Freddie Sinclair Oh Freddie Sinclair.Even though you are but of a work of fiction I totally fucking love you.For as long as I've known they've been chasing me. And now they're ready, they're strong enough to break through. And I can't fight them...I used to be able to when I was stronger, but now you've made me weak."I'll fucking fight them."1:58 onwards----------------------------------------------------------------------This episode of Skins literally made me just want to lie flat on the floor as well.One of my most favourite episodes of the entire series so far.I guess its at moments like these that can hit you with realisation. Updated to do list 1. Audience Studies Survey & Focus groups transcripting2. PR Plan outline - Totally know nuts about this =(3. PR BLOG - WTF T_T4. DIGI media SHEET5. Cleaning audit 6. ITINERARY7. Journalism article - Ask about it.8. Field diary for FEB.9. Sign URA sheet for NY10. Settle the freaking leaking service duct-------------------------------------------------------------Foreign Minister's request for us to "rally around jack and his family" is simply LUDICROUS.GX's comment sent a little flying flick at my nose when I commented on WS's posted video on how Jack Neo held his press release with his wife by side in a room full of hungry vultures , namely the media, and camera flashes going on every few seconds.Jack's friend appeared towards the end when the wife fainted and started getting very angsty and scream and shout at the media.And I was like, -.- for fuck he get so angry for what.And GX was all like, " So you are telling me that if your friend is in the same situation you would not help ah!" and " Even though you do not like Jack Neo's action you should spare a thought for his wife." And I was like -.-||||| and the rest of the convo you can see me petering out as I just didn't want to create a @!()#*!)( post on WS' page la.#1 - WTF did Jack Neo arrange a meeting with ALL the media for?[GX commented that this was a plan to get the media off their backs and in hopes that they can be left alone.]I was srsly sibei incredulous at it and this would be my response to the imbecilic action that the jackass pulled off resulting in the fainting of his wife.-If I were his PR manager, I would only assign Jack to speak to ONE main media source, namely, the presses.- If that Jackass still wanted to carry on with his little publicity stunt, I would have kicked his ass to do it flying SOLO, FFS, Why the fish did he have to PULL his wife in on it. Even if he didn't pull her along, no matter, how can he ALLOW her to get out there in the middle of all the glaring lights.- You think BEGGING the media can let you off? OH. MY.GAWD. Sometimes I really wonder whether their stint in mediacorp means nothing at all?Well, you have your answer now.At least freaking Tiger Woods to me is better than that local ass because at least Tiger Woods faced the music HIMSELF.Not only that, Tiger Woods did not shape and thrive in his career by extolling out values and virtues in his golfing. No, but that local jackass did, how can you not expect people to be angry at him? I totally understand the hullabaloo everyone is making a fuss of and why all the media people are going into a frenzy.It has close proximity to us. Here is a guy whose comfortable lifestlye and paychecks are by the movies many of us have seen and support.He is honoured and revered with a National day PBM ( An award for someone who has done much for society) and now everything we thought of him is grinded down to shambles.I would think that other PBM members are ashamed to be his category now.For Tiger Woods,the entire press conference was well planned, he was elevated on a stage and had body guards on the stand by, unlike the local scene, where the safety of his wife was not considered, there was no proper barrier, and insufficient body guards.#2 The staff at Jteam and friends were ANGRY at the media for distorting and harassing the family.Article here.Eh. For someone who is in the bloody media industry of our island as long as that Jackass ah, don't they know how things are like when something like this gets blown?You think what? The media people don't need to eat ah? They can just get the story by not prodding, not chasing and not doing anything but be docile is it?What do you mean by not being OBJECTIVE. ELABORATE la, in fact, the straits times, our nation's major papers, for the past few days have shifted focus onto other things already and so far, all the flak and hype over it has been done only in new media (via blogs/Temasek review/channelnewsasia etc) [ Another point to me for my idea that they should have first approach ST]---------------------------------------------------------That being said, I do not think his wife is stupid for not leaving him.This would be something that is personal to her and everyone should respect her, just that at the moment I am sure everyone's pities would be pinned on her head.#3 The MAIN topic. FM George Yeo's SUPPORTING stance towards Jack Neo and family.Article here.Indeed, this is a very warm gesture on the part that he is a long standing friend of the jackass.However, I felt that it was in real bad taste and totally UNNECESSARY.It gave me these reactions:1. We Singaporeans do not know how to channel our disgust or handle our views in relation to his matters is it?2. No tact. His reaction showed not enough emphasis on condoning the actions of his friend and more of being an immediate supporting pillar of strength which indeed is very outstanding in a friend but when people view him as a minister, a person whom we expect to have the same values or dichotomy when it comes to judgments, we definitely would have 2nd doubts about him.Maybe if he would have railed on more about his mistakes etc etc and then go , " However as a friend, blah blah blah", he might have not incurred such a lash back from netizens.3. The main lashing of tongues he got from the online world would be his response.Read the article here. This is really interesting. I find that The Temasek Review is seriously biased sometimes, maybe it has to do with it always trying to pour cold water on the current government but man, do they sometimes have a point.In the article, it is said that when others who are victims approach him, he would reply very bluntly, " Go see your MP."Whereas to such a frivolous case like the jack ass's, he can afford to go out and "rally people".Again. In bad taste.ANYHOW.Am going off to do work. No offense to anyone who has other views, feel free to engage in banter would you like. Taiwanese Drama kick Once my streaming for Hi! My sweetheart finished , this alternative popped up and so I gave it a shot.Not bad, both shows had Rainie Yang and she did a very good job! Both characters were so different.This was so sweet.Mike He ( the lead), at first sight, was not appealing to me.But heck, he grows on you! HAHAHAHA.The show reminded and made me think of several things again.1. My ex-bf from TW used to have the same traits as those seen in the show.All the guys in there winky winky , cheek cheeky one. KNS. ITS A TAIWANESE TRAIT!2. The father in the show of the male lead freaking reminded me of Jerry and Terence ( Homie!) due to the father being SUPER loving and child like and at the same time SUPER WANTING A DAUGHTER. You guys can divide who is who already ah!3. Seeing the girlfriend interact with all her bf's close friends fired a shot near home in my heart.I miss that feeling. When with the previous ex-bf he doesn't really like me to hang out with his friend or rather , not too many close friends that can hang out all the time.4. It reminded me of the basketball phase in Sec sch. LOL. It was the ONLY period where we had school spirit please.5.I could super relate to the last two episodes please.[PLAY ABOVE VIDEO - The 1st few secs will do la. GOT ENG SUBS SOME MORE PLEASE]The part where the guy wanted to go off to Italy to study and the GF was like wth and tried to be accepting and all the shit while their mutual friends started screaming at the guy saying he's such an ass.However the guy can still turn around and say, " That's why I won't ask you to wait."Feel like punching the screen.The mutual guy friend in the show also shouted at him after he said that. Too bad in real ZR life TV there's not such a person ah. * SHOOTS ARROW AT CHEN HAO SHUN [ AND NO THAT IS NOT WHY YOU ARE SUCH A BIG MEANIE>]*-----------------------------------------------------------------I guess all these TW drama films made me realise one thing.How much my expectations of guys have changed.Back when I was in Sec sch, one solid and firm criteria for me always when it comes to guys would be.Brave.They must be brave. There was one particular guy then who did know that I had this criteria and... aye, that's another story for the 1000th post which I will continue once I'm overseas.I must say, TW dramas really influenced my standards of guys.I believe that it really should be them doing all the chasing etc etc, they should be the one doing the confessing and everything, but really as the years go by I just started to tell myself that I should stop being so disillusioned and that that is TV.Not anymore.I am done with not holding out for brave men.Being sweet or whatever the stuff you see in TW dramas, is one thing, being BRAVE is another.Brave can come in several forms. And I do not know how you define it, but I guess I have already defined it in my heart and am now digging it out again.I must remind myself, next time, date a brave man. in awe I love this person already.I do not know who this person is, but to come up with something like this, albeit bad English, I love him/her already.Anyway, today was rather pleasant.My lecturer OK-ed my focus group questions, hopefully we can get them done this Thursday at 11am, ANYONE FREE PLEASE COME DOWN AND HELP THANK YOU.I am sure to give you more incentives than the others bwhahahaha!I have some direction for my abstract.I hope to solidify them before I engage my thesis writing again for me thesis. Gawd. 15 pages. Thinking about it makes me wanna roll around and stick up all 4 limbs into the air and play dead.Went off to work after.Reached the office pretty late. Team leader wasn't able to finish teaching me whatto do before she had to bolt.So I was in the office till pretty late and thinking of what to eat as I hadn't had lunch yet and my phone rang.Dearest aunt cooked extra spaghetti and wanted to pass to me and since I was in the office she can give me a lift home as well. Super :DMy boss was the last to leave me at the office and before he went, "你不要害怕哈！" [Don't be scared hor!]Then I was like WTFBBQ! And was like "WHY?! The office got dirty thing ah! IF GOT MUST SAY LEH!!!!!!!!! I LEAVE WITH YOU!"Then he was like, " NO LA!!!! Scared you afraid ma! All alone."LOL. Really funny.Now off to tumblr more.And prolly get started on my article. DAMNIT.OH MY PR BLOG T_T STILL HAVEN'T DONE MUCH URGH.Feel like doing this to someone. PILLOW FIGHTTT!!!!One of my favourite scenes in Skins.I would have totally done the same thing.The red head girl punched the blond in the nose and went, " I'M KATIE FUCKING FITCH, WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU." at her when the blond was like dissing her asking who the hell she was to be so rude to her.FAVOURITE TUMBLR POST OF THE DAY Arwen: Do you remember when we first met? Aragorn: I thought I had wandered into a dream. Arwen: Long years have passed. You did not have the cares you carry now. Do you remember what I told you? Aragorn: You said you’d bind yourself to me, forsaking the immortal life of your people. Arwen: And to that I hold. I would rather share one lifetime with you than face all the ages of this world alone. [she hands him her pendant] Arwen: I choose a mortal life. Aragorn: You cannot give me this. Arwen: It is mine to give to whom I will. Like my heart. The Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring (2001) Diary of a taxi passenger I feel like starting one whole community blog as a Diary for a taxi passenger.If Sg can have a diary of a taxi driver, we can has a diary for a taxi passenger!Am currently in class, getting ready for the IT lesson.My lecturer is so funny.He's currently displaying "The Maid" on the projection screen while watching it as well.When the scary parts were nearing, from where we are seated we can see that he was hurriedly lowering the volume.HAHAHA. He also scared!Anyhow, today was an awesome day. I haven't stepped on a bus yet.Aunt gave me a lift to work, then from work place #1 my contractor gave me a lift to work place #2.From work place #2 cabbed to school to get there earlier for lunch before classes start.The cab driver was an auntie!Initially when I was peering through her wind shield I thought she an uncle so when I got in I was like, " Uncle, go..."Until she turned around with her shades pulled down.And I was like oh. She had her hair pulled back in a tight ponytail and was wearing those type of dark tinted sunglasses as well as a dark leather-like jacket, thus the initial misunderstanding.I was on the phone speaking to a client while I just pinched the phones receiver and quickly uttered the address to the driver and then continued speaking on the phone.Once I put down the phone, the cab auntie was like, " You work in construction ah?"" Something like that la auntie, contractor."Cab auntie went, " Hah?! Not many girls work in that line leh. Not tough me?"" Auntie, you also mah, become a taxi driver."The cab driver auntie pumped her fist in the air and went, " Ya lo! nv ren dang zi qiang! (women must be... something something. AIYAH YOU ASK ME TO TRANSLATE IDIOMS FOR YOU AH?)"She then went on to say that currently in SG there are over 800+ female drivers out of the 50k drivers.I was like WTFBBQ how come 50k + drivers but taxis seem so scarce.She told me these were DRIVERS, divide by two as there is night/day shift so 25k drivers.STILLL.She then started saying that her personality more suited for this type of job ah, not like her friend ah those type of crying type.Then she went on describing her friend saying that her friend was suicidal and a sob fest because her husband left her and she was very "sian" because she herself has divorced 3 times and that if she can pick it up she can let it go etc and thinks that her friend is very exaggerated and shouldn't give her ex husband the time of the day.She said her friend's 35 and used to be a model, and that she is so pretty surely very easy to find another guy. Yet her friend still cries all the time.I asked before I got off the cab whether her said friend had any children."3!" the cab auntie replied.That's really sad.I then went off to get a new paper to be my lunch buddy and headed off to kopitiam to eat as I had a craving for chicken rice and I wanted to eat in the comfort of the AC.BAD MOVE.Stupid kopitiam chicken rice. So damn expensive, I would have been better off at the economic ananas stall ta pao-ing to school and eating there. Lousiest Chicken rice I ever had!Feel so scammed.Then I was reading the new paper, and voila news of Jack Neo's affair was FULL BLOWN.Was so damn disgusted mainly because she was my bloody age.And now she is trying to play the victim by saying she was seduced etc and that she was at an influential age of 20. Fcuk off!20 is like one year from being legal.4 years away from the legal age for having sex.2 years away from the age where you can learn driving last time.And here she is trying to portray herself as a victim!Jack Neo as well. WTF. WTF! I cannot imagine the blow his children will be taking!His eldest is 19!MEN!-.- Terence was looking at my screen just now and comment ed that I seemed very pissed off and I was telling him that good MEN now like no more and he proceeded to smile at me and say that there are still 2 good guys here.He and Daniel are the only 2 guys in class! BWHAAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHA!Ah! Go do my own stuff now. BYE My tumblr A look at some of the pictures in my tumblr.I'm loving it. Sweethearts. A few days ago, Daryl suddenly called to ask where the hell was I and for my floor level once he found out I was home.And I was like -.- and WTH at the same time.Well, take a look at what the sweetheart #1 did.Yeap. MY VERY OWN BMT BAG :D AND Daryl was like all, " Don't need to pay la, Ah Gong pay!"T_T SO TOUCHED!!!!!!!!!!!!!THANK YOU SO MUCH DARYL!!!!!!!!!!!!YOUR AWESOME-NESS SHALL NOT BE FORGOTTEN.The night before, I went to meet up with A-liner at her place so that he sister's bf can fetch us to Holland V to celebrate Jo's belated birthday.Once Cattie arrived, we headed off to HV to eat xiaolongbaos!Birthday girl!Iris was super late! LOLWe were like a bunch of small taitais in training. Bitch and laugh and laugh and bitch all the way.This XLB looks like it has a mouth and is trying to talk to me. LOL especially when the steam was still coming out from within.After that we went to eat Haagen Daaz!CHOCOLATE FONDUE~! Was trying to make Oliner suck chocolate from out of it!BWHAHAHHAHAHA.Purely for our entertainment only.This video was because Iris just bought some bun from her school as oliner's bday cake. The waitress was laughing as well. LOLOliner thought the bun was those toy ones that Action City was selling la.LOLIris soon then brought out the real piece of cake she was preparing.This one was us trying to cheat iris into singing again coz it was just so goofy. HAHAHAHAHAHA.Anyhow, after that we ran home different ways, Lyd went off , Oliner went off with BF , last but not least, Cattie and I went off with Oliner again.Now here was the funny thing that I suddenly thought of.ANGELINE & CATTIE PAY ATTENTION OK.Unwittingly, I became the devil of Cattie's left shoulder....... HAHAHA.HEAR ME OUT.Just so happened right, Angel, Cat and I were sitting in the back seats.Cattie was between Angel and I, Angel was on her RIGHT side.Angel that day was wearing those type of floral white/pink dress whereas I was in full black gear including my bag.And then Cattie was telling us about how she met her ex-boyfriend and how that she really forgives him and wants him to be happy and such.Throughout the entire conversation I was like asking how was he doing and whether he had a gf anot and kept on snickering away at him being in a more jialat plight than cattie.Now in this scenario.Don't you think that Angeline was LITERALLY being the ANGEL on her right side keeping quiet and laughing with me whereas I was being the devil in black on Cattie's LEFT hand side poking fun at her ex-bf.LOL.THINK ABOUT IT!!!!!I did voice out my opinion about something which I think I should elaborate more on though.I told them that I believe that in a relationship, the person that is hurting the other side, whether done on purpose or not, will get kicked very very very painfully in the ass by karma.I was saying that even though the other side has forgiven the perpetrator, karma will still rear its justice and righteous head and go after the person.For, as I was saying, it is one thing to screw up yourself, it is a totally different level to screw up other people.The AOE ( AREA OF EFFECT - a gamer's term. Read up here) is so much bigger.For example, once you bastard on your boyfriend, your boyfriend gets hurt, his friends and family around him get hurt and your own friends, yes even your own friends will be like either ashamed or sad that you are like that.You may ask me, what happens if both sides get hurt?I would ask back, which one is the more injured one.And you'd have your answer.That time Omala was telling me about his friend and that both sides were hurt.I was like, "Bullshit."And true to word, in a matter of time, the more injured party was apparent.And I am just saying this for a matter of fact, not as something to make people who were jilted feel better or what, but if you slowly sit down, and listen and look for yourself, sometimes life really plays itself out very well as a referee and it holds grudges.Thus, I always make it a point to never play with other people's feelings. Ever. I don't say stuff that I don't mean and even though I may have been screwed up by a past relationship, I do not use it as a reason to take it out on the next relationship."I throw my whole body, my soul into the fall, into love, into that new person. I can’t help it, I love and then think about how I’ll pick up my bones later. I’ll do this every time no matter how much I’m hating fixing up my wounds right now. My brain always reaches the rest of my body way too late and it begins again."Anaïs Escobar, The Art of Breaking UpAnyhow, SWEETHEART #2 Cattie got me a little something as she thought I was rather down!She got me a small sweet from Mykii. Dream dictionary behind it!A Macaroon! ;D What flavour was it ah Cattie?And by gosh. THIS was the BEST MACAROON I have ever tasted. BETTER THAN TWG's. I AM SO IMPRESSED! CATTIE, did you like yours?!Want to take a pic of my nails. Bwhahahaa.ok, I am off to do some work now. Hi! My sweetheart reflections. I've finished the entire 14 episodes within like, 3/4 nights?And I've come to a few conclusions which has mustered up very random thoughts but all stemming from the same show.1. Show Luo's excellent.This would be my first time watching him act and without a doubt he has left a very great impression on me. The very fact that he can play such a "dual" role and switch cute, with ease and able to be convincing is simply awesome to me.Love the fact that in real life he's trying so hard to come off as those cool as cucumber and mysterious etc etc facade but at the end of the day he can be so idiotic.And yes, he is very cute except that I once read an interview of his and was very put off by the fact he was such a "metro-sexual" in which he said that he always looks at the nails of girls, girls who cannot keep their nails (manicure/cuticles whatever shit) properly are a turn off and that they do not know how to take care of themselves.Well, him saying that was a major turn off too.2. Li wei.What an old face! He was once in a duo singing group if I am not wrong? Right?3. I was tearing up quite a bit throughout a few scenes.The worst part of it was that it wasn't because of the show, it was because it reminded me of how much my "plight/episodes" were worse off than theirs.In the show, both sides at some point or the other wanted to cut off all relations with each other but always will wake up their idea whenever either one was close to losing the other in either a kidnapping, fire or blah blah blah.It just prodded me with a thought about how irritating we can be sometimes.I mean, (those that did watch it) how many fires or kidnappings will you be waiting for in your life to occur before you realise/appreciate people when they are around?4. The girl at a point of time was trying to hold on the guy before he ran off.I was like thinking, " why didn't she just grab onto him before he made a run for it."Then it hit me that I was in her shoes before.And that trying to hold on to someone while crying was a little difficult because you seem to lose your strength.I would definitely pride myself on being stronger than most girls due to my size etc etc.But even when I am holding on with all my strength , he can just very easily peel off my arms and walk out the door, leaving me there alone.5. The characters distinctly reminded me of someone.Open and close mouth all about money. Only that that person became like that was because of how the girl treated him.I don't remember treating that said person like how the girl in the show treated him.In fact, I have never disparaged or talk down to him about money.I have never compared my life with him to others that can boast about their bfs having a car and fetching them around etc.Yet, the mouth open and close all about money.I wonder how sad was his childhood to turn him into like that.6. All buildings in Singapore that are built up to code would have the function to guide you out of the building should there be a fire.The last fire scene in the show, the two people were running around blind in the level while the fire was going on and I was like -.-Ya la, I know its a show la, still! I'm in the industry and it just made me go -.-||And then it struck me that, if no one knew about it right, at the end of the day if a fire were to occur, they themselves would not know it what.So listen ah.If a fire were to occur,and its too smoky to see infront of you, LOOK UP.There will be a LIGHT TRAIL in which certain lights will still be lit up to guide you out of the room.They are battery operated and will turn on during a black out or fire thus even if the fire burnt out the circuitry, they will still operate. You just need to see the trail or line and follow, the end of the trail will usually be directly above an exit.----------------------------------------------------------Interesting.I have all these thoughts after watching the show. Updated to do list I will.-------------------------------------------------------------1. Audience Studies Survey & Focus groups2. PR Plan outline - Totally know nuts about this =(3. PR BLOG - WTF T_T4. DIGI media cover sheet and editing sound sheet - half way there5. Cleaning audit6. ITINERARY7. Journalism article - Ask about it.I've recently been procrastinating like crazy.Damn.Been watching that "Hi My sweetheart!" show.Lucky there's no one sitting beside me watching it. I'd have driven that person crazy by either screaming at him/her too much or suddenly grabbing and shaking him/her all around.The Taiwanese dramas really love their "lame" stuff. There were definitely some exaggerated and comical parts but I guess that's what makes it so irritatingly addictive.The other day when I needed an SOS outing on a Friday, GL, CL & Michael came to my rescue.We had an impromptu K-boxing session.I am very impressed with the boys. They bloody can sing. -.-|||We had a go at the prize winning machines again.GL won me a MOFY!Well, sort of win la, hahaha, he just put in the dollar coin and without pressing anything, the mofy fell in the hole.I am attempting to collect all 4 Mofys at the place! So far, Oliner won me one as well.I have been doing some chain weaving.This is a BOX weave. Utter fail. I was using tweezers and a cuticle cutter to weave the metal loops instead of pliers and my connections were shot. I wanted to do the BYZANTINE weave but it is rather confusing and there are no good vids on youtube that teaches it. The other weaves like the Jen Pinds Linkage and persian links are great too but alas, confusing and no good vids on youtube.This is from thekang.wordpress.com, a local jewelry maker. His works are really awesome and after my attempt to do a chain link by link myself, my awe for him is renewed.The 1st is a wrong but similar JPL weave. The second is the one I wanted to attempt, a byzantine weave. The third was the one I successfully made, a box weave.I had an outing with Jicks the other day as well.We went to Daiso.I bought a box of cotton wool. Totally got scammed. The stupid name of the cotton wool is PUFF for goodness sake, IT AINT PUFFY.XDAnyhow, I saw this!STEPHANIE ARIFINITY, if you do not recognise this I am so gonna shake you. LOLWENDY YOU SHOULD RMB THIS TOO.Bought cute stickers for my laptop. Jacq was like ridiculing my choice of words, mainly "CUTE" when I was fussing over the stickers LOL.I registered ONE day before the actual contest thanks to an insider as I totally forgot to make payment for it before the closing registering date.And I literally forgot the lyrics, got caught sneaking a look at my hand and voila, DIDN'T MAKE IT. LOLWent over to JB to dye my hair, 50 SGD bucks.Not much difference but oh well.My aunt fetching me to school. Bwhahahaa, a red car that day!The tree outside my aunts' office. Its like bent 90 deg. if you haven't noticed.My banila & Co. highlighter arrived!!!So excited ;DMy ELF haul came as well!Quite happy with it, really value for money.Oh , and I'm really looking for this:please let me know if you see it around. Its basically a light, to make the starry effect on your walls. That's all.My bro has it but I think he wants it for himself.Yummies.Stuck more stickers on my lappy whahaha.I love Finding Nemo.Lastly, something to cry over about.I just keep on tearing whenever I see it. Damn it. I had an intense dream the night before.I woke up with knitted eyebrows.Consulted my dream dictionary and here I am trying to put together the pieces.Car journey: can be a symbol of desire or sexuality. There should be particular importance placed on whether dreamer is drving or being driven, since this is a reflection on the dreamer's sense of independence.I was being driven.Fighting: Dreams of fighting are indicative of internal emotional conflict on the part of the dreamer. It may reflect the dreamer's struggle for independence or freedom from a particular situation.Aggression/hostility: To dream of being an aggressor is often a simple expression of anger which the dreamer has been forced to suppress in waking life. It is worth reflecting upon why the dream anger is directed towards a particular person/group.Yep. I was the aggressor because I was so angry at the other person.schools: in dreams, schools represents the values and restrictions that we impose on our own lives as a result of early experience.Vegetables: dreaming of vegetables may also be an indicator that your life is dullKiss: A kiss in a dream may be seen in general as an acknowledgment or acceptance of something. To kiss a stranger , a speedy journey.Intense, woke up feeling really surprised and puzzled, but still, WEIRD. I can't decide whether should I go drink canned soup now.I really really WANT it, but do not really NEED it.I am rather irritated at a whole bunch of people now.I can lam-bast here but why bother so much now. When I first bothered about them, they couldn't care less. I shall stop bothering myself about them now.I guess the most awesome feeling that you can actually derive from a heart break would be the fact that you feel invincible.You just do not care what will happen and come what may.Things you used to be afraid of/ avoid just lost its fear factor and now all you want to do all day is just go, " Bring it on." in its face.I guess maybe thats why in the past all broken heart men went to join the army.They make good soldiers coz their hearts not there to restrain them anymore.And the fact that they feel invincible.I think I will have my soup.Even though its temporary in getting me out of a funk, I'll take it. Randoms. I am about to cross a few more off my list.Was rather rudely shocked at yesterday's farewell dinner for Cousin CF. He flew off just a few hours ago, heading back to Sydney to start a new year in school.Most of you will notice that I've crossed getting my ticket/trip overseas off my list. Well, Kind of regretted it now. If I had know what was going to happen in the first place I wouldn't have bought it at all.C'est la vie.Kickapoo has a new flavour in town!Not very great though, stick to the original!My "client" from this school and I have come a long way.We used to not like each other. I would frown whenever I left the school.From that to him actually knowing what I like to eat in the canteen and actually getting some from the auntie for me while jokingly telling her that he's getting it for his god -daughter, I'd say we came a long way alright.In a cab. Trying to take a picture of my super sparkly nail but my HP cam fail can.I recently got very irked whenever people start to open their mouth and say, " Wah rich ah, take cab." or " No money stop taking so much cab!" or " You working leh, should have money one lor!"Especially so when it comes within the family, like say, my sibling sleeping opposite my room.Recently, I'd just give them a look and keep quiet, when before, I'd whip out my calculator , paper & pen and start doing calculations with them.I've already grown super tired of regurgitating every single time they cast their judgments.You know how to see some one who has lifted a lot of heavy stuff in her life?You look at her shoulder, especially the area where the neck meets the shoulders.I used to have a 90 deg angle there. Now, its sloped, wear tubes not nice already.Don't believe me?Next time you lift a heavy item, concentrate on where the strain is and see where's the area.At the airport when all my aunts were weighing themselves on the luggage scale, I was the only one using it properly.My bag weighs 7+ KG.Inside are my text book, notes, work diary + quotes, pencil box, & laptop.And people say stuff again like, " Wah! You siao ah. What you bring out!? SO heavy!"I was like thinking to myself la. "-.- Eh, who the hell wants to carry heavy stuff. Of course if I don't think I need it I won't bring out right."And I did use all items in my bag today. HAH.Uni mates posing with Peanut, apparently the new class mascot Bwahaha.All 3 shots ruined by the guys -.-Lou hei prepping.Tequila or green tea o.O HEHEHEHL's disco lights.TFFFFFThis one's rather nice. Daryl introduced this awesome app called Joyeye I think. Takes these "lomo" pics.Ah nehs. =xHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAEldest cousin in SG on mother's side. Stupid in-between king. He was winning all our money in in-between.Nice? A school garden.Bloody ghey shirt la, I was making fun of omala's shirt, the buttons were FLOWER buttons :DBeginnings of readings for just ONE assignment.Stupid korean barley tea drink that my brother liked, and apparently my dad too and bro's gf. I took one swig of it and I was like WTFFFFF. It tasted like ROASTED tea and has this very smoky taste, teh botol from Indonesia has a smoky taste but it tasted waaaaaay better than this one!Was waiting for my bro and dad in some audio testing room in Sim lim square's ground floor. Got bored so took pictures.What were the THREE of us doing there? SLS will never have all 3 of us there just to walk walk la -.- only my brother does that.Introducing to you guys the new love of my life.My Sweet Idiot. I am totally resisting the urge to take my black market and write that under the MSI words please.TOTALLY.My two cousins spent a shit load of money on this keychain.This one though, was spent using $1/$2 -.-Cf's farewell dinner at Charcoals! YUMS.At the airport. My cousin, her bd , bro and bro's gf went around SG to get his favourite foods so that he could take a bite of everything in the airport before he flew off. Koi bubble tea was on the agenda. Bwhahaha.Sunny day.Meeting my debate team mate at La selle's 15mins.I was telling her how most of the students there seemed to be using the same macbok as her somemore! Maybe it just me who can't tell the difference LOL.Can you guess what I'm studying? The infamous song for its infamous lyric.Wait, they don't love you like I love youKbox has Lady gaga's bad romance. Imagine my surprise.Wtf! SO CUTEEEEEE Damn stressed I cannot think properly.I cannot sleep properly.My bad habits are all coming out again. Fast and furious.Drowning myself in sweet drinks to keep me awake. Eating comfort food to prevent me from crying.All I want to do is bundle myself up on the bed and have someone hug me ad not do anything.In fact, all I want to do is cry T_TWhy must my two team mates be those type of heck care one!I know I'm a control freak and I like to do things myself but there is just too many things to do now!? NB, WHY I never just portray myself as some follower in that friggin personality quiz!? FML!Are they going to help me with my other work!? NO!I have approx 12 items on my list and all of them I cannot complete it 100% due to miscellaneous factors and I just really wanna roll around liao laaaaaaaaaaaa. To do list 1. PR debate - Rough draft up. Debate 3rd March2. Audience Studies Survey & Focus groups - To be done by March 3rd3. News Story 3 - Due 25th.4. PR Plan outline - Totally know nuts about this =(5. Journalism Book6. PR BLOG - WTF T_T7. DIGI media cover sheet and editing sound sheet - half way there8. Video plan for 1.5 mins9. Work email10. Cleaning & Pest control audits11. Sign field diary and get started on FEB12. Fix the service duct problem at NY Agar agar know what the problem is.13. purchase my bloody ticket already.--------------------------------------------------http://www.codeorgan.com/A website where you can enter any website’s URL, and, using a complicated algorithm, it turns the website’s code into “music”.The songs will change as the “body” content of the websiteMy blog's tune's pretty good.Forever with the unglam pics.In Between, damn heart pain.Attica lights.HEART! Made me smile. These two songs remind me of secondary school days when we were so unabashedly not ashamed of our penchant for techno.These 2 were often played even though I progressed on to rock music.Reminded me of several things such as my relationship and thoughts then.Hahaha. That boy is a monster. He ate my heart.He ate ate ate my heartLook at himLook at meThat boy is badAnd honestlyHes a wolf in disguiseThat boy is a monster.This is a very dangerous phrase to say to someone.It just burns in your memory.:DWhen I say Forever & Always, I mean it.But that doesn't count anymore if you leave me. One of my favourite pictures I'd like to be in some place like that one day. If. 5 years from now would be 2005 February 17th.I was 17 then. Still enjoying the O level holidays.Hmmm. Here goes nothing.Dear ZR,1) You will not do as well as you had expected for your O levels but don't worry, you will still get into NP's REB and meet great people.2) Please don't try to go into TP. I know the people you have currently come to love will be all there but not to worry, they love you back and they won't drift away.3) 2 of your future PTBFs will be in the same school with you with another one unexpected skinny dude as well.4) Take care of your health, you are not as strong as you think you are with your frequent sleepless nights and replacing meals with fast food. You are not that young to avoid injury to your body.5) Even so, when you are working in a shoe shop, please remember to work at the warehouse sale.6) And when you get assigned to this girl, make sure to talk to her plenty so you get separated with another guy.7) Once you meet him, he will be a big part in your life for a few years.8) Please. Hold on to your heart and don't give 110% like you always do I beg of you.9) I know you won't listen. What the hell. It was worth a shot.10) Be sure to tell Cattie to get the hell out of her R/S now and its coming from the future ZR. Tell Aliner about the future as well. Tell Iris about the future as well and tell her hang on to her brother and don't choose the wrong course.11) Be sure to tell Hao Shun that next time, he will be facing a very big obstacle and please listen to you to not put himself 100%. Even though you know he won't listen but just give it a shot.12) I am currently doing ok in the future, not what you expected 5 years ago. I am currently studying in a private university, yeap, I know you wanted local but the poly grades were just not good enough as you would know that you have no interest in it once you get in. Though I am working in an awesome job with my dream hours and awesome colleagues. No boyfriend , sorry, I know I know you expected yourself to be dating but oh what the hell~ And yea, the bf left me not I left him, yes yes, I know WTF you always thought you'd be doing the leaving, but guess what, you're weak and you believe words too easily.13) Don't bother spending time with XXX , XXXX & etc , you're just wasting your time. These people are not worth it.14) Please tell moi yi that her health's in danger in the coming few years and to start taking care now.15) Please tell papa that ah ma will pass away 4.5 years later. Don't work so much and start spending time with her.16) Tell him to not go to Vietnam in July 2009.17) Tell brother to for his medical check up before his NS.18) Tell cousin CF to push his mother for a medical check up.19) Tell these people ____,______,____, _____ & _______ to not pick up their first stick. EVER, or else it will be damn hard for them to quit it.20) Tell Yunzi to not forget her transcripts when appealing first year of poly.21) Quit your rice table job, its not worth it.22) During poly, try to attend school as much as possible. Try and do well please.23) Don't buy so many things already, you'll need the money for traveling next few years. Yes, you get to travel on your own soon.24) You will get kicked out of the house once. Please have enough money with you, and try and not to cry so much, it will be ok in the end.25) Tell ____ not to switch to the air force. Even though he won't listen to you. Try your best to persuade him.26) You will get a boyfriend, even though I tell you not to. Kick him, make sure he studies a year before he gets accepted into uni.27) Kick Hao shun too, tell him what will happen if he doesn't start.28) I know I should tell you of natural disasters and major events that happen but if I do, who's going to believe you anyway?29) Don't put in too much hope in your parents.30) Tell Omala to stay the fuck away from a girl whose name starts with C. And to not change in future no matter what and you shoud do something when C starts to get into an argument with Omala over you. Go scream at him to wake up.31) Eat lesser. Be as skinny as you can. You're wrong, guys really do look at your appearance first before anything.32) Remember tell _____ to force his mom for a medical check up.33) Tell Jicks whatever she wants to know about her future , she's currently doing swell anyway, oh maybe, ask her to save up more for her future Euro trip.34) Don't buy so many stuff. The day you get kicked out, you'll naturally abandon a lot of things.Actually, even so it taught you a very important lesson.These are materialistic things.35) Pursue your secret interest. Try your best.36) Please don't throw anything in the memory box. You will come to regret it.37) Go do your braces , especially if you are successful in your getting skinny.38) Oh, when you get summoned by your poly lecturers' in regards to your minor set back of being homeless, DO NOT CRY. YOU HEAR ME. DO NOT CRY, and snap back at him.39) Oh, and when you are in a relationship, be a little more hard hearted please. The first time he hurts you please learn to leave.40) I'm serious zr. Sometimes, I stay by people but don't speak.For I myself do not know what to say.What do you want me to say to you that will make you feel better?I too do not know what that guy or girl wants.I too do not know what anybody wants or thinks.I have been stumped for a long time coming now.I thought everyone generically wanted the same essence of things.The good things only, nothing bad.Being happy is good right?Yet it seems I was wrong, as others may perceive being sad as something that will reap happy rewards in the long run.If that is the case, I too cannot do anything but let go of your hand and bid you farewell on you trip downtown.There is only so long that I can stand beside you, looking at you, and still see you standing there staring back at me doing nothing.Right? Bodyguards & assassins I bought this VCD for CNY viewing for my aunts.They didn't have time to see it as they were too busy cooking, eating pomelo and chatting nine to the dozen.So I brought it back to watch it myself.I was rather interested in it, it has Donnie Yen!And after watching it, I kind of felt rather apprehensive.Basically the movie is about Dr Sun Yat-sen, a revolutionary from China who lead China to a new revolution by bringing the Qing Dynasty down.read more about him here.And throughout the course of revolution, bloodshed and tears are inevitable.I pondered on the fact that China once had everything they can be proud of.Here were people sacrificing their lives to bring change to their country and the very fact they are doing it is purely for their nationalism and love for their countrymen.[Albeit in the film, most of the bodyguards are protecting Dr Sun for other reasons such as filial piety, suicidal, loyalty and etc]None the less, there were people who did it for the sake of their future generation and general public in the country.How many of us would do so now in our country and revolt or sacrifice our normative lives to do something like what Dr Sun did?Very little I tell you. Even I would not want to.If SG were to be in trouble, the only reasons why most people would stay to fight is because of one thing and that is their family and friends are here.I would very much like to see an ex patriot SGrean overseas with his family and friends come back to SG in times of war if needed.I guess times do really change.And I wonder, what over the course of time instead of bettering us in character, actually made some of us think otherwise. Ho hum. Don't we all?I ought to be shot.I cannot be an insomniac. CANNOT. I have too much work to do to not sleep.Actually, not sleeping gives me more time to do work doesn't it, but should you know me, I am often in a half-assed/drunken state without sleep.creditsThis is part of a wedding shoot. Damn, now THIS is how it should be done, awesome job!So damn true. Someone told me I just loved to cry.Truth be told, what do you think?K, off to tumblr more. I am so hooked on it.It's really opening my heart up to the world each day by showing me stuff that I didn't really know, existed. I KNOW! I am supposed to be reading, but wth I just can't drag myself to do so on the 2nd day of CNY.SO, I shall procrastinate a bit more and update my tumblr while I am at it later on.Just reached home from a failed night at Sentosa.-.- My cousins anyhow dragged me to go see the casino when I was wearing sleep wear ( Shorts and a tee.)Super WTF, was literally hiding behind everyone whenever I saw people.The entire place was big but really reminded everyone of Genting. We were running around trying to find the casino and for a moment it felt like an RPG game coz we had no one to ask for directions at first.Anyhow,I bought the handheld vacuum!Its name shall be THE SUCKER.So if anyone goes, "You suck!" next time at me , I'll just say , " at home".I fixed up the side table! WHEEEE!Behind my bed were two very under utilised electric plugs thus , now I can use them to charge my phone and operate the very old ikea lamp I dug out from my store room.My phone used to have its charger wire stretched across from the other side opposite the bed, thus I'd always trip and the phone would come crashing down on the floor.Not anymore! :DEven stuck some of my beloved stickers!The white bear thing is to remind me of Daryl, it looks the TINIEST bit like him except its white =x and the white box thing he's holding looked like my table in its package form so if I ever get amnesia or something and don't remember Daryl, you all can point at it. LOLA coffee mug to make me think happy thoughts.The bit and pieces of plants are to replace the actual real plants that I would have wanted in my room.Last but not least, a tiny bunny sticker for the bunny I never got T_TReunion dinner @ HL'sHad an awesome steamboat and louhei session.Then we proceeded to play guitar hero and wii tennis which was exhilarating! Laughed like nuts.CNY eve I had to help my aunts with the CNY deco.For a while there, I really wished I had help with it all. Very exhausting to climb , shift and mock up pineapples on the ceiling ALONE. -.- Seriously.I bought live abalone's from Jen's family business!They were really interesting!Playing with the wilted flowers.Playing with the yashica.I hung that darn pineapple!Fetching me home for my reunion dinner.And I'm tired now and need to rest before I continue my mountain of reading.G'night. Birthday post -* Well, today is the last day of school before a 1 week break in which I still have much to do.It has and still is rather stressful.Work & studies have been clashing horns.2 of my modules this semester, I have literally screwed up 25% each and am now rather fearful.SIGH.Oh well. Come here laze a round a bit before I totally disappear for a bit again.So the week started out on 30th January with a lunch with the Usuals at one of my favourite restaurants!SUKI-YA!Xh & I~After lunch, we tried our luck at the prize toy machines!We were really irritated with this elmo mocking us thus we decided to go all the way to get the jackpot.And WE DID IT! HAHAHAHAHAWe later walked over to raffles city where they got out a min cake to surprise me with. MUAHAHA.Nice photos by Di!The girls!Some of the boys!Thanks for the red packet guys, much appreciated ;) Many thanks to Leng Leng for organising the whole lunch as well.Totally HEART! ;D 31st JanuaryWent to help my elder cousin out with her filming project along with my bro, his gf and other cousins.My cousins surprised me with this:Haha! The other night I was like thinking somemore to myself, " I don't think any one got me flowers or balloons before hor. I hope I receive them this year Bwhahaha." and fell asleep.Yes, I have a lot of random thoughts before I sleep can~Really huge lot of balloons WOOT!All thanks to this cousin! THANK YOU VERY MUCH COUSINY!After the whole shoot, we headed off to marina, coz cousin Emily told me that we were going to eat Sukiya, and I was like hah?! Coz the day before I ate there and kinda ticked off the waiter, if I go again the next day he surely recognise me one -.- LOL NONETHELESS, was still excited coz I still not sian of it.My present from them was attached to the balloons.But what do you know....They managed to surprise me again. -.-My cousins and co were like pretending they were lost and going past The Ritz Carlton to get to Marina Square and I was leading the way coz I was familiar with the route, however I walked past ritz carlton only they were behind me calling out for me to get in the building.Yup.Ladies & gentlemen, my 2nd time at The Greenhouse.Thoroughly shocked that they would want to have a celebratory dinner at such an extravagant place, damn touched as well.Damn touched coz it was a buffet at quite a hefty price and all of us were students.Was literally speechless.I guess after all the crappy things I have been experiencing, they really went all out to plan stuff.T_TThis dessert, was the UBER one.It is a BROWNIE, shaped like a chunk of chocolate bar, and beneath those chocolate bar ridges, were PEANUT BUTTER!!!!!Notice how I love taking pictures of desserts?Sipuay tip of the ice berg.And guess what?After dinner, we all went to try out those prize catching machines again!HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA.Not much luck this time!Thank you my dear family for the wonderful night out.Was truly truly touched beyond words T_TThank you for the "travel voucher", many many love :D I will be sure to use it and bring back stuff for you all too!1st FebruaryZX brought me out for dinner.Went to have a simple dinner at this Jap restaurant at the basement of The Cathay where he presented me my present.*photo credit to DI take one! Bwhahaha.A yashica F521 AKA a digital holga.It is currently acting as a stand in compact for me before I can muster up enough cash for the one I covet.However, I must say I was truly impressed with him.I didn't even know this camera existed yet he knew me that well to pick an item to know that I would actually enjoy it.Hats off to him.Testing out the camera on the spot.Ate, walked around a bit and both of us ran home separately.2nd FebruaryHICCUP DAY.THAT ASIDE.Went off to school!Where my uni mates gave me my present.And sang me a birthday song in my canteen and presented me my "cake" LOL.After that, I went off with them to kill some time to go to Ubi for a crocodile warehouse sale but turned out, it was over LOL.I went home soon after the phonecall.Only to run out soon after and cab to Bugis to meet hero.We went to watch the Imaginarium of Dr Parnassus.After that, we walked over to near by bras basah's McD to eat a simple dinner before splitting.At McD.A text from hero after we split ways.Sometimes I wonder whether do I really wear my heart on a sleeve.3rd FebruaryJACQ BRING ME OUT DAY~The pretty lass brought me to,where she introduced this sticky date pudding, and she was bloody right!It was bloody good!CAM WHORE!Jacq and her leica camera take one.She then after brought me to Timbre at the arts house.When the Good Fellas were performing! They played one of my favourite songs the moment I stepped in. FATE!Many thanks LOVE!I enjoyed our girl's night out tremendously! Cheers to that & many more years to come!4th FebruaryI went out with JEN & JULIUS.THIS TIME, pictures with Jen. HAHAHAHA.They brought me to eat at this Japanese restaurant called Tonkichi at Takashimaya.Then we had after dinner drinks at TCC.Yummy! Had a great time catching up, and I have a feeling we're gonna be seeing each other again soon!5th FebruaryWent to school to attempt to do an assignment.I hate Mac & its programs sometimes srsly.IRIS book me day.Turned out she invited a whole other bunch of girls, but I found out about it last minute. BWHAHAHAHAHAHA.Iris was asking me whether can don't eat Sukiyaki not coz Oliner and her just did their hair and I was like CANNOT.I KNOW! I AM SO EVIL, but SUKIYAKI IS SO TEMPTING! And the whole day I was like salivating at the thought of it.Before we went off to eat, we went to play those prize catching machines. HAHAHA I KNOW I KNOW!But here's the thing, that stupid Oliner won something immediately with just 1 buck! WTH! LOL.All of use were screaming and shrieking around the machines la.Cattie & Di super happy with their catch.SUKIYAKI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!GIRL POWER!Iris sneaked off and the girl successfully managed to surprise me that nice with this:LOLOliner!WISH WISH WISHTHANKS FOR THE PRESENT! HAHAHAOliner & Lyd had to fly off after dinner while the rest of the girls and I went to Starbucks.We went to the ladies first, and while waiting for them I got bored.Angel was daring me to wear like that all the way up to the 2nd level where we want to try and win more stupid retarded items.Look at her laughing!Oliner helped me win those 2 white stuffed toys! HAHAHA :DMOFY!The lunar new year orange mocha ain't bad you know! The orange dusted one!Fat blobby. Oh well, no more eating after CNY.We went off to Angel's house thereafter for a car ride!THRILLING! We caught a car with a tranny and a male customer getting caught by the police.LOL. The other cars in the vicinity soon ran off!THANK YOU MUCH GIRLS. GIVE YOU ALL EACH A KISS *MUACKS!*I enjoyed myself thoroughly and I loved the food and chats and everything lar! *HUGS*7th Feb - SundayI was yelling at PTBF TF & Daryl taht I expect something more from them since they were always hollering at me to get them items as well -.-And SO, since TF is trapped in camp with babysitting duties =x Daryl is left to pick up the slack!At first I wanted the day to be Saturday but Daryl was like CANNOT, no car.And I was like, no car will die meh?! Then he said that it was rather big so need a car to be more convenient.And then I started guessing what my present was liao. HAHAHAMe: A RABBIT!!!!!!!!!!!!Daryl: *Laugh like siao* WHY WOULD I WANT TO TORTURE THE RABBIT BY GIVING IT TO YOU.Me: WTF! WHY EVERYONE SAYING THAT!? I WILL NOT LOR. You said something big ma! So I thought maybe a RABBIT CAGE! NEVERMIND, next guess! A PUPPY??!?!?!?DARYL: AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! WHY WOULD I WANT TO TORTURE THE PUPPY!TMD. Ji tao shoot down!Anyhow, I noticed the way we were going towards suddenly had a lot of training cars.Then it clicked.T_T THE ONE THING I HAVE BEEN NIAMING EVERYONE TO BRING ME DO AND SOME MORE OFFERING THEM $5 to do it.HE WAS BRINGING ME TO REGISTER FOR CAR LICENSE TESTS!SO EXCITED!!Even stood in the middle of the road to take this picture and Daryl was like, "Can you DON'T stand in the MIDDLE of the road?!" and come to think of it, YA HOR, wah lau all the trainin car running around the circuit.Biggest killjoy though, the stupid office CLOSED T_TOh well!Then I found out got NEXT stop of the day some more, my present doesn't end there, and then, I noticed again,we were heading east and it clicked again.IKEA. TO GET MY SIDE TABLE.LOL. That was the big item!ARIGATO GOZAIMASU DARYL!Then off to town after we attained the table! Have yet to fix it, going to do it on the eve!Last stop of the day, was the thing Daryl was niaming about, hainan chicken rice, and bloody hell.That place was good!I am going to visit that place if I can from now on!THANK YOU VERY MUCH DARYL :DI ENJOYED MY DAY AWESOMU-LY!I NOW WON'T MIND WHENEVER YOU HOLLER AT ME TO GET STUFF. HAHAHAHAHAAnd that my friends, was my awesome week!And here are some random pictures for your perusal!Funny socks!Fairy lights.One of those days.The yashica shooting at directly the sun.The narcissus that I just bought.It has a really sad story behind it if you didn't know.About a man who was absolutely beautiful who one day saw his reflection in the river and thought it to be another person on the other side. Whenever he tried to reach to the other person, he would disappear. Narcissus, the beautiful man, just spent his days by the river bank staring at his reflection til he one day died and on that very spot where he died, grew this pretty flower.That is why when someone calls you narcissistic, it isn't really a great thing.The version I read seems to be the roman version in which Echo was also present.You would have to read up more on that : NarcissusAccompanied my aunt to get her CNY deco stuff.Went out supper with Omala, and carl's jr is damn funny. They are directly making fun of McD.Then was another night we went to help out our elder cousin.She treated us to this frog porridge which I didn't take the meat.It smelt very good! The plain porridge was awesome too.Recently, been getting little stuff from here and there.Can't wait to try out this ice mask. Sounded really cool.Am totally in love with The Skin Food's nail polish at the moment. They have this range called Pedicure sparkle in which the polish is SUPER sparkly, but I keep on using it for my fingers, its just too pretty. I don't care!Today, I was late for a steam boat lunch at a classmate's house.Had a lot of fun especially with the guitar hero.We had too many people so we all sat on the floor.I really do like my uni classmates a lot, wished that we could actually be closer however, I do not seem to have much time for them at the moment due to my job =\My friend Yale, tried on this sexy motherpucker. A lip plumping gloss which will expand ten times once water touches the gloss.Yale got really jittery and was trying to remove it. Haha it was rather amusing, she said it felt like soda on the lips.And I bought this book on the 29th Jan, as a present to myself. I wanted to get it the first time it came out during Xmas last year but it was really rather expensive.Just nice I walked past popular and it was on discount and at a cheaper price too with this paperback copy.I agar agar guessed how the story would be like judging by the synopsis, title and reviews that were made. Kinda predictable, wished that the synopsis was more vague and the title changed more towards something christmassy to suit the launch date.I saw the title "The Gift" only, I Immediately knew it had something to do with time.And I was correct.Keep this in your minds my dear friends.With that, good night, I have a really busy few weeks ahead and I really really hope I can pull up my grades. Damn stressed.Muacks, sweet dreams. first there was a lot of screaming, laughing , widening eyes , more shrieking and laughter. shuffling to the lobby, pens being passed around, papers getting signed.And before it sank in, I am now officially suckered in into a singing competition.What have I done! Nice song. What Sarah Said - Death Cab For Cutieby s_tancrediD: you don't what descending peaks is?!me: no leh.D: Go search for What Sarah said.Damn, this is a nice song.Especially the lyrics.Thanks dude for the rec. What a week! If I even had the guts to take a picture like that almost bare naked, I'd have scratched my eye liner dry all over.I guess, sometimes, even you're happy yourself, it doesn't matter as long as others are not happy with it.---------------------------------------------I had a wonderful week, albeit the hiccup on the 2nd.Many thanks to everyone who bothered ;) Hugs & kisses, will upload and update once I get everything.P.S: Fcuking LOVE Jacq's camera and her shots. Leica for the win. It has been quite a while since I actually thought that I can take a nice looking shot. Maybe it's coz all the other photos that were shot of me were pretty much ugly. In fact a lot of guys who took my photos always had me portrayed in some ugly shot. Even the ex-bf, could never take a good one of me. Sometimes I wonder is that how they actually view me as.Oh well, luckily, my gal pals can take nice photos of me and on rare occasions, something like this. I Much love,zr. I should be smiling to sleep. But I'm not.All thanks to a few unwise choices I made in who to call after 2pm. Wtf.I got a missed call from my dad so I called him back.My dad canceled my birthday dinner a few hours to go saying that he had to attend another dinner.And when I heard what the dinner was for I was seriously, fuck you.I didn't say that to him, but he could tell I was literally fuming.He kept on saying that don't worry he come back from overseas ( He was flying off tomorrow), he will give me my allowance.Wtf. Who cares about the allowance at this point.Are all men DAFT, don't they actually know what the problem is?And speaking about allowance, all the mofos who KP me asking me why the hell I still work, nah! You better burn and swallow this portion of information.I put down the phone and called my bro to call him up instead to tell him I won't be going.First mistake was to call someone.What a fucking big mistake, I should have learned from all the past experiences that he/she was never one to be good with anything interpersonal and has close to zero PR skills.We should make PR a core subject in O levels.You busy, never mind, say in a PROPER way can a not.At least ACT INTERESTED or show the LEAST BIT OF CONCERN when people suddenly so emomomo can a not.Oh , I forgot.You cannot.2nd biggest mistake of my life today was to call up the 2nd person to complain.Me: Wah lau! Very angry leh! How can he like that!#2: Aiyah, you should go do some exercise. Why you want to keep on eating the dinner he going to treat for what? Didn't your cousins bring you go eat dinner already? Why you so gian the free dinner? You should go exercise get rid of the fats and avoid illnesses.SUPER MAJORLY WTF.Who the fuck cares about the free dinner?I couldn't take it anymore after that. I was just overly eager to put down the phone on 2nd person already.Luckily, again, out of no where, a hero appeared to save the day. I was texting hero due to hero's birthday wishes and we were catching up a bit and hero heard about my sad plight and out of nowhere just asked me out even though I know hero had a long night.Hero had minimal sleep and accompanied me to watch a movie and treated me to McDonald's afterward, very simple but I was very happy.I wasn't alone on my actual day and someone bother and cared enough to make sure I wasn't unhappy or just listened to my grousings.I received several awesome messages from awesome friends as well.So I guess I really should be smiling.But why do I still feel so urgh.Anyhow, will update about other awesome things, as soon as all pictures are in ;] Good night sweethearts I just wanted to rant. 1000th post #1 - MI shall call him M.Some of you may read this and start smiling because it would dredge up a whole lot of memories that would make you feel sick with nostalgia.Sometimes, we'd rather not remember the good times to keep ourselves from missing it with the every molecule in our body. Don't we?If I am not wrong.The first time I saw M, was when he was wearing green or dark maroon metallic rimmed glasses.He was really skinny, very tanned, had a bowl shaped hair cut and has a dimple.I distinctly remember the glasses. For a stupid reason.It was because I wanted the same ones like his too.Even though I had perfect vision.M came into my life when I was only 9.And when we were 9,him, together with another girl, we were already best friends.At an age where everyone was still pointing fingers and making fun of a girl and a boy standing beside each other,and singing silly songs like the K-I-S-S-I-N-G one, something rare can prevail.The seniors were all making fun of us, and each time, he would just get all fierce and retort that we were his best friends, shut up.The other girl soon grew distant as she went into another class while M & I got into the same classes then on throughout.He was the first ever guy to call me up and talk hours.First ever guy to just singly go out together and chat around.First ever guy to steal something for me. It was really silly. He was explaining to me at Parkway that as long as this particular item is rubbed off the item, the item can go through the sensors undetected. I didn't believe him, and he went ahead and told me to pick something and proved it to me.Thinking about it now makes me smirk at our idiotic acts sometimes.Now here's the thing.It was a totally one-sided affair.M long knew that I had a huge crush on him.Yet he kept quiet.He didn't avoid me.He didn't change anything.He continued being who he was to me.Most people change once they know things like this but M stayed.He continued his phone calls, talked nine to the dozen, listened to music together [ We were really into pop music then. N'sync, S club 7, vengaboys etc etc BSB!].He continued everything he did before as a friend.He had other best friends later on towards graduation.But we still remained buddies, though not as close as before.I still keep the cards and gifts he gave.Even up till now.As there were no sad memories with him, only smiling ones.He was one of the person I would have followed if my PSLE marks were on par with him.Alas, after we graduated, we really drifted.I do not know what happened but one day, we just switched to different frequencies.We rarely talk on msn anymore.We totally never call each other anymore.And on occasion, we drop facebook comments.We always say we'd meet but we never.Just because our lives now are so different.So that would be the saddest memory I would have of M, of how things can just fall apart on their own and there is nothing that can be done about it, coz that's just how things are.M happens to live very near me by the way.I occasionally bump into him now and then - here.But like I said, in recent times, hardly.C'est la vie.--------------------------------------------------------------#2 - ZZ was my so called international secret.It was a huge joke to my primary school friends as what was supposed to be a "secret" can be so blatant to everyone.I bet if they read this now, they'd be laughing their asses off.Z came into my life the last year of my primary school education.He was a transfer student, and he looked really dorky with his S-shaped fringe.*Laughing already*He had a chunky watch, head almost botak except for his fringe, almond eyes, quite fair and vampire teeth.Surprise, surprise, I don't know how the hell he got to sit beside me -.-But days there after were funny.We chatted about almost everything, I asked stupid questions, he'd look at me incredulously and ask why I ask these type of questions but still answer me nonetheless.He told me that his father passed away, he lives with his mom and two sisters.We really did talk a lot, nine to the dozen in fact. Found out that he only kept the S-shaped fringe was because if he cut it off, he'd be totally botak and he didn't want that -.-He did well in his work, out of the entire class, only Jacq's, his and my essays were picked to be showcased.We didn't keep in touch after graduating, however I do occasionally ask how he was doing from a friend who went into the same school as he did.That was how I found out that during his secondary school days, he was diagnosed with a brain tumor. And then on I started to get in contact with him, asking how he was doing and such.Thank goodness, he was alright in the end.And during out erratic and very very random/occasional contacting, he apologised.For spoiling a pen of mine when we were in primary 6.Apologised, SEVERAL YEARS LATER.He kept it in his heart for so long, when I've already moved on.It was true, I was very upset, but it wasn't because of the pen, it was more of why he cannot let me have my way and draw on his desk or why didn't he feel bad when he spoilt my pen.And so many year after, he apologised.I was literally gobsmacked. I did not expect him to keep note of it at all.And somehow, it made me smile.The last time I saw him was when he was going to church. He looked must healthier. =)Seriously, I feel like laughing whenever I think of him, thanks to the diary I kept that year.I recently unearthed a very very very old diary.It was a diary for the year 2000, a yellow hard cover spiral bind one with some korean cartoon on the cover.I was literally blushing as I flipped through it as it was full of childish thoughts and writings.I once wanted to throw away the whole diary as my mother kept on threatening to invade my privacy.She lock herself up in my room. I don't know for what but she is really known to rifle through my stuff.I was so furious, I was brandishing the diary about at my aunt yelling and complaining that I was going to destroy it.My aunt took it from me say she'll keep for me.I said I wanted to get rid of it, she said she will throw it away from me.Several years after, I mentioned it, and what do you know.My aunt took it out of her wardrobe and passed it back to me.................I guess she knew how precious memories were when I was at an age that didn't know it.----------------------------------------------------------------------------#3 - GI've seen G before I started secondary school.Walked out of my room all groggy and squinty eyed to see him in my hall with his side parting and spectacles and frowned at him for coming over to my house at such a god forsaken (it was really 6+am -.-) hour to revise ENGLISH with my brother.ENGLISH.REVISE. -.-Now G, to me, was an absolute laugh fest of a puppy crush.I cannot help giggling, laughing out loud and all sorts whenever I think about that short stint.Anyhow, as you may have guessed from the above paragraph.Yes, a friend of my brother. GAWD, that sounded so damn awful.NOBODY TELL HIM OR I SHUT THIS POST DOWN. HMPH.In fact, G was the main reason why me, a TOTAL lazy assed person who used to mock at uniformed groups and their so-called "discipline" and rules, joined NPCC.WTF. First M, now G. Why am I always the one following people! Why no one follow me!A guy friend, who would be mentioned later on, was gawking at my reason for joining and was saying that he thinks it was bloody sacrificial of me to do so as he really thinks that NPCC was something that girls usually shunned.[ Indeed, approx 8 girls initially in my batch, only 3 passed out including me]*DIGRESS*However, I will say one thing, I am damn grateful for G's presence and influence in my decision making to join NPCC as it was one of the best decisions I have ever made in my entire life.Yes, I passed out only a mere corporal ( Auto promoted some more coz I failed the drill test 3 times, was initially an ACTING corporal only.) and skipped SO much of it, that really, I shouldn't have any CCA grade for it at all, but I still garnered an A2 with Mao hurling a vulgarity at me when he found out. HAHA.Mao is a classmate of mine for 4 years straight in Secondary school.Initially both of us were logger heads, we'd snap at each other, scream, scold & flip each other's table, but due to NPCC, he is one of the friends I really bother to chase after and call out to chit chat.The experiences & friends I made, though some may be not in contact anymore, were priceless.The after CCA lunches, the mad rush we make to KY's house for Holland V last time, eating together, practicing skits and stupid stuff and oh my god the bloody camps and competitions!Even now in everyday life I use some of the camp craft skills I learned. ( Fcuking terrible at it btw. Only remember the clove hitch i think? For pitching tents and the ship shank for tightening rope. Just used it when tying up CNY decoration for my aunts.)Felt damn accomplished please.HAHAHAHA.OMALA WAS MY SENIOR IS NPCC TOO, though we weren't close at all at that point of time and WITH GOOD REASON TOO THAT MOFO. WTF.I'll will talk about him later!KY, Sim & I lived pretty close together, so we'd always take the bus home together after our CCA activities and stop at this central location near our area to go take a look at puppies or just chill at KY's place.KY, though idiotic sometimes when it comes to stuff and acting all not serious and etc, is very perceptive.When my 1st relationship was over, remember I mentioned that I literally drag myself out of bed to watch TV, tired already go sleep and all?I one day, decided to just go to this NPCC outing planned during the holidays to watch a movie.Best decision I've ever made during that period.I arrived at school and I couldn't stop laughing. Mao was like, " Trying to cheat me la! Don't bluff , you don't look sad at all etc."Ky was like the only one after everyone went off and turned to me and asked me whether I was ok anot, still very sad is it?......... In a very... gentle tone some more sia. =s *tearing up*ARGH. Don't digress already. Go back to topic!*END OF DIGRESSION*Why he caught my attention?Well maybe it is also because he was my freshmen orientation camp leader and he was putting attention on me due to the fact that he knew me before hand?It was fun, those days, I still kept paper diaries.At the end of secondary school, I had a good thick few books filled page to page with assortments.And there was this book , the period, where there were a lot of scribblings in it about my interactions with G. And I would describe it WORD for WORD please.If he smiled in a cheeky way, I would write it down.If he said, " I want to eat bananas and maybe I won't but I feel like eating bananas"I would write, [ he said, " I want to eat bananas and maybe I won't but I feel like eating bananas"]I was that irritating. XD HAHAHAHAHAHABut I did remember writing one sentence that for my actions." I write this stuff down is because one day, I am scared I will forget."Well, no use anyway coz due to my mother's constant risk of the diaries getting into her hands, I one day, after a suspicious/argument episode, threw out one thick stack of diaries.I do regret doing that. A lot.And its true, I've forgotten quite a bit of things already.After secondary school, a good few years into Poly.I dug through my memo box to pack stuff.And I found, in a metal blue tin, a stick of gum.And I was literally smiling to myself about my idiocy.It was given by G.Just a stupid simple gesture of seeing me near by and offering me a sweet, I also ate the gum and bothered to fold properly the metal foil and slip it back into the green paper band to make it look as though it was untouched and put it on a metal box so that it won't get crushed some more.See what I mean when I say I felt like laughing?By then I was dating ZX already, and I threw it away, figuring that I don't think I would need a memory of another guy anymore.How silly of me, again.Oh well!G like another girl, this I knew, but hey! When it comes to one-sided crushes, you know who to call ;]-------------------------------------------------------------#4 -TT was the sweetest thing ever to happen to me.Why?Simply because he was the first ever dude to like me. ME leh.In sec 1/2 when I was like this short haired tom boy running. screaming and arguing around.He was in the class beside mine and I didn't know of his existence until things unfolded.One by one, just like ripples in the water, reactions started clicking off just by ONE simple act.I walked past this school mate whom my friends are very close with due to their CCA, and asked her whether did she see my said friends mentioned above.I still remember, that VERY moment I met and asked her.#1, she bloody stared and stared at me in amazement.#2, she continued to stare -.- I hope you girls know who I am talking about LOLAnd I was like o.O Woah, what is ON my face?Turned out as the days go by we started to chat if we bump into each other and all, and one day, she blurted out."Got someone in my class likes you leh!"And I was like 0.0 *cue: WUUUUUUT*And from then on.Pester time.pester pester pester her like siao.Followed her into the canteen,pester pester pester, and when she walk past my class table my class girls were like looking at me and asking what was I doing and when they found out what she said, all of them went 0.0 and also started to pester her like crazy. And Stephanie, who was on prefect duty initially in recess came and asked what was the commotion about and when she heard it, she started to scream and we all know when she screams we really give in to herAnd yea.That friend pointed him out, siting in a row of benches during recess....... And you know what.He was pretty decent looking.Yes I am so shallow laaaa. Shut up , it was like, I don't know, I had really low self-esteem and wth suddenly some guy I have never met "likes" me?And from then on, on hell broke loose. And looking back on it, damn. He was damn sweet.- To be continued- 999th me: kns. If I have a daughter, you'll most probably be only the "GOD - UNCLE"Omala: NOOOOOO. GOD FATHER!me: your XXXXX friend have a daughter how?Omala: Be the daughter's god father too!me: your sister give birth to a girl leh?Omala: god- niece!DAFT!Another quote of his:Where's the closet? I need to come out of it!IF YOU GET THE GIST.Just saw my results. I won't say I am TOOOOOO happy about it.With the way things started off this new trimester I am rather jittery especially since I screwed up 25% of a module due to my freaking out.Lesson learned, need comforting and lots of whining to please.As you can see this is the 999th post ;)Wheet!I solved the curious case of bedsheet bo liao ( no more in hokkien).And you are currently looking at it.I threw two bedsheets in the wash the other day and I wanted to go hang them up but found that someone had already done so, I walked back into my room only to back peddle again as I didn't see it being hung IN the kitchen on the bamboo. I looked out the window to see only 1 of my two bedsheets hanging merely by a quarter on a bamboo and I was wondering to myself whether did I actually wash TWO of the sheets.Turned out my mother didn't bother to clip it up and it flew away. WTFBBQ.I need sleep. Ciao babies!