Can You Keep A Secret? I’ve actually gotten another blog where I’ve posted lots of my pics and behave normally in the blogosphere. Let’s see if anyone can figure out which blog nick I’ve used. Happy guessing! Failed. Slimming pills did not work. Infact I gained more weight. This is depressing. FATS BEGONE! Remember this? With some knowledge from an angel, I have decided to try these again. But of a different brand. I’ve been binging a lot due to stress, heartaches and just being greedy and I am desperate to lose 10kgs. End of this month, I’ll give it a shot. Pls pray that I’m successful else I’m heading to one of those slimming salons. WOW! I’ve been plugged! And I thought that I had no readers at all. Gosh. I’m flattered. And I was thinking about killing this blog because there are no readers. There is hope afterall. Where have the years gone? It seems that time passes by too quickly. In a blink of an eye, almost 5 months have passed. What have I been doing with my life? Nothing. I feel unfulfilled. Unsatisfied. Half-empty. Resentful. Dejected. Depressed. What else do I need to fill up my life, body and soul? Why can’t we be together? I just don’t understand men sometimes. Mr ONS and I are casual friends right now but the sexual attraction is there. I do think we do hang out quite a lot and we click so effortlessly. I do wonder how it would be like if we get together and have said jokingly to Mr ONS a few times but the fool just laughs it off. Am I that bad? You can screw me but you can’t be with me?!?! Asshole. The Big O. I have a big confession to make. I have never encountered the big O. I have encountered mini shocks, something pleasant and all but never had the big orgasm where ladies all around have been raving about. Why? I just don’t get it. I am not a prude, I read literotica everyday coupled with porn. I masturbate once a week and I do have dessert with my men. *licks lips* Why? Any tips guys and gals? I want a pet. (pic taken from flickr) I’m still having the same money problems. Took up an admin position a month ago but this is not what i intend to do. I’ve been feeling quite lonely these days. Been meeting up with Mr Ons but we’re just friends. Been contemplating on getting a pet puppy or kitten. Maybe i should just start dating again. The sexual tension deepens. (pic taken from flickr) Mr Ons and i have been meeting up for casual lunches, dinners and drinks. Nothing serious, and we have stopped all naughty business. Unfortunately the sexual tension keeps building up between us. I would tingle when he brushes his hand against me as he tries to shield me away from the angry crowd when we’re in town, from when our hands accidentally touch each other when reaching for the bill. Innocent touches yet not very innocent at all. We stopped having sex because I didnt want to feel like a whore, having sex with someone in which i’m not having a relationship with. But why do i really feel like jumping him? I want to tear off his clothes, to kiss him from the top of his head till his toes, to caress his lovely penis, to biting the tender part of his neck and riding him, with his mouth suckling one of my tits and caressing the other with his other hand. Damn. I feel like a horny bitch. Must stop such sinful thoughts. This sucks. Money woes.   (pic taken from flickr) As some of you guys know, i’ve been unemployed for a while. Finding a suitable job has been hard and i’ve had used up almost all of my savings. If this continues, ill need to move back with the family which i’ll definitely go crazy. Help! Cupcakes Galore. (pic taken from flickr) I noticed that there have been an influx of food blogs. They are pure evil! Makes me feel so damn hungry! I would love to try the recipes out but I’m afraid that they’ll turn out bad. Any cupcake making workshops around? Merry Christmas! Merry Christmas All. (pic taken from flickr) Lonely…. (pic taken from flickr) Lonely I’m Mr Lonely, I have nobody, For my owwnnn I’m so lonely, I’m Mr. Lonely I have nobody, For my owwnnn I’m so lonely,  In times of these, celebrations and all, I feel the loneliest. There’s nobody to cuddle up with, to buy a special present for or someone to countdown these special days with. Friends are busy with their loved ones. I want to have someone special where we’ll countdown to Christmas, to give naughty presents to, to hug and to kiss tenderly. Sigh. I hate december. Discrimination? (pic taken from flickr) Not only is there racial discrimination in Singapore, there is age discrimination and discrimination. Most companies discriminate. They would look for the following: Chinese Single Twenties - Thirties Isn’t it true? I have a few friends who are of Malay and Indian race. They have trouble looking for jobs. These companies would tell them that they would require someone to speak Chinese and all. I don’t understand sometimes. If it was a telephone operator job, i’ll understand. If it is just for some admin or marketing job, i’m sure there are chinese workers in that company. Couldnt they translate instead? And wouldnt haveing a Malay or an Indian in the company benefit them? Afterall i believe they do not serve chinese customers only. Single. They would rather hire singles than married or even worst parents. Why? Because they feel that Married people do not commit enough time to the company. In other words, they want someone to sell their soul to the company. Get married to the company instead. They’re afraid that the parents would require flexible working hours to send the children to school/holidays/band camps. Old age. They would feel that the older generation would require retraining. They are slower at doing work, would require help with language and not as active as the younger ones. Wonder why Singapore is having such a low birthrate? Blame it on the employers. We’re scared of settling down and having children because we fear being discriminated. Shame on you! Never skinny enough. (pic taken from flickr) What is beauty to you? As some of you guys know, I have always been plump. My tummy has two rolls, my fats on my arms wobble, I have a double chin and a big JLO butt. (I have nice boobies too) As I have always been fond of eating, I could never lose weight. Recently since I have been unemployed, I discovered appetite suppression pills. And I took them. It was horrible. I suffered from insomnia, I really had no appetite to eat anything. Nothing. not even plain bread. I was constantly thirsty, and had bad breath. I lost a bit of weight at the tummy but I would guess thats because i have not eaten anything. My boobs shrunk. ArGH. I tried for a week and decided not to continue. I was having difficulty breathing, climbing steps and all. It was a nightmare. I decided to lose weight the healthier way. For now, ill start by not snacking. Next phase will be healthier food and the last phase if i could find the strength, is to exercise. Wish me luck. Till date, no suitable jobs. My 5k savings is running dry. Help. I need a sugar daddy. I am very hungry! ArGH. I need to lose weight but I can't seem to! I must learn how to cook healthy dishes! I have been surfing Food Network for recipes and found these. Must try these out! Anyone has any lowfat recipes? Please share! Why are we so ANAL?! (Pic taken from Flickr) Do you realise that SINGAPOREANS are super anal over everything?! For example: Government ANAL over everything. They control EVERYTHING. No freedom of speech, censorship of 'certain' movies, sack a well known blogger just because he wrote about his POV. I wish we were more liberal, free like other countries. FYI: they control the media too. There is no freedom of speeeeeeech ANY FUCKING WHERE. We look down on others who have done time, those who have their sex videos posted up (aka NYP's Tammy), over women/men who sleep around. We judge people. Fuck the world. I'm migrating. Temptation.Lust.Sex.Seduction   (Picture taken from Flickr)  Have you ever been so tempted to have a great shag with a stranger? I have added someone (a reader apparently) to my msn list and we have been chatting and flirting with every night. Its flattering, he has seen my picture on msn and he isn't running in the opposite direction.  So… We have been chatting about sex and all and he mentioned that I was the kind of lady he would wham anytime, infact he has invited me many times to go out. Its interesting, because i am actually feeling turned on by words and all. Perhaps i have grown more open minded after Mr ONS. I am seriously thinking of meeting him and having a great romp. Is this weird? Being turned on by a guy I hardly know by his words? What is wrong with me?! Have any of you guys felt the same way?