Nice Song!!
YUPZ!!! i got addicted to this song too!!! i wonder... most of the songs that i get addicted to are those sung by the guys... seriously i have yet to find a song sung by a girl or a girl band that i really like.... but i have found many guy songs.... juz listen to this one.... it's really damn nice!!! i only like girl songs if the singer is like kinda good looking and stuff.... and ya.... if i like the song sung by a girl... it's probably that the singer isn't very pleasing to the eye and i will get bored of it very soon.... but all these boyband songs are so so nice!!! and it's so addictive!!!probably because i can try to singalong.... since it's probably within my range.... but ya.... i see a general trend that girl singers and girl bands dun sound as good as the guys... with a few exceptions.... SHE is probably one of the better ones.... but sometimes the songs are very irritating... like constant reptition of the same line... and ad lib coming out from everywhere..... and which other FAMOUS female singer can sing well?? jolin?? no she cant sing.... she's famous because of her stage presence, her dances and the huge lumps of useless fats hanging in front her.... but when it comes to singing.... she's no match to many others..... Ah mei can sing well... that's probably the only other one which i think sound eternal..... but people... take note of this budding singer called 刘力扬.... she's amazing... she sang a duet with Yoga (林宥嘉)... and she sounded real good... and then i went on to listen to some of her songs.... it was nice as well!!!but the boy bands and male singers!!! i can never get sick of their voices.... when i first this song up there.... i dunno who they were.... i only heard of them.... but never knew how they looked or how they sounded..... but i immediately fell in love with this song.... how often can u find singers with such beautiful voices??!! ya... it's really much more easy to name boy band and male singer who can REALLY sing!!! shinhwa.... hirai ken.... arashi... etc.... all of them are so pleasing to the ears.... and i haven gotten sick of this song even after hearing it for more than 20 plus times already.... it's on replay mode.... hahaha....btw.... to those who dunno.... their japanese name is Tohoshinki.... korean name is dongbangshingi.... and their chinese name is 东方神起.... the reason why they have so many names is because they are generally koreans.... but like BoA.... they sing japanese songs.... and some korean songs if i'm not wrong... they also managed to spread themselves to China.... i watched a video of the live performance by them.... and i swear IT FREAKING SOUNDS LIKE A CD!!! AND IT DEFINITELY WASN'T PRERECORDED!!! cause it's damn obvious it wasn't.... this grp is 神 lah.... my comments only apply to the part of asia which i know best.... couldn't care less abt the music from the rest of the world.... further more.... I LOVE JAPANESE AND KOREAN MEDIA!!! and so should u all!!! cuz they have quite a lot fo quality stuff!!!
Haha...
yo mabs... i laughed when i saw your comment.... especially the part abt the comment not being shitty.... hahaha.... lol....i would go IF and ONLY IF i got the money.... which i obviously dun.... hahaha.... and there's still HK right??? lol....
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i chose to do wat i did.... and for those who missed it... i'm glad... i'm ok too... anw.... i'm really glad to know some of my frenz are alright... i guess that's all i needed to know... that all of u are well... ya... and i really hate printing stupid lecture notes.... in my effort to try to save paper by printing double sides... i always end up wasting more paper!!! because my stupid printer screws up all my pages, making it totally impossible to make my notes go in order.... HOW CAN a printer feed 3 BLOODY PIECES OF LOW QUALITY PAPER and STILL NOT get a FREAKING paper jam??!! and more impressive is... HOW CAN A STUPID PRINTER DO THIS 3 TIMES IN A ROW!!! juz to print 3 pages of stuff.... my printer fed 9 pieces of paper in total!!! and because i was printing on the second page, this had TOTALLY n ABSOLUTELY SCREWED UP my paginations....i punched my printer hard enough and i hope its not damaged..... they shld be more durable than that ba.... looking at how many times i punched and slapped my com everytimes it screws something up....i'm really not those techno friendly kinda person.... but wat can i do.... i have to learn.... haiz.... juz lke how learnt everything i could in waraku juz to be made use of.... i'm like living a life slavery....anywayz.... after my feat through NUS.... i really hope to continue studying... NOT CHEMISTRY... i starting to get sick of it after realising how difficult it is to understand the concepts.... i wanna do nanosciences.... or i might wanna do design related stuff....owell... next week's a new week in school.... envious of mabel who is taking a sem off cause she's ABLE to graduate early... but want to go for graduation trip with others.... haiz.... studying is tiring!!!urgh....
Contradiction...
lately i've been experiencing bouts of depressing emotions.... and after having to struggle for so long.... i feel that i might have discovered what's going on....i haven't been spending enough time with people who are important to me....it's a really sad fact... and i am at lost.... and i attribute this feelings to the fact that i have grown so much in the last 3 years... not only physical which is quite obvious.... in fact people.... i have lose quite a lot of weight even i look like it.... but the fact that i have went through so much more than most people around me.... believe it or not.... i always feel like i have no one to talk to.... blogging is like a release for me... it doesn't matter if someone reads this.... but i juz wanna get it out.... and most of time the time.... i do a bad job.... talking into cyberspace is lonely sometimes.... i wanna hang out with the people whom i care for.... to catch up and all that.... but it's really scary when wat u desire is wat u fear.... i am juz scared.... scared to hear a rejection etc.... sometimes friends to me are really scary.... because i think too much abt how they would think of me.... if i changed... or when i become another person....sometimes.... i feel better when i am with someone i dun really know... or with a complete stranger.... but i am afraid that they will know me better and discover that inside this witty, funloving person lies a sad and lonely heart..... used to have this person who can make me feel better everytime i talk to him.... but people take different paths and it juz so happen that the number of times we cross each others path is so minimal.... and yet when i need someone to talk to.... i will think of wat he would have said.... and then blog to make myself feel better.... probably thats why people dun know me well.... even i dun understand myself some times.... wat am i pushing for?? wat am i reaching out for?? i keep everything in me... bottled up everything.... and now.... every bottled up thought is mixing with every other one and wat i am now is a confused... lost... person....i have played ard so much in the past.... been out with all sorts of people.... people nicer than my nicest frenz... and those worse than my worst frenz.... frequent flings are like normal..... and watever free time i have i dedicated to the sole purpose of having fun.... but after these few periods of high ups and low downs..... i realised that it is time to stop all these.... and lead a proper life.... and let loose once in a while.... but now.... i realised i have aged....there's nothing left for me that i wanna experience.... there's nothing left which i wanna try.... i am probably more jaded than the oldest person..... i need to know that people are out there supporting me.... i read a blog which belongs to a fren.... and i realised that we are so alike.... both of us have somehow seemed to lost trust in the human race.... the only difference is that she had such a strong support....and me.... nothing.... if i fall i will fall hard and probably no one will be there to catch me.... i need my mum.... and all my frenz.... and to my frenz.... please bother to try to meet up when we promised to meet up.... because everytime we missed the chance to meet up, i am always left very disappointed.... very very disappointed....
People are "Robotized!!"
it's so sad to see people, even myself, who are in the service line becoming so robotised... it's like we are programmed to do what we do.... for me... it is a standard thing to say "thank you for waiting, here's your order for XXXXXX, thank you enjoy your meal".... all these procedures are pragrammed into me already.... like what i have to do, when i have to do them and how i have to do them.... its like at my finger tips... but whta got me to really think abt such things is this auntie who is working at macdonald's near my place....i was kinda craving for mac's today.... dunno why.... mac's isn't even nice.... but i was craving for it.... so i made my order...me: "hi, can i have a McChicken meal upsized, and takeaway."auntie: "upsize?"I nodded my head and clearly remembering i had told her i wanted it upsized and she better not ask me eating here or takeaway. then she went....auntie: "eating here or takeaway?"i stared at her hard for a moment and said: " takeaway... -_-'" "auntie: "ok, $6.75 please."i handed her the money...auntie: " thank you sir, here's your change and have a nice day. see u again..."after she said this i smiled back at her politeness.... i turned my back and something struck me real hard like a plank on a piece of tofu....I HAVEN'T EVEN COLLECTED MY TAKEAWAY!!! and she said have a nice day see u again?? so i went back and waited stood at the counter and glared.... auntie saw me and said... "please wait at the side here ok?"she should have said it before asking me to enjoy whatever that is left of my day.... but really u cant blame her.... it's already programmed into her.... she's working based on instinct already.... and most people eat in.. only bo liao people like me orders takeaway... so definitely she treats me like an eat in customer since it is so natural for her to do it....ya.... look.... people in singapore are working so much that everything they do is so familiar that it becomes programmed to them.... ask them to bend a bit is like asking them to masturbate in public lor... IMPOSSIBLE!!! even if its possible also nobody see... hahaha.... thats why i sometimes pity service line.... yet so many others dun see the pains of having to serve others and fulfil their unreasonable demands.... recently i have been serving really annoying customers and all i can do is bite my lip and do wat i can.... for example.... one incident.... lemme describe it to u and i can say it is the epitome of shooting back that customer.... server involved?? me.... it was all my doing....one customer ordered this dish that is served in a claypot.... she took effort to walk up to me and stood in my face and said: "can u please come over for a moment??"so i went to her table and showed me wat disgusted her...her: " look!! the soup so little!! this claypot suppose to have soup right? it looks more like dry noodles now... can u get some more soup?"me (biting my lips already but still forced a smile): "sorry abt it ma'am, i go get more soup. juz gimme a moment."so i went to the kitchen and requested more soup.... but because it was a claypot item, the soup had to be heated.... and since there were a lot of customers at that time and only one other server outside, i decided that i shld go outside and help and come back for the soup after it is ready.... when i reached outside i was called upon again by her fucking majesty, the empress dowager....her: "where is my soup?? u come out never bring the soup arh??"this time i was already pissed!!! i had so many more customers and i have to waste time on this cunting bitch?? but as a professional, i maintained my brightest friendliest smile and answered her...me: "do u want the soup cold??"the bitch went "HUH??!"me: "oh because the soup the kitchen gave me was cold, so i asked them to reheat for u, since your item is a claypot... but if it is so urgent that u need it now.... i can go in now and get the cold soup for u lor, then u can carry on eating your noodles is cold soup.... it will be faster, less than 30 seconds, i can get the cold soup ready..."bitch: "oh i see, need to reheat arh.... (me thinking "YES U WHORE!!!") ok lor, thank u very much..."me: "so u want the cold soup or u want to wait a bit more so that the soup will be hot?"bitch (who is not so bitchy liao): "we will wait for the hot soup, thanks for asking them to reheat arh..."me: "no prob ma'am, juz wait for a while more, it should be ready soon...."bitch: "ok thanks..."and i walked away.... i think i am so pro at this.... i can diss the customer and still not get a complaint.... and they even thanked me for dissing them!!! some customers are so hard to handle... but with the right way of talking... I can twist and turn the situation such that i come out victorious!!!so because of all these kinds of problem customers, sometimes i really really pity service line.... that's why i try my best to not give them trouble.... if u wan a good server, u gotta be a better customer.... thats wat i always believe.... even when china customers come in.... u know china people.... they can be very rude to servers.... but once i had this very aloof china customer... and i had to serve her.... and her bf.... but she was really nice... juz her aloof-ness and slight arrogance.... she was really nice when i was serving her.... although i hated her attitude, i really enjoyed serving her.... she was one great customer that left a big impression on me....lesson is.... be nice to robotised servers.... because such things are outta their control....=========================================================================i wonder.....
Getting (TOO) Close to Nature...
went to ubin to cycle a few days ago... in wed to be exact.... and as usual... it was fun!!! really fun!!! but at the same time it was very tiring... especially after the severe of proper forms of exercise and extremely lousy rented bikes.... but nonetheless.... did many fun stuff.... bashed through forest and getting really close to nature... in fact... too close to nature... leaves were everywhere... but yes... we bashed through the ubin forest to reach the highest point on pulau ubin... which the hill at ubin quarry.... and boy it was a wonderful sight to behold!!! the waters were really blue!!! and the scenery was so beautiful!!! but by the time we reached there.... we were soo shagged!!! i was literally orgasing (if there's sucha word) through the forest because of the exhausting hike up the hill... they should build escalators.... lol.... and ya.... having those leaves and fern stuff brushing against me with every step i take makes me i am a forest spirit of some sort.... maybe a dryad.... or a forest pixie.... lol.... and yes.... i caught sight of a real wild wild boar.... first ever in my entire life.... that stupid pig was literally trying to block our path lor.... lol.... and it was really ugly.... hahaha.... but ya.... at least now i know wild boars are ugly.... and also.... got to go into chek jawa.... previously barricaded.... now it's open to public.... but there are wooden paths and all that... so there wont be any disturbances to the wildlife there.... and sadly it was high tide when i went there..... so didn't manage to see much of the marine life.... except for mudskippers.... lotsa them.... ugly things as well.... lol..... and ya.... as expected.... chek jawa isn't really that fantastic... probably due to the high tide.... but the view is great... and the wind is heavenly.... cuz it was really sunny... and i am now still slightly burned.... the crew was fun to be with.... as usual.... the complaints and all that.... although sometimes it gets really annoying.... but most of the time.... it was a good laugh.... and the whole group agreed that we would be crowned the noisiest group of bikers ever to visit pulau ubin.... hahaha.... every step was noise..... the bikes were creaky and noisy.... the people were bitchy and noisy.... but wat can i say.... at least it was quite fun.... especially when u have people who havent been to ubin.... and awe at every uninteresting thing there can be.... like maybe a lizard.... "AAAAAWWEE!!!".... as if the same type doesn't exist on mainland singapore.... it's probably worth the "AAAWEE!!" because it is an ubin lizard.... well.... i would really really awe when i see a flying pig lah!!! but at ubin... even rambutan trees can be SOOO exciting... even though all they can do is sway in the wind.... and people actually go there and pick up rambutan fruits to eat lor!!! how selfish can they get!!! wat abt the monkey and pigs who live there??!!! lol....we left ubin early..... cuz it was tiring..... and urong had to work.... but it was day well spent i would say....========================================================================i am quite sick of working at waraku.... and everyone is starting to feel it....
Downloading...
for people who dunno still think i dunno how to download stuff.... start congratulating me!!! HURRY!!!*ears wide open*hahaha.... thanks!!! yup... i finally know how to use torrents.... although there are still a lot fo things i dunno abt.... for now... most of my downloads are kinda successful.... =Dnow..... i am downloading some stuff.... and sure enough.... it's kinda infuriating.... let's see.... the time elapse.... meaning from the time i started the download till now.... is 12 hours 22 min.... and the progress of the downloading is at....0.9%..... izit suppose to be so slow if the file is huge?? cuz i seriously dun think so.... it's so slow i bet anyone's grandmother can run faster lor.... unless my com is super slow.... ok... it IS slow.... but not THAT slow ma.... ya.... and it is infuriating me.... oh yay!!! it's finally at 1%.... after 12 hours?!!!watever lah.... it's too confusing for me to find out wat is wrong.... i'll ask people....========================================================================anywayz.... i've recently been watching this show called Avatar: the last airbender.... my comments....IT'S GOOD!!!i'm so totally addicted to it....it's an american anime... which is weird cuz an anime is called an anime when it originates from japan.... but in this case it came from america.... and ya.... it's kinda kiddish.... ya know.... like for children..... which is further supported by the fact that it is aired on nickelodeon.... lol..... but seriously.... i think avatar is good.... apart from the kiddishness of it.... i think the story line although simple.... but the inner twists makes it interesting...juz a brief outline of the whole story... there are 4 colonies.... the air nomads, water tribes, fire nation and earth kingdom... they use to live in harmony until the fire nation started to attack the other colonies..... the people in each country is able to control a certain element.... these people are called benders.... eg.... benders from the air nomads are called airbenders.... benders from the water tribe are waterbenders etc.... benders are able to use their respective elements to attack and depend themselves.... but only one person in the whole world have to potential to learn to bend all 4 elements.... that person is the avatar.... and only the avatar has the power to stop the fire nation from their invasions.... but when the invasions started and he was needed the most, the avatar disappeared.... the battle went on for 100 years.... and the avatar was found.... for the details.... watch the show.... lol.... so... the avatar now is an airbender.... and he must learn to bend the other 3 elements in order to defeat the fire lord..... so his journey starts and yada yada yada..... learn abt his interesting journeys by watching it!!!! the series juz ended not long ago.... it has 61 episodes in total.... 3 seasons.... u can download it.... or u can watch it online HERE... ya.... this link will bring u to the first episode of the first season.... btw.... anime media is a great website.... lol.... last but not least.... i leave u with a cool pic of the avatar in the avatar state.... seriously..... go watch it.....
Enough is Enough...
i am damn sick of everything.... as usual... i cant seem to plan my shitty timetable... i dunno wat modules i can take.... especially when my lab lesson are 7 hours long!!! how the fuck can i plan anything?!! furthermore.... labs are all on the earlier parts of the week.... which is when most modules have their lecture.... so having those shitty labs there means i cannot take a lot of modules!!! and i have a few modules which i wanna take that falls in that period... WHY MUST THEY PREALLOCATE MODULES!!! can't they juz preallocate the core modules that i wanna take this sem?! i have to bid for all the shit lah!!! they dun even let us chose which core module i wanna take this sem lah!!! i am so.... UURGH!!!so much pent-up stress in me.... haiz....
It's Been A Long Long Time...
it's been a long logn time since i last blogged... been really busy with work and all that... and also busy falling sick... stupid stomach is not supporting me in my cause to higher savings.... haiz... and trust me... diarrheoa is a scary thing.... especially when u are in the midst of working... or taking a customer's order.... dun even wanna talk abt it....and yupz.... huina finally found a better job than waraku.... she left waraku liao.... haiz.... another great colleague left waraku.... it's damn demoralising to know that so many of the good workers are leaving waraku.... even adelena and jian jie from the orchard branch left because of the unreasonable cutting down on part timer schedule to save on labour cost.... watever.... i seriously see my time is coming soon anyway.... but i am still hoping to hold on until at least i can find another good paying job and flexi scheduled part time job.... meanwhile kat san from east coast is coming over next week.... which make central branch the only branch that have 4 managers in a single branch.... STUPID!!! no wonder our labour cost is so high lah!!! watever lah.... i cant be bothered.....anywayz.... juz to intro some stuff.... i'm really into pastries these days... which makes me think.... maybe i should become a patissier (or however u spell it) next time.... lol.... yupz.... so ever heard of GOBI??? i tell u... the stuff there is great stuff..... a bit ex.. but... very nice.... looks great too.... juz take a look....the stupid white border is ugly.... but the pastries looks good enought to eat right??!! hahaha.... and ya... they do taste great.... and if anyone of u havent tried macarons.... U SHOULD TRY THEM!!! cause they are damn good!!! super delicious!!!next place... paisley and cream cafe.... i haven tried it yet.... but colleagues told me the cupcakes here are great.... there's a wide variety.... i know cause i have the pamphlet.... and they all look yummy.... i have seen them....yupz.... comes in 2 different sizes.... small and big.... DUH!!! and ya... it's damn tempting.... double choc is recommended by keelin.... hahhaa.... both shops are located at central... gobi has another outlet in katong mall....ok...i gotta go.... bidding is coming and i hate it.... especially when i have to start planning....
Songs....
i'm addicted to korean and jappanese shows.... and likewise.... i am so addicted to jap and korean songs as well.... plus i am so in love with chinese songs as well... my itunes is flowing with great songs and the collection is still increasing... goodness.... but i have so little time to download these songs.... haiz... owell.... i'm so lazy to blog now.... i'll juz leave the lyrics of my fav korean song and my fav jap song here juz to add length.... ========================================================================으쌰으쌰 (신화)Hey come on everybody swimming in the seaSaying doo wa diddy diddy dum dee ree dumHey come on everybody walking down the seaSaying doo wa diddy diddy dum dee ree dum한밤중에 기차타도가네어린시절의 바다를 찾아다네걱정거리 근심거리하나없던그 시절로돌아가고싶어아! 나 이제피곤해요 일그만 하래요다접어두고우리 함께 몰놀이가면 안될까요시원하게 부서지는 파도, 햇살, 모애사장, 바닷가좋아답지도 않고 질리지도 않는 수박은더조하이렇게좋은 여름을기다려온나는 기분좋아 (담디리담)여름밤이 찾아오면 모닥불을 피워놓고 둘러앉아 이것저것 아무 재미없는 얘기도 할거야 썰렁한 얘기라도 그런 밤엔 다 용서받고 싶어 (덤다리 덤) 나-나! 어릴 적에 살던 동네 여름오면 너무너무 행복했지 시냇가에 친구들도 (첨벙첨벙) 덩달아 바둑이도 (깡충깡충) 그렇게 앉아있지 말고 나랑 같이 가요 안되는 일 억지로 붙잡고 늘어져서 된다는 보장하나 없을테니까인생을 낭비하지 마세요 오! 그렇게 살다보면 지들어 가니까한 번이라도 툭툭 털고 모든 걸 잊고 즐기며 살아봐요하루종일 지루하고 짜증하는 일이 많이 있었다면 이것저것 재보지 말고 여행을 떠나봐 기차를 타고 버스를 타고서 떠나자 hey come on everybody swimming in the seasaying doo waa diddy diddy dum dee ree dumhey come on everybody walking down the seasaying doo waa diddy diddy dum dee ree dum인생을 낭비하지 마세요오!그렇게 살다보면지들어 가니까 한 번이라도툭툭 털고모든 걸 잊고 즐기며 살아봐요하루종일 지루하고 짜증하는 일이 많이 있었다면이것저것 재보지 말고 여행을 떠나봐기차를 타고 버스를 타고서 떠나자으싸! 으싸! hey hey hey, ho!으싸! 으싸! hey hey hey, ho!==================================================おかえり (絢香)おかえり sweet home帰る場所 愛をありがとうまだ平気なフリをして悲しみの色を塗りつぶして笑ってしまうんです信じることの大切さ わかってるのにいざという時 疑ってしまう yeah空っぽの体 流れる時に浮いてしまいそうになるけどあなたのこと抱きしめたいこのキモチが突きをかすのおかえり I'm home一言で 満たされる心おかえり sweet home帰る場所 愛をありがとう sweet home自分のことばかりを考える大人はずるいんだと思っていたんですでも必死で帰ることを 叫んでる人もいるんだやっと知ったんです当たり 前の 幸せなんか この世界に一つもないあなたのため そう思えたこのキモチが突きをかすのおかえり I'm homeスピードが加速してく毎日おかえり sweet home変わらない ずっとある景色 sweet home探して なくした 心の傷が 立ち向かう強さに変われたのは「おかえり」があったからおかえり I'm home一言で 満たされる心おかえり sweet home帰る場所 愛をありがとうおかえり I'm home大丈夫 あなたがいるからおかえり sweet home待っててね もうすぐ着くから sweet home=================================================================damn.... typing all these shit is damn tiring!!! and the freaking kanjis require a lot of guessing.... so many kanjis have the same sound lah!!! blah... watever!!! back to my "project" which i am currently working on...hee hee....
I Need Toothpicks...
to keep myself awake... quite tired these few days... lol.... but i think there's a sense of satisfaction from working so much at waraku.... and once again... i was stationed with 2 new guys.... and yes i was stricter.... i dun mind getting niao-ed at.... but i kena niao-ed so many times until i got quite irritated.... haiz.... i was quite harsh on the service p/t... but i was kinda annoyed with the new AM.... previously from XIN WANG @ cine... lol... like WADEVA!!!but at least he did his homework... he can take orders and actually knows wat to ask.... but he got that air of arrogance around him.... i will make sure he cower under my prowess!!! MUAHAHAHAHAH!!!!back to operations.... since our cashier was always at cashier.... i am practically leading the whole service team on my own.... me and 2 new guys.... one keeps thinking he is kinda smart.... ok he is kinda intelligent.... and the other keeps asking me about the new songs which he brought in.... oh... ya.... waraku has new songs now... and frankly speaking... i think they are quite nice.... lol.... might bring my lappie down one day to burn them.... lol.... so yupz.... i chionged like a fucking bitch and now i am exhausted.... and it's only 12.30!!! haiz....kinda blogging so little nowadays.... hmmm..... so many agenda not done.... (bad english!!!).... must find time to plan more off days!!!!
On Life and On Love
yupz... as the youngest boy in mohawk platoon 2 of batch _?_ , i have finally made it into club 22... and it really sux to see the stupid birthday counter above the title of this post (*look higher*) counting to the day i am 23.... makes me feel so old.... and the fact that i am working me ass off like a crazy motherfucker make me look more that my numbers... little chris actually thought i was 24!!! fucking horrid thought!!! and to even think that i lookED like i have not attended army.... even dannyny thought i haven been in there!!!i mean... apart from the fatness on... erm... everywhere.... and the whiteness on.... everywhere as well... which part of me says i have not been through army??!!! i was lucky enough to have attended BMT during the heat wave 3 years ago lor.... like 3 months without rain is fun like that... good thing abt working my ass is that i look thinner from my previous fatness.... note that i used thinner.... not thin... because i am still fat and it would be ironic to use thin when i am fat.... so yupz.... i have grown thinner... grown is a weird word to be used here though... hmmm.... so uh huh... its a matter of relativity... one year of many things.... i managed to pull up cap to look decent....though not honours standard yet.... but i'm gonna work on it.... fell in and out of love several times.... and i wonder when someone born on the opposite pole will be sent crashing to me at the speed of life.... but for now.... to heal the wounds... so yupz... i'll probably try to remain single for a long long time....had my fair share.... or should i say lion's share of retail therapy.... trust me.... i did a hell lotta shopping... and i almost went over the limit.... and i went to watch a hell lotta movies... or at least to my standards.... i love sex and the city.... it's nice.... i love the storyline and all that.... and i also love KUNGFU PANDA!!!this show is sooooo cool!!! i love the furious 5.... i love the panda.... and the shifu and the turtle... and even the baddies.... all i can say is.... the graphics were amazing!!! and there's this line in the show...."Yesterday is history and tomorrow is a mystery.... but today is a gift... that's why we call it the present..."when i heard this line.... "COOOOL" went through my head.... lol.... but i think this is a great phrase.... it's juz simply amazing.... i love phrases that play around with words.... all phrase except those bloody propaganda shit that will ruin my day.... like "be a part... not apart"... BLAH!!! government hires people to think of catchy lame phrases like this?? lol....alright gotta catch some z's before i konk out tmr....
Retail Therapy Rox!!!
finally... after 16 days of working... i get to enjoy my one day of break.... and yupz... retail therapy was the plan!!! spent a bomb on everything u can think of... and yes... i am defintely gonna start budgetting liao.... because ze card is ze moz evil sing in ze verld.... lol.... yes it is....but nonetheless.... i enjoyed myself thoroughly....owell.... tmr going back to work.... then 2 more days of break.... and then work work work!!! my punch card is gonna fabulous.... but still.... i wanna meet up with more people.... and yupz... i see more money.... but the time will come soon....===============================================================sex and the city..... hmmmm.... it is a great movie..... unlike the series.....some people speak their minds not in front of others.... so that they can juz speak without thinking.... which is totally opposite of wat i would.... if i know i cannot do something.... i will never promise nor give false hopes.... it's a bit like when someone thinks they done so much for someone else.... they never ever thought that wat they have done might not be wat that someone else wans.... but u know wat.... i'm so used to always becoming the bad guy... the baddie.... that i dun even give a damn anymore.... if anyone out there wans to think that i am a bad person and everything is for me to be blamed on.... then so be it.... but juz to let everyone know.... watever i have done have not backfired.... even if it was on a moment of impulse.... i never ever regretted all that i have done.... because i will always think of a solution.... and now that i am turning 22..... i dun really give a damn abt wat others think of me anymore.... because this is who i have grown to become.... and there's almost zero chance i am going to change.... most importantly.... one shouldn't comment on anything if they dunno the whole story.... meaning.... if u dunno anything.... juz really shut up.... and i do treasure my frenz.... juz that things dun always go the way i wan it to be.... watever....gibberish is a place for me to voice out everything i wan to.... and nosey people have no rights to reprimand me abt wat i say... because this is my space.... and if the day comes when i dun wan people to read my blog anymore.... i will privatise it.... and i will only send invites to people whom i know can listen and make me feel better and not read and make it worse.....and it is precisely that i envisioned similar statements like the ones i see that makes me all the more certain that wat i did before was correct.... even though i endured all the shit and bad weathers for god knows how long.... and i can swear to whichever higher being up there that it is not a fun thing to do.... and neither did it make me any happier.... this might sound harsh.... but this is all truth.... afterall.... gibberish is not only abt gibberish.... but it is also abt the truth of my feelings to certain things...... so watch ur fingers when u types incoherent and nonsensical crap in an effort to make me feel bad..... because to me.... feeling bad equals feeling angry and annoyed and pissed off.... WHOEVER U ARE!!!!yet there is not much that i can say abt it presently..... but go watch it if u havent....
Maybe... Juz Maybe....
i'm not all that important?? or maybe i've really been taken for granted?? or maybe i'm juz too nice to everyone...why izit that people are always using me to make it better for them.... and why am i so stupid enough to use OKAY so frivilously?? and why do i fear bothering others?? even when it is to meet up and catch up??maybe i really am quite alone in this world.... or maybe i was always alone.... or maybe part of me wanted to be alone.... or maybe i should juz break out of this bubble that traps me.....
It's Better...
yepz.... i got my results already... and yupz.... i improved.... finally i can see some A's... although my core modules were like shit.... i'm juz damn glad my UE's pulled up my cap.... seems like i chose the right mods afterall... yupz... and i watch Narnia 2 liao.... IT RAWKS!!! really nice.... i think ben barnes played caspian really well... and the pevensie kids were cool.... although it was weird that skandar keynes had broken his voice.... lol.... he was the one with childish voice in narnia 1.... hahaha.....also went kbox.... and i did not pay a single cent.... cuz the most stingy person in waraku decided to treat... so i had to go some how.... lol.... and i'm glad it was quite fun... all in all.... it's great.... i have fun most of the time.... except when i had to attend to my auntie's funeral.... i fell asleep.... hahaha.... but i hope she's doing well wherever she is.... alright.... i'll be working this whole week.... and i'll probably have a break next week.... since i'm turning 22.... OLD!!!
Holidays is NOT a Word in MY Dictionary...
now that the summer break is here.... the weather had been boiling hot.... and i have overworked my air con every night.... as usual i am almost never at home.... always at work.... because of understaff shit... and people falling sick.... i have to work more.... in fact it was so bad for one of the days that no one knew how to plan the station plan.... 7 people with 10 names to fill in.... in the end some lame-O from pasta came up to help.... but that hardly solved the problem..... i still had to jaga 2 stations.... pantry and runner.... IT WAS TIRING!!!! the night wasn't much better also.... only managed to get one more person and still had to run around the restaurant helping whoever we can help.....finally they managed to conviced themselves not to call me up again today and finally let me rest.... and rest is really wat i need.... i woke up at like 4 pm this afternoon.... really terrible.... i am really tired.... and not to mention.... i have not met a single friend ever since holidays started.... ok maybe i have.... i met only yiwen..... but thats cuz he came down to waraku to eat..... isn't it juz sad..... that i can only meet people who come down to waraku to eat??!!!i'm working a lot again next week.... and still i wanna meet up with as many people as i can.... haiz.... watever lah.... i have totally no mood to do anything.... i'm done with my weekly dosage of anime..... and bloody hell..... i have like watching SEX and THE CITY series..... all 6 seasons of it..... kinda boring for some parts.... but it's quite interesting for a concept.... and some of the storylines are quite cool.... single life can be boring.... but thats wat i need now....=)
Metal Thread...
it is something that is so hard to let go.... but i guess it is time... and it should be done.... it's already so obvious that things will not work out...i'm feeling really terrible right now... i seriously am.... once again.... something i put my heart and soul in.... didn't manage to work out.... i wished i was a different person.... i wished i could have at least met wat u wanted.... like maybe being less of a workaholic.... but being a workaholic was the only way i could think of to distract myself from the obstacles i am already seeing in front of me... i really have been running away from all the problems and putting on a brave front so that u will feel at ease.... but sometimes..... i am still unable to put away the real me.... and it juz so happens that the real me was too much for u to handle.... this sux.... seriously.... i'm not gonna rest well tonight.... and i am not gonna have an easy time regaining my usual self.... because it was because of us.... that i was happy.... but also.... it was because of us.... and who we were..... that made us you and me..... ans as i was pressing the tiny keypads of my cellphone.... everything that happens on 真情 is happening to me.... i dunno if i made the right choice.... but for now it is.... i hope u have learnt something about yourself from us.... cause i think i have learnt something abt me.... i am not sedantary enough to be relied on so much.... etc.... i hate myself sometimes... that i didn't take the chance to know myself when i was younger.... i hate the fact that i grew up to be a person with such a complicated mindset..... and also a complicated past.... i hate the fact that i did not let more people know who i was.... what i was in the past.... and i hate the fact that people who have known me since god knows when only know the side of me who i was willing to show.... and not know the person i have been hiding.... the pain is so real that it is literally killing me from inside.... i dunno how i am gonna get out of this.... and on top of it..... i was the assailant and the victim.... 10 more days and it would be 7 months.... i wanted to get there and surpass it.... but the distance i felt today was so great it made me think whether i was really enjoying the whole process or juz faking my way through... but nonetheless.... it's better to remove the dagger before it cuts even deeper..... cuz by then the pain will be greater.....i will always remember this....
Life after Exams...
is not very interesting lor.... besides working A LOT!!! i havent really done anything exciting.... watched one late midnight movie and one badminton session only... other days were practically work work work....and mother's day sux!!! the crowd at waraku was madness!!! sales was 16ooo lor.... which is damn high!!! and everyone was damn tired.... haiz... but then.... now a lot of the old staff are working.... so i am actually quite fine with it.... YISHENG CAME BACK!!! but he went over to pasta.... which sux.... pasta de waraku is such a boring place to work in.... i know because i worked there yesterday!!! it's SUPER SLACK!!! makes me even wonder why big boss wanna open that kind of restaurant....and yesterday.... went to Symphony of Voices.... which is my alma mater's choir.... which is my ex choir.... and i must say.... i am freaking disappointed with the standard of the choir now.... they sound damn shitty.... and the choreography.... haiz.... i seriously suspect the choreo is to distract us from the lousy singing.... and guess wat.... the choreo kinda sux too..... lol.... so ya.... i'm really kinda disappointed.....owell.... i'm like practically working almost 6 days a week.... and still have camp briefings and all.... i juz hope i can actually tahan through everything.... cuz.... haiz.... waraku seems like they are very dependent on the parttimers now.... although they are damn reluctant to admit it.... and yupz.... i am back to doing service for now.... so.... wonderful frenz and watever u are.... if u come down and i regard u as a fren or see u.... i might be able to share some privileges!!! hahaha.....oh did i mention.... i am sick now.... like coughing like some fat ass chicken being strangled to the brink of death and sniffing like some swine who got its tail squished by a tractor or something.... it's unbearable.... the weather and workload.... bad combination...owell.... gotta find some time meet everyone.... i miss everyone lor.... ='(
Everyone Say It With Me!!!
IT'S OVER!!!yupz... the feeling of euphoria is great... finally all the papers are over.... nonetheless... i still i wont do as well as i hope i would have.... my 3 core papers were a mess!!! but i am satisfied with my 2 other modules....WATEVER!!! IT'S OVER!!!time to earn money and have some fun!!!but before... i need to catch up my sleep.... i didn't sleep at all yesterday.... yupz.... totally couldn't sleep lah!!! weather like crap.... and the excitement of the last paper kept me awake.... so in the end did some last minute revision and played some game.... HOPING to play until i feel sleepy..... but when i check the time again.... it was time to go to school.... so in the end never sleep at all.... and the weird thing is i didn't feel tired at all.... until late afternoon..... ok.... my body was very tired.... but the mind was wide awake....hahaha..... alright.... badminton tmr.... gotta get some rest.....
YAY!!!
WOOHOO!!! although man utd lost to shitty chelsea... THEY BEAT BARCA!!! WOOHOO!!! the scholes' goal was chio lah!!!but i must say... lionel messi is zai lah...=========================================================================i am having so much trouble with physical chem because my mathematics is really bad.... so... who says all science students are good in maths.... scientific mathematics is not easy lor....
What's Wrong with Miley Cyrus!!!
anyone not familiar with Hanna Montana?? Famous disney channel star?? well thats Miley Cyrus....and the same thing occurs with ALL child stars.... of the idol of all children.... they are to maintain their image so that they don't influence and pollute the children's minds....well... earth to every parent living on pseudo-Earth!!! people grow!!! and ya... theres nothing wrong with miley cyrus posing for sucha photo for vanity fair ya know... juz because she show off a bit more skin... she was made to apologise?? wat the hell!! she is juz like everyone else... doing wat she can to earn money... and yet parents who should be the ones to understand this are the ones who make the biggest fuss abt it... come on!!! its juz stupid.... seriously.... it's not like we dun have a face or a back.... she didn't show off anything that is much more explicit than that right?? so wats the fuss... if it matters so much.... GO TO THE BEACH AND SCREAM AT EVERY BIKINI BABE FOR SHOWING OFF THEIR SKIN LAH!!! they are in fact showing much more than miley cyrus wat....wat parents aspect of child idols are so unrealistic... maintaining their image?? how's that even possible... people grow and mature.... and it's stupid... juz like the linsay lohan incident where parents complain her humungous boobs will pollute the minds of children.... COME ON!!! like she can control how big they grow lah!!! anywayz.... child idols maintaining their image is so not possible.... because they grow... and they mature.... and when they do.... they have to learn to appeal to another group of audience in order to survive in the hollywod indusstry wat....so... give her a break lah!!! you cant expect her to do children shows forever... imagine if hannah montana is really such a successful show that fifty years later.... its still airing.... and imagine riley cyrus fifty year later at the age of 65!!! acting all adorable and witty on screen!!! DO U SERIOUSLY THINK HANNAH MONTANA WILL STILL BE SUCCESSFUL BY THEN?? in fact i think hannah montana will not be successful if miley cyrus doesn't get outta it in a few years time.... probably if miley cyrus becomes a teletubbie... then age will not matter... since no one can see their faces.... except the teletubbie toy will be a walking stick... and that teletubbie moves slowly.... but everyone knows the teletubbie actors and actresses aren't that clean lor.... porn stars and les and watnot...next.... there is no need for scandalous pics like miley cyrus' to pollute children's minds.. BECAUSE IT'S INSTINCT!!! children will learn abt sex and everything related to sex on their own... on the internet.... at an earlier age.... and who knows... miley cyrus' picture might be considered mild to them lor....so i seriously hope everyone juz give child idols a break.... they need their source of income as well.... but if u strongly feel that it miley cyrus shouldn't do it... well... TOO BAD!!! wat's done is done.... why not accept it.... and make it educational!!! since all child idols are suppose to educate children in some way or another because parents dun do their job well..... ya.... great solution right?? make all those pics educational....well... that miley cyrus... for those who dunno.... and thats educational as well.... please ignore the gross grammatical error made... i tend to type a little to fast sometimes.... but face it people....SEX SELLS!!!
In a Huge Nutshell...
2nd post today... but wat the heck... i've given up hope already.... and i love the weather.... *wipes off sweat**wipe off sweat again*i shall introduce my daddy... my beloved daddy... everyone who knows me knows how much i love my daddy... which is you know.... not very much.... *wipes of sweat again*firstly.... he's a sweet person.... yupz... so nice to cook a whole big pot of some sweet potato soupy thingy for us.... us referring his sons.... including me.... i think.... so touched.... so i think i can disregard the fact that he forgot that i dun like sweet potato at all.... yupz.... and i am quite sure whatever he had cooked in that pot was so delicious.... because.... he finished the whole pot.... alll by himself.... *wipes off sweat AGAIN!!*he loves everything loud.... u can hear him playing his hokkien songs in his room from my room when both our room doors are closed.... tts how loud he likes things to be.... and yupz... as he was eating the last bowl of sweet potato thingy that was meant for his kids (i'm thinking his stomach is his only son).... he turned on the tv.... ok.... i was studying in the living room.... i still am.... and he turned up the volume.... so i turned my head.... stared.... and miraculously!!! the tv went mute.... hohoho.... and soon after.... he fell asleep while watching a channel which has NO RELEVENCE to his body size.... he was watching some sports channel.... but i am sure he's glad that his son.... me.... oh no.... his stomach is his only son... his ermm.... tenant.... me.... is able to voice out his thoughts without using his voice.... amazing am i.... *u know wat i am doing now....*i juz love the way my daddy is so.... inconsiderate.... and self centred.... and how he's able to take up so space.... i can never achieve that.... and i dun hope to achieve that too.... now u guys know how much.... i love my daddy.... if u dun.... then u are either stupid.... or fucking stupid...and to end it off.... the weather is hot..... and so am i.... lol....
Things Cannot Get ANY Worse...
or at least thats what i hope...studies is as usual.... progressing really slowly... and having to hear people from other schools complaining how late their exams end... like end of april... but HELLO!!! mine ends on 8th of may... wat the hell.... so stop complaining abt how your exam schedule sux and how late u guys end.... cuz NUS exams end later than any other unis in SG.... that kinda sux... but wats worse is.... i have an open book exam tmr... which I AM SO SURE... i am gonna do so badly for.... being an open book exam.... it will be natural for the exam to be a lil more tougher than closed books.... cuz u have blardy notes to refer to.... but looking at the kind of notes i have.... and the notes given by the lecturers.... i feel so fucked.... its like reading a story book that has no storyline... dunno wat the fuck is going on with everything.... SERIOUSLY!!! i got realised today that non-competitive inhibition and uncompetitive inhibition are different... why?? CUZ THE LECTURE NOTES ARE SO BRIEF IT DIDN'T EXPLAIN ANYTHING ABOUT THESE INHIBITIONS!!! yup.... and tmr's the exam.... and i still haven figures out one whole chunk on nucleic acids....and!!! i am super sleep deprived.... the weather rox... SO HOT!!! i cannot sleep until the sun rise... which ironically is much cooler.... i woke up and sit down reading my notes.... and in 5 minutes.... JUZ 5 FREAKING MINUTES!!! i start to smell like a sweaty no. 4 that juz came back from outfield.... its damn disgusting.... the good thing is however.... having sucha HOT weather.... i cant really get to sleep while studying.... cuz its juz too hot.... so i can only read my notes and keep my heavy eyelids up while i study.... and it is much more tiring.... seriously....and i seriously hope things dun get worse....
I feel fucked....
seriously.... studying is juz a serious pain in the ass....so behind!!!!
Studying..
i havent reeeally gotten into the studying mood yet.... but i am trying very hard... lol.... i am quite done with studying with one of my modules le.... so i think i am relatively quite ook.... somemore i have 2 open book exams.... so i believe i juz need to practice more on those 2.... the rest is juz pure mugging....OHOHOH!!! i bought a wireless optical mouse for my lappie.... AND I REALLY LOVE IT!!! lol....i think i am loving my lappie more and more.... although it still kinda sux sometimes.... BUT nonetheless... it had braved countless storms and last minute work with me throughout my year one... and didn't REALLY fail me that often.... lol.... somemore.... i love wat my lappie can do....so.... a pat on the back.... soft one of course.... and yupz.... i'll TRY to replace u only after uni... or maybe a few years after that.... lol.... but if it's fine... i will defintely use it all the way....lastly.... i am really surprised by the fact that my printer can feed 3 sheets of paper at once.... screw up my pages and STILL not get a paper jam.... amazing brother printer i have... haiz.... exams in one week.... which is quite sianz.... but i have to do something about my cap..... cuz i AM afterall.... aiming for 2nd upper at least..... which i definitely wont get by looking at wat i am doing now.... hahaha....
21 Days Later....
and it will all be over!!! YAY!!!nonetheless.... this 21 days will be damn difficult to go through..... cuz.... i seriously didn't thought studying a science subject is like studying an arts subject.... there's a lot of reading.... it's blardy disgusting!!!"when there's trouble u know who to call.... TEEN TITANs!!! from their tower they can see it all.... TEEN TITANS!!!"one example would be the this bloody module from life science.... although the exam is OPEN BOOK and juz MCQ.... it only means the exam will be toughee than normal one.... because... open book exams ARE tougher than closed book exams.... and there's a lot of reading.... furthermore.... going for the lectures and tutorials are like a waste of time... because.... they are juz dreadful!!!apart from this.... there's the TV!!! OMG!!! i got all the channels i wanted!!! and i am so addicted to cartoon network, nickelodeon, disney, TVBS.... and most of all.... ESPN!!! FC!!! SUPERSPORTS!!! LOL!!! can u believe i watched the Man Utd VS Arsenal match 2 twice already??!!! i watched the replays whenever there is one.... THAT MATCH WAS DAMN EXCITING LAH!!! and there's my little evil gameboy.... i am once again addicted to pokemon!!! omg.... too much procrastination... and too little time....i got an oral examination tmr.... and i haven prepared.... JAP LEH!!!! i did way above average for midterms and i seriously dun plan to fuck it up!!! especially when i need to pull up my score!!!GAMBATTE!!! i am going back to mug.... soon....
After So Long of Not Blogging....
it's time to study again....
Muggers!!!
why can't i be like them when i need to?! i really can't do it lah.... i can read and study... but i can't freaking retain anything!!!!i am really tired of this liao.... one more month exams.... and i feel damn shitty abt everything... how i wish NUS ends at the same time as SMU.... they are finishing in 3 weeks time i think.... i am really very very tired.... and i feel damn lost.... everyone seem to know wats happening.... but why am i left alone?? i cant accept the fact that i am there to dian di (meaning to fill up the bottom spaces??)... but i got a feeling i might juz end up like that.... i need to pull up my CAP score leh... otherwise my studies will juz end at year 3.... which is stupid!!!ほんと勉強したくない!!! もういいよ....but i guess i got no choice but to give my best....
I'm Speeding...
i was caught spoeeding... by the traffic police from Life...yupz... i'm moving too fast.... even faster than Life.... everything has to done ahead of time.... everything... u know why?? because i juz wanna get everything over and done with.... so that i can stop and breathe.... even for a while.... BUT.... life has got no traffic lights to control the flow of traffic.... everything juz moves on without stopping.... how i wish i could juz slow to admire the flowers... and stop once in a while to breathe the fresh air....===========================================================================================and more thing.... is it juz me?? or is the traffic in SIngapore nowadays moving super super slowly???i dunno abt the rest of u.... but i take bus very very very very very frequently.... and it's juz disgusting that i am late for classes almost all the time because of the traffic.... traffic's juz real slow nowadays.... and traffic jams are everywhere and everytime.... headed to school twice today for various stuff.... and both time was the same.... the traffic was slow.... and its juz the same on my way back home... SLOW!!!not to mention... SBS BUS SERVICE REALLY SUX!!! especially 151!!! i tell u.... this dumbfuck bus service really irritates me lor.... i have to wait 20 plus minutes everytime i take the bus.... and the some people who boarded the bus seemed to be at the bus stop before me and obviously had waited damn long for it.... because of this.... even at non peak times... the bus is simply fucking crowded!!! not only that.... they always come together.... YES!!! having 3 151 buses waiting in your face at the bus stop is not uncommon nowadays.... either the first bus driver drives damn slow.... which is always the case.... or the back bus driver drive damn fast.... which is NOT always the case.... and u know wat.... BUS CAPTAINS ARE JUZ A EUPHEMISM FOR BUS DRIVERS!!! yes.... i admit some bus drivers are nice and they deserve to be captains.... but most are juz ROTTON to the core.... they are rude.... and even when there are many standing commutors.... they still drive damn recklessly.... jam braking all the time.... either that or braking multiple times trying to make people puke or something.... it's nasty.... i seriously dun understand.... we are paying higher transport fees for this??? SBS can give us the best buses or the most comfy one or the spacious one.... but if bus CAPTAINS can't drive properly.... i dun why the fuck we shld be paying it.... even if it's a necessity.... i strongly believe it is our RIGHT that we should enjoy all bus rides... and not feel like we are forced to be tortured by the monopoly of SBS.... also.... if PUBLIC transport cannot ensure that we arrive at our destinations in time... then is seriously think SBS has failed.... MISERABLY.... in fact.... i haven been to school on time a lot.... probably a few times.... but most of time.... i always end up late.... because of the wait at bus stops.... and i swear.... i always reach the bus stop early enough such that i would be 5 to 10 minutes early for class.... ya.... i'm not that happy abt transport.... are u??
NPC Hair Removal Centre
ever felt like hair was unbearable??ever felt like hair was unnecessary??well... yeah... facial hair can be quite disturbing.... especially when it is on the girls... EEEWWW!!! the thought of it juz turns me off....that is why.... the national police something something... set up a hair removal service for one and all.... showing their citizens... that...they care.... -_-'"with experienced hairdressers who did a great job for those who ended up having to stay in their chalet for more than one week.... your satisfaction is guaranteed!!! it is the policy of the NPC Hair Removal Centre to all the hair that u detest will be gone in a jiffy....as proof of our efficiency and your money's worth.... we have photos of one of our satisfied customer!!! LO AND BEHOLD!!!!.............*drum rolls*..............LOOK AT THAT!!! the facial hair which he had always detests is now gone after juz one treatment!!! and the treatment worked so well!! so well such that hair did not grow on his face again.... that's why he needn't go back to NPC Hair Removal centre again!!!WOW!!! isn't that wonderful!!!however.... the NPC loved this particular so well.... they would like to invite him back to NPC to test another product!!! so....if any of u see him wandering on the streets admiring his beautiful hairless face.... please inform NPC by dialling 999 or approach any of of your friendly neighbourhood police officer to invite him back to the NPC...your efforts will be appreciated...furthermore... if u liked, u may request for ONE treatment.... FOR FREE!!! hahaha.... do not hesitate!!!