Just me drivin A breathless adventure. Fast-paced, unusual and maybe a little exciting. Nonetheless, stressful. I have never felt this stressed up about growing up. They can go on and talk about working smart but who never started out working hard? Going against the flow or even faster than the current. You are swimming your own game, your life journey. How can one not strive? Home, a shelter and a comfort zone. I often pamper myself so much that I overlook my wilfulness. I’ve never told my mum I love her ever since the last card I made her some decades ago. Until that morning I flew for HK, I decided to text her a 我爱你. Ever since, I reminded myself to make it a weekly thing. I had gradually come to realise how much I would hurt if she wasn’t there for me anymore. Day after day, I have forgotten how much she has aged and how little time I make to see her these days. How ashame I feel when I see how little I can provide for her. Daphne, you ought to do better than this. Than now. My drive comes especially after meeting these new people, people who dig out their own success from a puddle of adversities by stepping out of their comfort zone and into the dark. Courage, the first bet in a game of fear, that slowly builds with momentum. There’s nothing to lose. However, can you afford to fork out that first penny of courage? It isn’t how much you think you want or can achieve but how much more than that you expect yourself to achieve. I guess..    P.S. I’ve forgotten what it feels like watching movie with a loved one.. =| Buzz Buzz Gimme more time puuuhlease! People, I miss y’all! Drop by my roadshows if you miss me too much. (I’m not saying you miss me that much, sweetie.) Tsk tsk. =X I’ve started training! Real demonstration of a pig at the track, I must say. How to 42km?! Ahha. Nvm, don’t waste time wondering. Anyway, there’s no turning back now.    Luckily there’s one whom I still see despite the crazy schedule else I’m going equally crazy. Satisfaction comes from charkwaytiao, friedwantons, sashimisalads, taiwanesesausages these days. Basically, food. Heeee.                P.S. single but in lurfee… but but but! BUT! =| I <3 HK more Their art of life intrigues me even more this time round. Their people’s way of getting things done. Smart. Their way of cooking is a great piece of art. Chinese, cantonese. I come to love their stairs, the people’s open friendliness. Each time, something new seems to be lying over the other end. There are just too much to be discovered.        Such lil love I have for my own country, I shall not go into it.          Back at SG, here comes the unspeakable sort of rojak stress again and ugly sights of people in SG. OooooOOo. The Worst Night Ever Each time I fell asleep, I woke up 20 minutes later screaming, yelling and shaking. The nightmares are all the same; I almost got possessed. The dogs were barking the whole night. What’s wrong. Sigh. I know. I ended up falling asleep at the first glimpse of sunlight and woke up 3 hours later. And I keep saying I need the sleep. Just have to deal with it until Sunday huh. Shit.    Traumatised. Life of my Life Reach out and grab it like a woman!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ha. Beat those woes and start smiling. I needa show up for my life.                     P.S.  Thanks for loving me all these while… Protected: And I realise I understand.. the other end There is no excerpt because this is a protected post. Judgement You know what to expect when the doctor prefers to speak to you in person. Fertility. Besides road shows, studies, money, HK, reports, friends and loved ones, I wonder how am I going to face the doctor’s words this funny Friday. Doing this alone shouldn’t be harder. Then again, 0.2. Serious? That’ll take a lot of love. Protected: Just work There is no excerpt because this is a protected post. bittersweet, heartbreaking, beautiful    Grey skies… Insignificance and Pain… Stress. Protected: Sadness shines in This post is password protected. To view it please enter your password below: Password: Back and forth Gawd, I’m so tired. One moment, I’m all fired up. Another, I’m losing focus. Body is sore, despite the missing of aching muscles. Mind is trying to attain a comfortable position. This is just the starting phase, I keep telling myself. The adaptation, surely. I’ll rest for today. For now, I need an Ocha. afternoon’s goodwill been a while it has. ocha and a book. as for this.. hoho.. my hot algae   P.S It takes love to understand.. maybe even more.. When it gets cold I knew the coldness when I felt the warmth. There, I’m back into the wild. Nature is as unforgiving. Cold as you are. I’ll find somewhere else for I can never appreciate rainy days. Finding Peace Had a weird rendezvous in the afternoon today. Bumped into the original Jeremy Ang, formerly known at Mr. M some 9 years ago. Did you remember, my old peng yous? We are all lao nu ren now.     As the title speaks for me, I am, indeed, finding a lil peace of my own. A piece of myself. A safe haven. Seems like it’s fading away. If only there is such a thing as sleep-reading..     P.S I’m a bed addict.. especially when I fall asleep while reading. Pocketful of Sunshine   A picture speaks a thousand words =) I decided to cook for my Dad today. Guess what? Fried Rice lor. Guess what else? I did the laundry and folded the clothes too.    Problems aside, I just decided it would be the best to make the best out of the worst. So guess what?! I felt better. *Cheers* Overblown by the enormous level of happenings digging my brain.  I need a heart with a hug. I haven’t been heartie lately.. especially to my Mum. Just very sad But there’s no one, but myself to write to. Which is good in way, at least I don’t affect anyone. At least she told me it works. I don’t know but I’m not important anyway. a Love Dedication I love this auntie obasan even during her uglier moments and especially during her natural wonder times. Heh. Here she’s indulging in her own world of happiness, enjoying her best, and totally shutting out my presence… A fine display of white neglection. Of course, I love how she cheer up my day with nonsense. P.S. Hopefully she forgets my evilness until our next date. Oops, but I don’t think so. My love has powerful memory, like no other. Protected: 我 This post is password protected. To view it please enter your password below: Password: With Love Starting to appreciate what I had the last few days ’cause I’m back to my life. Yet, I can’t help but look forward to the rest of the stuffs that needs to be done. My complexion is terrible, something needs to be done. I wanna see everyone so badly. To my peeps Let’s meet up this Sunday! Hopefully, I manage to get you all stuffs and food.    In case but touchwood, I just wanna say I love my family and friends. Super Sunday Shopping for just about anything and everything. It’s been a crappy long time since I wear something a little different. Here’s my favourite pic of the day. I know you wanna see it, Na. Lazy to upload the rest. *Grins*   P.S. I didn’t lengthen the photo okay! I merely stood back.. Heh. Null Just very sad about everything.       P.S. Since …………………………….. , I think I’m just not enough……. of Sexy “Which do you prefer?” “A man finding you sexy or making you feel sexy?” At least for me, I guess the answer is pretty obvious but I’m starting to get confused with which one is better. Lol. Sat, 21 Jun 2008 18:18:34 +0000 Just as I realise I must have been very disinteresting Slowly turning apparent And very disheartening Comfort Zone The weather these days is making me fly my days off willingly. That I-have-no-regrets! illusion seems to consume every consciousness while I snuggle in bed. It’s been quite a few afternoons of Patapon and sleeping, alternating in the absence of time management. Well, not just Patapon la, basically just playing PSP. Then there’re a few episodes of stuffs to watch on the computer (I use stuffs ’cause they’re endless movies, dramas and animes.) and some reading here and there, whenever the PSP is away from home accompanying my Brother. I’m gonna start doing real stuffs soon………. Like.. Sweep the floor and sing to the birds Dance to the hymm and let the cockroaches mop the floor Let the rats do the clothes while I Choya myself (Relax!) Oh yeah.. *laughs*              P.S Something’s wrong with my phone… I don’t get smses already huh. I can’t even receive my own smses. This is PATHETIC! =| 虹 I think I must have been saved by the Tofu. Don’t ask me how, he only intro me a song. Weak la, Daphne, weaker than a Tofu. Oh 天! No no, cannot. In anyway, a new colour just feels different. I did my hair. Itchy lah, need to kick in some life. Don’t ask me how, you’ll find out when you see me! Lol. I stayed home but never expect myself to accomplish so much rubbish lor. Stuffs like washing tey kors during tea time. Wakakaa. Just kidding lor. Lazy to really update but basically, dumping off and pumping in. No more blocking or looking away. Just be strong enough to walk away. 20th is coming. The way I commemorate it last year, I cry and fast myself from food and water. How to not tear when my eyes just simply start to flood whenever I think about it?! Oh well. The weather is too nice to not sleep.          P.S. And Howard says Daphne is a nice name! Right right, Kristy? Lol. Duh!!!!!! Such a sweet guy. Flunk It is all so very depressing. A very hurtful day. I would just drop down and cry.     It hurts. They always have. The upset that ultimates from others’ despise, on top of self doubt. Look Forward I’m so happy! I’m so happily happy! Very happy! Very very very happily happy!