one more. and now, i have an Elizabeth Arden 30ml Green Tea EDT on its way together with xiaoming's clothes!weeee! =D spoilt. an unexpected surprise. not the 30ml version, but the 50ml, which is slightly larger. but i'm thankful all the same. very, very thankful, for this super early birthday present. (=thank you thank you thank you! =Dwhich reminds me, less than 2 months to the ancient twentythree. and woodlands ring secondary is celebrating their 10th anniversary this year and i was part of the pioneer batch. fwah. this time really old already.i wonder what will happen this year. third. i broke yet another nail. T_Tcan't get any sadder than this. lesson number two. when a sharp object such as a pair of scissors or knife is dropping, do not kay kiang and try to catch it using your hands, bare or not.just let the goddamn thing drop. lappy. i don't know how and why it happened, but now i have a list of 'laps to sit on' for the night of the upcoming bar bash.and dear cakie took up 8 slots of it and let's hope she doesn't complain about my boney ass that night. i'm not exactly well-endowed in that department and always endowed in the wrong departments. think my double chin, and tummy. T_Twondering when did i ever become such a social butterfly. blue. tanya chua's version of 沙滩, to me, has always been a better one compared to david tao's.a song that's constantly stuck in my head. time. seven sins of a relationship. as seen on RN's entry.and i think number four is our biggest problem. times three. blue blue blue. 不存在. 我就像是透明的. how true. ouch. to the clinic, again, i go. alone. HAR?!!? xiaohui says, that the new hair style makes me . . . so feminine.*bursts into tears*i totally regret doing this. really. and i'm not supposed to look feminine. yunnie is supposed to be uber man, and not ladylike.T_Tnow i can only wait for it to grow longer. only then will it look better. wordless. 你的姿态 你的青睐我存在 在 你的存在你以为爱 就是被爱你挥霍了我的崇拜我活了 我爱了 我都不管了心爱到疯了 恨到算了 就好了可能的 可以的 真的可惜了幸福好不容易 怎么你却不敢了呢我还以为我们能 不同于别人我还以为不可能的 不会不可能i want to go to that very same church in japan. grass. am a little traumatized at the moment because of the new hair. ok, so i got a perm, got my fringe cut short [which i haven't done in YEARS], and that burnt a hole in my pocket, a hundred bucks more than the last time i got a perm.this time, i think really look like auntie liao.i am so not going to take photos and will eat grass for the next few months. really. change. am currently sitting at the salon now and thinking what the hell have i chosen to done to my hair. and i've got short fringe now, which scares me.i'm slowly wondering if this is a mistake. speak. happens to me all the time. funky town. she's the ultimate lao chio! =D panicky runaway bride. friends and relatives have been asking me when am i getting hitched or they assume that i will be getting hitched soon, just because he is of the age to get married. but assuming, i repeat, it's just an assumption that he pops the big question, i think i may hesitate.not because he's not good enough [or maybe he is, but that's another issue altogether], but it's more like i'm worried if i'm capable of being someone else's wife.it's not commitment phobia. i mean, i used to wish and pray that i'll get hitched young and couldn't wait to start a life with that significant other. but now, almost 23, i'm starting to panic a little.i'm doubting my capabilities to actually run a household. each time the empress nags at how i can't even cook a decent meal, i would reply her saying that i can bake.'but you can't be eating cakes forever for dinner.'wah. stunned. silence. and i panicked. and i still haven't got down to learning how to cook a decent meal. double panic.sure, a lot of girls can't cook for nuts nowadays, and a lot of couples eat out almost everyday. but i realised that all along i had this picture of me being able to cook and it's silly, but i tell myself that i must be able to do that in order to be a competent wife.cham. no need to get married already.but of course, this isn't the only reason. every other factor makes me see myself as an incompetent wife [if i ever become one]. and then it slowly leads to being an incompetent mother. and the list goes on about what i can't do and don't know how to do.lately i've been telling people that i may just run away on my wedding day. i've got a hunch i may do just that.honestly, i won't be surprised if i panic real bad or start pulling my hair even when i hear the big question.super unglam and it'll probably scare the shit out of the guy and he will decide there and then that i'm not wife material. T_Tand then i see some friends who are already married, and i wonder how they find that courage to jump into a new life easily. or at least they made it looked easy. and the more i think about my future married life, the more i panicked.die la, turning 23 already. i don't want to imagine what the relatives will be asking at the next family gathering. earlier this year, they have asked for a 'grading session' for the other one, and i am a little reluctant.wait all my 7 aunts scare him away then how?!and to re-emphasize this, i am not getting married yet. so stop asking.*roar* never. it's been some time since i've done memes or anything similar, so i shall do this today, which i shameless kop-ed from moomoo, who kop-ed from jesuafreak.The bold items are TRUE.Copy, Paste & Spread… I’ve Never Kissed A Member Of The Opposite SexI’ve Never Kissed A Member Of The Same SexI’ve Never Crashed A Friend’s CarI’ve Never Been To JapanI’ve Never Been In A TaxiI’ve Never Been In LoveI’ve Never Had Sex In PublicI’ve Never Been DumpedI’ve Never Done CocaineI’ve Never ShopliftedI’ve Never Been FiredI’ve Never Been In A Fist FightI’ve Never Had Group IntercourseI’ve Never Snuck Out Of My Parents’ HouseI’ve Never Been Tied UpI’ve Never Been ArrestedI’ve Never Made Out With A StrangerI’ve Never Stolen Something From My JobI’ve Never Celebrated New Years In Time SquareI’ve Never Gone On A Blind DateI’ve Never Lied To A FriendI’ve Never Had A Crush On A TeacherI’ve Never Celebrated Mardi Gras In New OrleansI’ve Never Been To EuropeI’ve Never Skipped SchoolI’ve Never Slept With A Co-WorkerI’ve Never Cut Myself On PurposeI’ve Never Had Sex At The OfficeI’ve Never Been MarriedI’ve Never Been DivorcedI’ve Never Posed NudeI’ve Never Killed AnyoneI’ve Never Received Scars From My Sex PartnerI’ve Never Thrown Up In A BarI’ve Never Purposely Set A Part Of Myself On FireI’ve Never Eaten SushiI’ve Never Been SnowboardingI’ve Never Flashed AnyoneI’ve Never Met Anyone From Online twice. something that i've learnt from uncle jaywalk, and xiaohui's tutor [don't ask me how i learnt this from him] . . .never eat and shit in the same place.same statement said to me twice in a day. i think i must start believing in that. ok, not that it'd be happening to me now since i'm not exactly available, but i think it's a valuable lesson. 23. am applying for leave during the birthday week. as always, since gramo days, taking the whole week off. hopefully it works out, because it's a yearly ritual that i can't miss. even if it means spending the week at home.i just want to grow old and officially step into the ancient 23 without any worries.or maybe drink myself silly till midnight comes and i turn 23 while i'm half in the clouds. not bad ehhhh. and then as the day gets nearer, i'll hear timbre calling out to me. =P my week starts today. a spot on my left back muscle feels very sore. the therapist gave it a very painful stretching/kneading session yesterday and i was that short of screaming out in pain.and my tolerance level is damn high one lor.and now, it hurts to just even touch that spot. makes me wonder what i did the day before to have started this. and right now, i'm feeling a little sick. just that little bit.just hoping that i'll get by the meeting later without getting bua-ed. sales figure not very the nice. new addiction. strawberry jam with butter.xiaoming's all-time favorite combination, has become my current addiction. i think it's time to stock up strawberry jam. 看着你紧紧地牵着我的手，那一刻的幸福淹没了我所有的难过.我真的还是没办法把你戒掉. life long goal. a new addition to the list.to be a lao chio when i grow old. wahahahaha. nightmares. have had them throughout my sleep last night. now i'm feeling exceptionally tired and moody. i just hope to pull through work today. reason no. 102. why i'm the potential unclebait.i get 'door step' service when i was going to the office this afternoon. instead of having to hop onto the bus and go the long way, a nice uncle decided to give me a ride there since he was changing shift as well. and this is the same uncle who calls me 'baby'.i took a cab during the peak hour period. reached and meter fare was $18, while the surcharge was $6. wanted to pay using card, but uncle asked if i had cash instead, because card payments mean that he can only receive the money 3 days later.*dug wallet*only had 18 bucks.wanted to pay using card again since 6 bucks is not exactly a small amount. then uncle decides to just accept $18 from me, much as i insist on paying for the full fare using card. that's 6 bucks saved. hurhur.must work harder on my unclebait-ing skills. failed. yet another hangover. not good. i can't even keep to a resolution for long.headache, and i'll be stuck at work for the rest of the day. booboo.a failure, is yunnie. i wish these tears would stop. 我讨厌 你的自私.为了减少对自己的伤害，没顾及到我的感受而伤害了我.你有真的听到我所想要的是什么吗？