computer generated, but the result can be like 75% - 80% correct! so how coincidental can it be?! so.. spooky? LOL check it out. amazing how accurate it can be.What Koh Jolene MeansYou are a seeker of knowledge, and you have learned many things in your life.You are also a keeper of knowledge - meaning you don't spill secrets or spread gossip.People sometimes think you're snobby or aloof, but you're just too deep in thought to pay attention to them.You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you.You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries.You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice.You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.What's" Your Name's Hidden Meaning?---things are going well till now (: letting go and moving on.i guess i've let go. but obviously i'm still not used t certain things ard. the passion that was once strong suddenly got diminished by a passing wind.since secondary 1, the fire was sparked. now, the 7th year, i don't know what t say. things have changed. i still miss 2005, a lot a lot.not just the passion, but even school and friends.i don't know what got me typing all these stuff. but suddenly i just feel like closing myself up for a period of time.maybe i'm just running away from situations.maybe i just want a breather.maybe, just maybe, i haven't let go of things.many things i desire, many things i want.but yet i hate constraints.i love the sense of freedom.so many things going through in my head.i feel.. weird.i feel.. i don't know. i don't know how t describe.i feel.. i need someone, a support.a support other than just God.someone..