hmm… been thinking seriously the past few days if i should get a NDSL. but after much consideration and looking into other factors, (the seller didn’t reply my email), i think that i have to shelve plans to get the console afterall.. i shall be thrifty like jerry, because it’s a virtue! at the same time, will be saving the money for my taiwan trip as well, so that i have more to spend when i go there in Jan! :D  i have already calculated that i will spend almost $60-$100 on snacks to bring back to SG. some of the snacks are mochi, nougurt, some cookies, pineapple tarts and fish crackers! just 4 more months! i’m really anticipating it! and there’s 2 more months before i attend a*mei’s concert! the most expensive tickets are all sold out! heh. fortunately i managed to get goooooood seats. another 2 more BBQs in the month of sept. also, i need to get back on track with my school work cum projects. we’re going back to the office this saturday for another moving session! i’m so happy i tell you.. i finally get my own enclosed office! hurhur! 一半 一半 演唱：言承旭 一直等 一个人 等了好久 这一场 独角戏 是很寂寞 春夏秋冬 我的窗口只有风景懂 爱的深 有多深 我也不懂 你走后 我的心 变的脆弱 听一首歌 也觉得痛但我谁也没有说 右边的座位 右边的枕头 都已经空了那么久 没你守侯 那是因为 我已经看透 没有你的爱   这个我只是一半 不哭了 不笑了 为谁留泪我也不明白 没有人能取代 一个圆的另一半 我固执 的等待 等风再把你带回来 zzzzzzz. taking a look at my class participation grades ALWAYS gives me a heart attack. i think i shan’t place high hopes about it anymore, or check my grades for class participation in the future. one word to describe: H.O.P.E.L.E.S.S sian. i just have to rely on my academic results and projects for now. seriously, MM is my most hated module so far. UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! strength. i love it when it’s raining because it gives me a perfectly good excuse to just slum out, and slack my way through the day. was talking to zs yesterday and i told him that i’ve been facing quite a fair bit of stress lately that has caused me to become unhappy. he told me alot of comforting words, but to put it crudely in my own words, the bottomline is that stress is part and parcel of life, so accept it, get over it, and move on. don’t be a wimp. he was saying that i can definitely handle it and get over it soon because i’m a strong lady. this then led me to think that there are many different types of strength in a person, and how strength surfaces because of the situations that we are in. a mother has to be strong for her husband and kids when something bad happens, because she is the figure that glues the family together. but actually, she might be shivering or worried deep down within her heart, afraid that the worst could happen. all these feelings need to be kept away and become invisible to those around her. and as for me, i feel that i must be strong because i know that i must fend for myself no matter what. afterall, there isn’t anyone out there who would protect me from all that harm. anything bad that happens, i must overcome, because it’s my life that i’m fighting for. i’m fighting for a better life, a better future. all these that only you can give it to yourself, because of the decisions that you make. so anyway, to those who have read my previous post, or are worried for me, thank you. but no worries, i’ll get over this phase soon. it’s just probably a down period for me right now, and this i must go through/handle things alone. just keep me in prayers yeah? yep. and with that, i’m gonna go take a nap. head has been throbbingly pain because i haven’t had enough rest for the week. all the chionging of projects till late at night and waking up early the next day has made me really exhausted. i really can’t wait to graduate. is it the hormones? i’ve been feeling so irritable the whole week. angry at the slightest thing, feeling pissed off and unhappy about everything else. i find it hard to make myself heard sometimes, and get pissed, when people are clueless or can’t seem to understand the words that are coming outta my mouth. i keep telling myself that it must be the hormones, it must be the hormones.. but is it really the hormones? i think i might choose to operate on both my wisdom teeth at one time and undergo general anthestic. that’s probably the only time where i can free my mind and not think about a single thing at all. *sigh* i’m unhappy. i really am. longing for a break. 4 more months.. i will endure. i will hang on. *breathes in deeply* *prepares for WAR!* What’s your birthday colour? 12月23日~ 01月01日=紅色 01月02日- 01月11日=橙色 01月12日- 01月24日=黃色 01月25日- 02月03日=粉紅色 02月04日- 02月08日=藍色 02月09日- 02月18日=綠色 02月19日- 02月28日=啡色 02月29日- 03月10日=水藍色 03月11日- 03月20日=石灰色 03月21日 =黑色 03月22日- 03月31日=紫色 04月01日- 04月10日=深藍色 04月11日- 04月20日=銀色 04月21日- 04月30日=白色 05月01日- 05月14日=藍色 05月15日- 05月24日=金色 05月25日- 06月03日=奶油色 06月04日- 06月13日=灰色 06月14日- 06月23日=栗色 06月24日 =灰色 06月25日- 07月04日=紅色 07月05日- 07月14日=橙色 07月15日- 07月25日=黃色 07月26日- 08月04日=粉紅色 08月05日- 08月13日=藍色 08月14日- 08月23日=! 綠色 08月24日- 09月02日=啡色 09月03日- 09月12日=水藍色 09月13日- 09月22日=石灰色 09月23日 =黃綠色 09月24日- 10月03日=紫色 10月04日- 10月13日=深藍色 10月14日- 10月23日=銀色 10月24日- 11月11日=白色 11月12日- 11月21日=金色 11月22日- 12月01日=奶油色 12月02日- 12月11日=灰色 12月12日- 12月21日=栗色 12月22日 =黃綠色 (more…) yippee! 2 down and 2 more to go! projects that is..! heh. the last 2 are the major major ones.. so we definitely need to spend more time on it. our group’s dateline is actually 3rd sept, which leaves us around 2 weeks to rush out everything. i really want to thank God for giving me wisdom to do my projects because i just feel that i never fail to amaze myself at times while doing my projects.. had a problem earlier with gantt chart, did it with ms project, but i wasn’t able to print it out because my desktop doesn’t have the software, and also, my printer doesn’t have the capacity of printing stuff which needs to be more than A3 paper size! so i went ahead to use another program, exploring another side of the program that i’ve not before. and ta-da! the whole gantt chart was done within 2hrs and i’m very proud of it! it looked absoutely perfect and managed to fit into an A4 paper size for my report! also, thank God for good results for my midterm! this time for midterm i didn’t have much time to study because 2 projects were to be submitted this week. so most of us are all busy trying to complete our projects that we actually studied later than planned. got my results back today and i’m quite pleased with it! at least i scored above class average and i’m happy. really really pleased because the paper this time round is soooooooooo tricky. so whatever sample papers are that given for us to do are of no use, as they will not be coming out for the exams! alright. i need to get to bed already. it’s quite late! oh, did i mention that i have 4 BBQs in the works for aug and sept?! i think i better go to the gym more often already. YES!!! 1 down and 3 to go! finally completed the dreaded BPA individual assignment!!!!! yay! super duper happy because i’ve been burning midnight oil ever since a few weeks ago and especially serious burning these few days.. gonna submit the report tomorrow and woohoo! it’s done! forever gone! lol i can FINALLY watch my drama and a few of the other shows that i’ve missed, especially one million star! HJL is out. the show seems quite boring already w/o him. ah well.. still i’m quite sure that most of us are proud of him for going so far in the competition, representing singapore! ***** oh yes, have been watching the olympics these few days! i adore watching events such as swimming, gymnastics, diving, and rowing! haha. these are the few that i managed to catch so far! oh, i managed to catch the olympics opening ceremony as well! absoutely stunning! i loved it so much! it wow-ed me till the end of the show! especially the giant footsteps part, the chinese scroll, drums, and the mega huge olympic flame! gorgeous i tell you! and it’s quite sad that the next day was ndp.. because after watching the olympics opening ceremony, ndp seemed rather dull. so i watched ndp halfway and went to study. lol. okay! i’m going to bed already. gotta wake up early tmr to book bbq pit.. ciao! Lovely speech. been blog surfing and i came across a convocation speech that Adrian Tan, author of The Teenage Textbook, gave recently to the graduates at NTU. you can read the full speech here, and i am going to highlight a few paragraphs which i really love. on learning: You’ve probably been told the big lie that “Learning is a lifelong process” and that therefore you will continue studying and taking masters’ degrees and doctorates and professorships and so on. You know the sort of people who tell you that? Teachers. Don’t you think there is some measure of conflict of interest? They are in the business of learning, after all. Where would they be without you? They need you to be repeat customers. on life: What you should prepare for is mess. Life’s a mess. You are not entitled to expect anything from it. Life is not fair. Everything does not balance out in the end. Life happens, and you have no control over it. Good and bad things happen to you day by day, hour by hour, moment by moment. Your degree is a poor armour against fate. on work: Work is anything that you are compelled to do. By its very nature, it is undesirable. Do not waste the vast majority of your life doing something you hate so that you can spend the small remainder sliver of your life in modest comfort. You may never reach that end anyway. Resist the temptation to get a job. Instead, play. Find something you enjoy doing. Do it. Over and over again. You will become good at it for two reasons: you like it, and you do it often. Soon, that will have value in itself. Find that pursuit that will energise you, consume you, become an obsession. Each day, you must rise with a restless enthusiasm. If you don’t, you are working. on being hated: One does not have to be evil to be hated. In fact, it’s often the case that one is hated precisely because one is trying to do right by one’s own convictions. It is far too easy to be liked, one merely has to be accommodating and hold no strong convictions. Then one will gravitate towards the centre and settle into the average. That cannot be your role. There are a great many bad people in the world, and if you are not offending them, you must be bad yourself. Popularity is a sure sign that you are doing something wrong. on love: Loving someone is therefore very important, and it is also important to choose the right person. Despite popular culture, love doesn’t happen by chance, at first sight, across a crowded dance floor. It grows slowly, sinking roots first before branching and blossoming. It is not a silly weed, but a mighty tree that weathers every storm. You will find, that when you have someone to love, that the face is less important than the brain, and the body is less important than the heart. lalalala.. tomorrow’s sunday and the week’s gonna be over already! gosh! too fast really. i have two assignments to submit next week so i can imagine what a rushed period mon - wed will be for me… *sigh* anyway, finished studying and doing all the mcqs for midterm tmr. will be waking up earlier like around 6am to redo all the mcqs again.. just to make sure i’ve got all the concepts! can’t wait for the last 3 sessions of lectures to be over..! and jocelyn’s starting school soon! yay! someone to accompany home or have dinner with me. lol. it’s good to know that you’re not alone.. heh. alright. i’m going to bed already. will be making panna cotta soon after these two weeks! can’t wait! Happy National Day!!! hopefully everyone will enjoy their national day holiday. unlike you guys, i have to be stuck at home accompanying my books for my midterm on sunday! ROARS! anyway, left 2 more chapts to study then i can go about revising the whole book again! just hope that i can probably remember everything that i’ve learnt so far.. for the past few days, i find myself not absorbing anything that i’ve read at all. had been highly distracted by don’t-know-what… and today, our clique shall attempt to stay quiet during lectures or risk being blacklisted by the rest of our classmates! 1 midterm, 5 lecture sessions, 5 tutorials and 4 assignments/projects to go! It’s already August. times really really flies.. very soon in september, i’ll be embarking on the next year of my uni life, and next year around this time, i’ll be preparing for my trip to perth! but after spending one year in uni, i figured out that i’m still as clueless as to how my life will be after graduation, just like how i feel when i started out studying. i’m baffled on the types of job that i would wish to take thereafter, or the career path i want to take in the future. you know very often they encourage people to join a ministry in church because each of us have talents and gifts that are given by God, so we’re encouraged to use those talents and gifts to serve Him. i used to find myself thinking about this, that i really don’t know what talents and gifts i have. are talents and gifts considered something special that only you have it? or are talents and gifts considered the things that you’re good in? but if the things you’re good in, others are good in as well, then are you still considered talented/gifted?  on another note, i keep telling myself that i can juggle both studies and work, but deep down i know i really can’t. hmm, how do i say this? if let’s say my exams are coming, i would defnitely worry about it 2 weeks before and consider whether or not i have ample time to study. then, i wouldn’t be able to concentrate that well on my work because i’m too worried that i wouldn’t have enough time to study, revise and absorb everything into my brain. erm, and if you’re wondering about exam break or study breaks, no, i practically have none in between semesters or before a paper commences. it’s also really tiring to study at night after work because i find myself falling asleep at after 9.30pm, or i simply just have no mood to, especially when i reach home everyday at around 8pm.. and then take dinner/shower, i would only finish doing all my stuff at 9.30pm! i know that this is something that i must get used to, but up to now, i haven’t been able to. maybe it’s because i place studies as my first priority over many other things in life, which is why i’m concerned whether or not i’m able to meet deadlines for projects or even my revision schedule.  but that’s my purpose for going to school as well right? to do well and get that degree. right now, i feel that i’m really having trouble juggling everything together. it’s hard for me to fit almost every single thing into my life, that i very much feel like giving it all up sometimes.. i know my dad was telling me before that i should just quit and become a full-time student. (he knows that i can’t take too much of stress or i will go into depression) i wish that that’s possible as well. but if that’s the case, then i would cut off my source of income and live with practically nothing in my wallet. i’ve also realised that ever since school started, i’ve become a much duller person. someone who is more worrisome, and troubled all the time. troubled that grades are not like you’ve expected, troubled that you are not able to make a sense out of the more difficult lectures, troubled over exam papers, troubled over project stuff, troubled over work. very deep down, i’m wishing that i can be carefree once again, or smile sincerely at things that delight me. i know i can, but not at this moment in time. this is why part of me is so reluctant to travel out of my house when weekend arrives. i just want to have some me-time, and family time especially, to do the things that i used to love. i haven’t been touching my baking supplies for ages! although i do not love baking as much as cooking, i still miss baking. i miss the smell of a freshly baked batch of cupcakes coming out of the oven. i think i spent more time baking last year than this year even. i want to spend time with my parents on saturday. to laugh with them as they watch the comedy dramas on tv. to keep them entertained or even to help my mum out with household chores and cooking of food. i’m very much a family girl and within this 1 year, i miss spending time with my family. more so ever since my dad is on shift duty, which means i get to see him at odd hours of the week only. sunday is then reserved for project work as my group mates come over, or we meet somewhere and do our project for six hours plus continously.  and then a new work week begins again.. sometimes i really wish that there would be 48 hours in a day, so that there would be more time for me to do more things. and now, i understand why Rain says that he rarely sleeps. because sleeping wastes time. you can sleep for as long as you like when you’re dead. that’s his motto. “人生会有 疲惫想放弃的时候 看不清路的尽头” 希望有一天我可以看清楚我眼前的那条路。 Crazy.. i’ve been having the most weirdest and scariest dreams lately. yesterday dreamt of idolatry coming to life which freaked me out to the max after i woke up. and just earlier, i dreamt of my parents forcing me to get married to this filipino guy which i’ve only met for like 2 days and didn’t even develop feelings for! they wanted to marry me off so that a large sum of money could come from this famous soccer team (in blue uniform) or something like that. then i dreamt that the wedding was to be held in a baseball stadium, there was tentage and everything. i was so reluctant to get married i remember because apparently my groom was dressed better off than me. i insisted on wearing something nicer than my usual clothes. (erm don’t ask me why i’m wearing my usual clothes to a wedding! i don’t know! i thought i was supposed to be dressed in some wedding gown or something!) then by the time i was searching for my clothes and changed i realised all the more i shouldn’t get married to someone that i don’t have feelings for and i barely know of. so my mum finally agreed to cancel the wedding and then i looked outta the tentage and saw that the skies were overcast and there was six, not one, but SIX tornadoes outside!! two of them morphed into some mighty human lookalike figures and started battling each other! i was terrified because everywhere was in chaos and i couldn’t find my dad and my brother! but eventually my dad and brother came back after the tornadoes were gone. and the coach of the soccer team wasn’t mad that the wedding didn’t turn out as planned. anyway, i woke up after that with my heart thumping really fast and loudly. i was in immense heat as well. i thought that it must have been the longest dream ever. turned out that i only slept for an hour. gosh…! so after that, i couldn’t bring myself back to sleep, which is why i’m here blogging. sigh. however, i took the opportunity to catch the 2nd episode of 籃球火 Hot Shot!!!! 3 drool-worthy guys are inside! absoutely delicious. haha! i particularly really love jerry yen and wu zun. they look so goood!! so shuai and so cute. feel like keeping them both! hurhur. i can’t get enough of jerry in the show. i think it’s a great thing he chopped off his long hair! he looks even better now and so much cuter! (more…) Exhausted. never knew that BPA would take up so much of my time. spent the whole of yesterday trying to complete my individual assignment. completed drawing the DFD diagrams for question 2 when zhishen called and told me that the example he gave us was not very accurate. so i had to redo and plan the whole DFD again. then a few of them were saying that we needed to do until level 3 DFDs. i spent alot of my time trying to figure out the DFDs from level 1-3, but could only manage to level 2. made a mental calculation and realised that if we really hafta do level 3 DFDs, each of us in total would hafta draw out 30 diagrams!!!! *screams* so right now, i’m waiting for the lecturer’s reply on how many level DFDs we need to draw. *sigh* and then i redid my whole rich picture after taking a look at wensze’s one! because after she sent me her rich picture, it made me understand how a rich picture should look like. so then i spent another 3 hours editting my rich pic. only managed to sleep at dawn. okay. i’m considering whether or not i should draw my DFDs today, or, to take a break from BPA and start mugging 9 chapters of MM. this sem turns out to be more tedious than the previous one. sigh. 我发现我自己爱上他了。。。 他，又是谁呢？ (more…) Inspiration.. it doesn’t come all the time which is why i treasure it so much whenever it comes by. without it, i probably wouldn’t have survived through my project days because my teammates depend on me to make the project visually attractive to the viewers most of the time. right now, i’m dubbed like *ahem* “creative director” by my current teammates lah. a status which i’m embarassed about, because i feel that my creativeness doesn’t quite meet my own expectations sometimes.. had a sudden inspiration today afternoon after my shower to write a chinese heart-wrenching song. the melody just came into my head and a few minutes later so did the words. was planning to write it down on a piece of paper but, sad to say, i could barely remember how to write my chinese anymore, except for a few simple words. after that, i decided that i should just stop wasting time and type it instead, using my chinese software. was typing halfway when my project mates called me to announce their arrival at my house. so *poof!* there goes the inspiration, together with the words and melody. this reminded me when i was a young teenager, i wrote my first song too. told a few of my online friends the lyrics of the song i wrote. i still remember clearly one of them calling me up when a new drama was broadcast on tv. the guy was telling me that it sounded so much like the song i was writing about. that, i agreed. i guess this is why i really salute musicmakers, because it’s so hard to have inspiration coming all the time. inspiration for new melodies, inspiration for new songs and more. i also believe that much of these inspiration comes from life’s experiences.. anyway, i hope that one day, i will be able to write a song of my own. a song that tells of my life story. oh yes, when does your inspiration usually come by? mine comes when i’m showering or after a good night’s sleep! heh. MIA-ing buzzz.. buzzz… been busy like a bee since last week and will continue being busy for the next few weeks until my assignments are finally completed. each day of going to MM tutorial now is a torture. i think i should just give up on scoring for class participation and concentrate on doing well for the project and my exams. had project discussion over at my place on sunday. we spent more than 5hours churning out the DFDs. felt really tired after that, and went to bed early. i just completed the rich picture for assignment 1. hopefully what i’ve drawn is correct. it would be a chore to redo the entire thing. -_- went to see the dentist today as well. didn’t dare to eat anything the whole day because i thought that i had a hole in my tooth, so i didn’t want to aggrevate it more? turned out that my teeth is still extremely healthy! however, the slight discomfort and pain is caused by my wisdom tooth on the left. took an xray and found out that both wisdom teeth are growing horizontally instead of vertically. the left tooth is worse. it embedded deep within my gums, near the root of my molar and it’s pushing against it. which is why i’ve had pain and discomfort. anyway, need to go for a surgery soon. ugh!!! oh yes, time to start on my tutorial. lastly, happy birthday ivan!!!!!!! … sometimes i wished that life wouldn’t be so complicated. but maybe it’s how much i think of it that makes it complicated. *sigh* *yawn* i woke up at 3.30am today.. feeling kinda sleepy now already. but since i gotta prepare for work at 6.30am, i should just hang on for another 30mins, and not take a nap. nothing much to look forward to these days, except getting my salary next month, because i’m seriously really broke right now! still got quite a couple of bills to settle and outings to go to.. and, it feels kinda strange that tutorials are conducted on wednesdays now instead of mondays. or maybe we’re all too used to going to school that we don’t feel anything now. basically no motivation, no eagerness, no expectancy on my part about school. i think that after attending school for like almost 1 year without any school holidays in between, you’d find it to be a routine or a chore already. just one word, SIAN. but there are alot of things to look forward to this year end and next year. wen is coming back in dec and i have almost my whole dec calender filled with the dates that we’re gonna have once she’s back! then i’ll be travelling to three countries next year.. taiwan in jan, hongkong in april, perth in september. basically taiwan and perth is confirmed, so i’m pretty excited about it! hopefully jetstar will still be able to have discounted offers to perth next september. not to mention that after september, i’m no longer a student anymore! but all these travelling would mean money. so i’m trying to save up as much as possible right now. within the next few months. still considering to take my driving next year as well! will roughly need $8k for everything. lol. oh, wow. my brother just sleep-talked really really loudly. lol. okay. i’m gonna go off now to prepare for work and take my breakfast. till next time! *waves* Class Participation. i think that if i’ve got a hate-list about school stuff, class participation would definitely take the cake. i’m not sure if it’s the same for all other unis, but right here for my course, class participation has a weightage of like 20%?? that’s one fifth of the total score of 100%. i find myself hating it because, i feel like i’m being forced/pressurised to talk and answer every single question that our tutor asks us. i do not like to be or feel forced!! also, this is highly impossible in a class of 22 people, where you will find yourself competing with the 22 of them, who are all fighting to talk so that they can score for their class participation. this makes the class seriously very noisy, like a fish market, because everyone, is raising their voices in order to be heard! so when like almost everyone in the class is fighting to be heard, i’d rather not join the fight, but just observe, listen to their answers and jot down some points. i know that there’s a need for us to be interactive in class, what’s more we’re majoring in marketing. however, i think that just too much emphasis is placed on class participation alone. our tutor was even breaking it down for us that our class participation marks are capped at 2.5 each week. so if we were to attend tutorials, each tutorial session attended, would garner us a 0.4 points per session. which leaves us to score the other 2.1 points by talking as much as possible through a lah.. sigh. woe is me. i need to figure out how am i gonna get myself heard amongst 22 others for the next 8 weeks.. i really really hate class participation. Meet Sammy! i have a new pet! and, his name is Sammy. he loves to listen to music and drink a hot cup of chocolate while reading his favourite books. every weekend, he takes the opportunity to go for a picnic at the nearby neighbourhood park. he loves company! two is great. and three is never a crowd. in order to stay by my side longer, Sammy decided to take a immortality pill, that would change him into an intergalactic dog!! so Sammy changed from this……… to……… this!!! and there he was, forever by my side, and never leaving me ever again……. ***** *cough cough* i really don’t know how i came up with that lame story above! lol. anyway, the moral of the story is.. i just got myself a new mp3player! the samsung t10! i’m in love with it, especially with sammy! he’s just so adorable in the player i tell you. which is one of the reasons that attracted me to the player in the first place. so far the player is serving its purpose well. and i’m very happy about it. it can even play videos! and the graphics are darn clear! heh. this is the one thing that made me really happy this week! oh yes, i wanted to choose the purple player, but harvey norman didn’t have it. so i had no choice but to take my 2nd fav colour, white. and i have no regrets! white looks terrific! i think i’m gonna get more electronics in white the next time round. currently aiming for the white ndsl! any lobangs?? Credits: All photos are taken from here and here. :/ just got back my results for last quarter and i’m feeling kinda disappointed. what i got didn’t hit my expectations but at the same time i’m considering whether or not i should cut myself some slack and feel comforted that i managed to get my current grades because i know how badly i screwed up both papers.. anyway, this probably shows that i’m not all cut out for taking exams or studying, because so far, my grades have just been average. so what if you do well in projects? the final paper marks counts more than any of the project that you’ve done or scored for in the exam. i finally realise that no matter what i do, perhaps i’ll just be forever within that grade range. sigh. i feel terrible. i think from now onwards, i’m gonna have a change of priorities. oh, the only thing that’s positive today? i finally booked the tickets to a*mei’s concert. that’s one thing i’m satisfied with so far.. yay! Credits: Photo taken from istockphoto our first block teaching is finally over! got by really really fast and so far, everything has been pretty alright i suppose? but the projects are really kinda tough this time round. there’s like so much to do and everything has to deal with analysis, planning, design, and implementation! but, it helps that we’ve got a lecturer who looks like George Clooney! he’s really charming for his age. can imagine how pretty his daughter is! i think the whole class was quite scared of him when the first session started on thursday. noone dared to talk at all so the atmosphere was quite stiff. and there were also certain instances where we thought he has some attitude problem lah.. but anyway, i think we’ve changed our image of him. warmed up pretty well with him after 3 sessions, so i’m kinda looking forward to meeting him again on the next block teaching! heh! don’t know why, but i feel that this week’s block teaching session went rather well and i didn’t feel as bored as i did for the previous module last week! lol.. so after the few lecture sessions, reality hits and we have to start getting down with our projects and tutorials already. the project draft is due three weeks later!! *sigh* oh, and i’m having such a huge dilemma right now. have already decided to go to a*mei’s concert with my mum, but i can’t seem to select a seat which seems to be appropriate! any suggestions people? i’m gonna have to book my tickets this coming tuesday online! please take a look at the seating plan here and let me know which seat i should choose! alright, i’m going offline already! going to singapore flyer tomorrow after church! super duper excited!!!! Joe’s Kitchen had our traditional post-exam feast a few weeks ago at Joe’s Kitchen. we ordered the tomyum soup, fried tofu (which was delicious when eaten together with the chilli sauce that they provide), green curry, pineapple fried rice, thai kangkong, chicken wings and desserts. there were a few hits and misses of course. i was really satisfied with their shiok tomyum soup, fried tofu and especially their desserts. their green curry and pineapple fried rice however, were not the best i’ve eaten so far. the thai stall at JEC Kopitiam Food Court wins hands down by serving the best green curry and pineapple fried rice i’ve ever eaten. but, what took my heart at Joe’s Kitchen were their desserts!!!! i’ve been trying so hard to find a good thai tapioca dessert which tasted exactly how my mum and i made a few years ago. the one at Joe’s Kitchen did remind me of the tapioca dessert that we used to make at home, which is great!! do you know that making a simple dessert like that, requires much patience? it’s a long and tiring process! first, you need to choose the younger tapiocas so that they do not have as much fibre as the older ones. then you need to boil them until they are soft. this will take like 1-2hours depending on how much tapioca you have in your pot. afterwards when they are soft, you need to add in the sugar and boil again until it becomes a sticky gooey thing. this is when the sugar has melted completed and has become a thick syrup with the tapioca. of course, you need to be very careful at this stage because sugar burns easily. and ta-da! your tapioca is completed! the whole process is really tedious! some stores outside sell tapioca which are still hard and not thoroughly cooked because they are lazy to go through the whole process. but it’s crucial to have your tapioca thoroughly cooked until they become somewhat transparent, and until the sugar has sticked to the surfaces of the tapiocas. this is what makes the dish yummy. so, charging $3 for a plate of dessert might be somewhat expensive, but if you compare it to the amount of hours(3-5hours) spent making the dessert perfect, what’s $3?? anyway, the trip to Joe’s Kitchen have been pleasant and i will definitely go back again for my thai craving fix. Hmm.. i don’t know where to start or what to start on this post because it’s been about a week since i last updated. many things happened, but i guess i was pretty distracted due to my busy school lectures, for me to really care about anything at all.. anyway, i am so glad that i went to church on saturday together with jocelyn, where i heard a most timely message from mike connell. he spoke of disappointment and taught us how to overcome it. i needed this message because the past week i was once again reminded of the hurt that my friend had given me. it was basically affecting most of my thoughts and my emotional health. i wept really hard during the end of the service and asked God to remove all that hurt from me, so that i would not place any barriers towards my friend or in my heart again. well, and i was really glad to walk outta the service feeling released of all the hurt. also, i have pretty much locked up the previous post because i felt that i was no longer upset about it anymore, and just decided to let it go. have spoken to quite a few people about the incident and i think what my mum said really made sense. so, maybe i have been too quick to judge or made a hasty decision with all that anger inside of me. i’m just gonna take things as it is for now. whatever comes, comes. having been surfing around a few blogs and found out that a*mei might have her world tour here in SG again on Oct 4th! really excited about it because i can finally realise one of my resolutions for this year! been thinking whether i should go to the concert with my friends/family. and whether or not i should treat my parents and grandma to the a*mei or abba concert at esplanade. hmm, i think i’ll decide when the time comes nearer! oh yes, i’ve finally gotten a new bag and a pair of birkies! super happy with the loot last tuesday and had an enjoyable time with jocelyn! thanks girl for the outing to orchard. okay.. mum’s knocking on my door.. better end the post now. toodles! 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To view it please enter your password below: Password: F.R.I.E.N.D.S EXAMS ARE OVER! but i’m not feeling the slightest bit of happiness at all… i really think i screwed both of my papers this time round. anyway, i don’t want to think about it already because it’s over and i can’t change the fact that i screwed my papers. sigh. just very disappointed in myself. that’s all. anyway, the friend whom i had a dispute with smsed me over the weekends, asking for directions to marina mandarin. we made some small talk through the SMSes and that was it. i’m not planning to pinpoint her this time round, but i just want to emphasize on the feelings that i had upon receiving her SMSes. it really felt strange you know, to receive an SMS from someone whom you had a dispute with before, and when things from the dispute are left hanging here and there, unsolved. i didn’t reply her last email because i felt that there was much anger in the email and so, i thought it would be best not to reply at all. then, it came to my birthday bbq, where she came for two hours and left in a rush. at the door, she told me that this whole situation has gotten kinda awkward and she feels that it will take some time before things will be the same again. i didn’t know what to make of it at that point in time. anyway, the next morning, i found out that she lied to my other friend. so, this whole SMS thing really made me ponder for a sec whether or not she meant those words she said in the SMS, or did she fake it and say it just for the sake of saying it? anyhow, i have forgiven her already. i think i feel weird receiving her SMS because i feel that in my heart, there is the shadow of the dispute that we never solved. we never talked about it face-to-face. instead it was all through the emails and even through the emails, it can be clearly seen that she doesn’t understand what i’m driving at. then there’s the whole issue of finding out that she lied to my other friend. we never understood the reason for that as well. coupling with the fact that we’ll be going to taiwan together in jan, it made me wonder if we can ever heal this scar in our heart or rather my heart by the time jan comes, and go to taiwan happily as a clique again. it’s sad to see how 7 years of friendship came to something like this. i’m not sure if the friendship will ever continue normally, like it was before. but yet, i just want to say that most of us have already put in much effort for the friendship, however, sometimes we feel like we are really taken for granted. i guess the last straw was when we found out that she actually lied to us, over such a simple matter where the answer could be yes/no. it’s definitely gonna be harder now for the friendship to be like it was. i have not placed much hopes on it either because i feel that this time round, i want to be a little selfish and stop myself from getting all the unnecessary hurt again. sigh. i never thought that i would have such an issue with a friend you know.. but i suppose the unexpected happens at times. and i realised that during these times of troubles, can you really see who your true friends are, those who make an effort to be with you, and who don’t. final words? all relationships are complicated matters, when not handled with care, will break and can’t be put back together. sigh. don’t know why but i’m finding it hard to concentrate on my studies this time round.. today’s paper was really sucky. seems like what i memorised didn’t exactly come out. disappointed. as for the paper on monday, i don’t have any expectations already. really no mood to study.. sigh. C.B TMR! okay. i think i have stuffed 8 chapters of notes into my brain already. hopefully it can stay there and be recalled out immediately tomorrow without much aid! very nervous about tomorrow’s paper. at the same time, i’m very excited at the thought of my exams ending for this term! lol. quite contradictory i know. if i manage to score well for tomorrow’s paper, this module might be the first HD that i will get over the last 3 terms!!!! so i want to do well! okay i think i should get back to my notes again. there are 80 mcqs waiting for me to go through! JIAYOU!