Oon Yeoh so how do you feel ? what do you think ? do you like my wedding series ? hmmm.... Let's go through the next photographer project ^^Ooh Yeoh #1#2#3#4I can't wait to see ALex Moi's photograph !! Hope to get it as fast as possible to share with all ~ Asther Lau ~~~~ ASTHER LAU ~~~~>>>>>> Wedding gown-Long #1 #2#3 >>>>>>>>> Wedding gown -short #4 #5Baju Kebaya#6#7http://www.flickr.com/photos/astherlau/Grown sponsor :Nicleesher Fashion HouseMake up : Siew Mun-------Coming up - Oon Yeoh 's seriesStay Tuned ~ muuuaks Bridal Shoot It's a project that collaborating with Alex Moi who an established wedding photographer. He shot weddings throughout Malaysia , from outdoor pre-wedding shoots to traditional ceremonies , Malay wedding ceremonies , garden weddings , church weddings to Chinese weddings dinners .Thanks to Talent Factory & Capxion Media who arrange this bridal shoot for me with Alex Moi..My 1st bridal shoot . He such a professional in his way and i can see his level of passion in wedding shoots ~ Oh yea.. there is another two photographer who join Alex Moi for this studio shooting. Asther Lau & Oon Yeoh ~You would never have chance to see behind the scene where the studio shooting right ? Let me show you .. lotsa fun there !! we shoot each other !!Tadaaaaaa~ Alex Moi Oon Yeoh Asther Lau Photographer : Alex Moi , Asther Lau , Oon YeohMake up : Siew MunLocation: Studio Kwerkus6 Kota DamansaraGrown Sponsor : Nicleesher Fashion houseCan't wait to see the potraits ?Stay tuned !!! Hennessy Artistry Event: Hennessy Artistry- The Global Art Of MixingVenue: Bukit Kiara Indoor ArenaDate: 19th July 2008Time: 9pm onward Finest Artist : Flo Rida , Machi , Dj Latin Prince , Pop Shuvit , Vj Callen YeeeeeeHA!! it was awesome !! FLO RIDA !!! MACHI !! great music !!! Free Flow !! it was really nice ! since everyone post about this , am goin to show u the pictures nie .. Let's Get It Started !!i was invited as a nuffnanger on that night ~ Section Hennessy Miami which is for all the media people / blogger . Flo Rida rocks the night !!Melody from Machi "Baby Girl" MachichyuJan-E John Lee & Brandon Lee , my kor How Zan aka Zan Zan Shu JianKel LiAmy , Shengmae , me , Kel li , Hsu Jen Michael Yip David , NigelSue my dearest Fiqa Simon , FiqaSimon Seow Nelson ThomasAaron Joshua 一部分 一只蚂蚁辛苦的爬过我脚边。我仔细看了它一会儿，心中浮现一个疑问：在蚂蚁眼中，是否看得到比它大上数千倍，不对，是数万倍的我呢？它看到的不是全部的我，而是一部分，是比指尖更小的一部分。同样地，我们现在所看到的也只是一部分吗？云，星星，月亮，太阳，会不会只是甚麽的一部分呢？巨大的东西常因为太大，所以看不到。就如同你看不到我爱你的那颗心一样。。。 WANTED & Naili's Place ~ The story is about a cubicle-dwelling ,Wesley Gibson thought he was the same as everyone else . Wesley life changed the day when he discovered . the is the son of the killer , a member of the underground fraternity .Brought into the fraternity after his father is a slain . Wesley come into his own abilities as the new killer and a veil was lifted from his eyes as he sees the world he never knew was there .In a world that all teh superheroes are dead, Wesley join the villians while trying to unravel the mistery of his father murder , Wesley Gibson is a son , a killer , a hero ... and WANTED .The character i like the most is Cross character , heartwarming dad in the midst of his cold , murdering reputation. The part i loved is peanut butter and rats use as a bombs to kill Sloan . frickin hilarious !! After movie ,went for a drinks at Naili's Place at Sentul and enjoy the food and enviroment there . Loved the atmosphere there. This place is well known for beach resort theme which u just have to go there and experience yourself .As u make your way in , you will notice surfboards juice bar , fishing boats , and palm trees that make up the surrounding .Variety of western , malay and chinese dishes . The most special seating style is dine on the tree house . Take a look of some pictures i took . ADDRESS:116-C, Jln Taman Dato’ Senu,Kampung Cempedak, Sentul Pasar,51000 Sentul, Kuala Lumpur Key If you read my blog u will remember i said i wish to have a key as my 21st Birthday present rite... Tadaaaaaaa ~Finally I get my key on my 21st birthday !! gold or metal is so not me XD i prefer something that really special , fashionable and trendy ~ i love this key so much ..it doesn't mean that i get this key i get my freedom.. Key signifies 21st birthday ~ as if cakes signifies birthday ~ ain't my birthday meaningful ? ^^ sweet ~so guys .. everyone have their 21st birthday .. did you get ur key when your 21st birthday ??share with me =) DGMB BBQ PARTY ~ DGMB BBQ PARTY ~Venue: Nigel po po's house Time : 4pm until late Thanks Nigel for invite me to their DGMB BBQ PARTY ~I don't know whether is server problem neh ? streamxy problems ? or internet line down!! not even my email unable to log in ~internet explorer langsung no reaction on page ~ nigel was sending me the map how to go his grandma's house by email . arrrrgh! how am i suppose to do now ? haiya!! dun care ~ i will call yea when on the way ~ this was my second bbq party on this week ~ 1st bbq party was my brother's girlfriend birthday ~ i'm gonna turn fat .. fat ..FAT !! I was late ~ sorry guys !!ish ish ~ no body care , i guess so ... ^^" btw , i'm just a guest ~Flame ! reminds me of my favourite song last time ~> Eternal Flamefish ball fish ball ~ all the fish kena "tongg" .. jadi , turns fishball today !! XD " siu kai yek!! wo ji sai zong ye sek "~ stephen chawDavid is holding his cam..eeee..aaaa.. take picture of a "chair" or the "floor" ?sweetie kel liteh tarik session ~Pam song , Amy Lai , me , Hsu Jentwinkle twinkle little star ...she makes me a little bit bei bei dei in this picture~ ooowh!! i was spellbound by Kel li , she is too sweet ~Thomas , Kel li, Amy Lai , me , Pam Song , Nadiabear bear Nigel & Chyu ~Stanley!! i got new spec for you !! hahaAaron short standing on a stool and treathen "hong hak" me *run*" if you have been reading my post on MDG before this, you will know that i like Adeline " quote of the day by Joshua .. hahahaha (^^)vSi comel yang tak tau ape tu mashmallow ^^" cute kan ?Aaron bunny standing on a stool !!! Kawaii neh !!old old story ~ me and mah ar gong hwei ming , i'm his g'daughter XD Tata ~ i'm going to catch up Gary concert ~ Editing is fun ..I Heart Editing !! Pulau Redang ~ Is picture time !!!! Anything , Whatever share !!! ShaRE !! SHARE with you all !!!Tadaaaaaa ~ ANYTHING - Carbonatedmade in six flavours:ColaCola with LemonAppleFizz-upCloudy Lemon Root BeerWHATEVER- Non Carbonatedmade in six flavours as iced tea:Ice Lemon TeaPeach TeaJasmine Green TeaWhite Grape TeaApple TeaChrysanthemum TEaNice thing must share !!!Did you get ur anything & whatever ?They are now available in Jusco and 7-eleven all across in Peninsular Malaysia ...What are you waiting for ? Hurry up ~ Nuffnang Wild Live Blogging Party (Photo updated ) babe .. am i wild and sexyyy ??NuffNang WilD LifE BloggInG pArTy POWERED bY MaxiS BroadbandVenue: Modesto's/Rain ,Desa Sri HartamasDate /Time : 21st June 2008 / 6.30pm - 10.00pmDress Code : Animal themeafter our ealier year pyjama's party ~ this was the next party from nuffnang~wohoo !! YES!!! i'm back from Nuffnang Wild Live Blogging Party !!! The party was awesome !!!never expect that this party was absolutely insane!! It was Happening !!! Crazy animals was damn turn on in Modesto ...wuuuuuohhh ..i saw bunny,gorrila,ladybird,tiger, butterfly, bee, lion ,cow , spiderman, oh ya kungfu panda too and many many more unable to list out here ...!!! wuuuuoh !!!Let's get started !!! Thank you Simon who invite me to the party ~ Cherie the mickey , Kenny the pooh , Chyu the zebra , Simon the horse?? XD lovable Su Ann the ladybirdWild Zebra in the party Michael YipPing Ping the cutiest hunter ever !!Joshua the Africian's Lion (baju printing saje XD ) this tall guy Stanley Wong..i feel bliss when i'm standing next to him..can u see? he is so tall !!!!! Simon , Sammy the panda ? mice? XD , Swee Win OMG ~ surprised meeting the manis MDG Hanis Zalikha sweetie Kel li the bunny ~ Suet Li the ostrich The goodies bag's bunny Skyler Yee , Michelle TanRingo Tan Kenny Choo the blind miceAaron Ho Lih RenLive bloggingmore more more !!! picture picture picture ?? keke :p send me if have pic with me !! I LOVE NUFFNANG !!!! Happy Birthday To Chyu !!! HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY !!!! 18th JuNe 2008 bye bye 20 COUNTDOWN~~2 more days to go Hair Spread with Saw Saloon 9th June ...1130HRSprep work hair section at Saw Saloon @ KLCC ~hairstylist - Edwin SawSponsor - Wella10th June ...0900HRSPhotoshootvenue- studio in Damansarahairstylist - Chi (assistance)make up - Bertha Gallery , Eve & Kymphotographer - Sam Soonmodel - Adeline & Ringo (haha.. i'm a MODEL ) ish ish :p -----darling make up artist----> Saw Saloon hair make over photoshoot .> This hair spread will be in Marie Claire magazine Oct 08 issuesek zou lor ~ remember to buy , k .. ~ haha XD The Making of Pepsi tvc - Tropicana hoo hoo hoo !! DO YOu MisS ME ?? I'M BACK!! Finally i'm home from four days of pangkor pepsi tvc trip and two days for wella shooting .Is time to update what i'm doing in this week ^^ let's get it start !!The world top juice enters China market.Pepsi promotes section of mix fruit juice which in China the 1st global fruit juice "纯果乐(Tropicana)"serve under "果缤纷"Its unique mixes builds the formula,the multiplex compound as soon as changes the fruit juice market with pure juice punch to monopolize originally..eagerly anticipates the fruit juice newest fashion.have you ever heard the concept of "mixes builds"?Reveals of the latest fashionable formula :"Tropics Delicacy"- Thailand's pineapple , Brazil's warm fruits, France's red grapes , Egypt's common guayava, India's mango, China's apple "Citron Delicacy"-Brazil's citron , Spain's citrus fruits , china's 金银花"Muskmelon Delicacy"-Southern Europe Hami Melon , China's apple5/6 - 8/6 Wuuuoh!!! ... main cast Louis Koo (古天乐) pepsi tvc !! i was cast as an extra role in the tvc , even this is an entra role but i found that myself in pangkor island for this once in a lifetime opportunity to appear in the ad in China !! only in China !! somemore is superstar Louis Koo!! wuuuuoh! i'm an "international keh leh feh" @_@ ish ish !!! SIgh! hehei was really excited about doing my 1st extra role in TV commercial . i'm so glad that my dear darling anna jas who was the one who ask me to join this ~ haha~ job + leisure + meet the superstar !! what's a nice Pangkor trip that i ever had !! thanks anna jas , muuaks.. ~ depart from pj on 5th of june in the midnight ,having sleep just for few hours , i couldn't sleep in the bus , i just feel uncomfortable coz of my long leg ~ no space to sleep wei ~ ish ish ~~ i was asking to act an entra role in the shooting , i was chosen to sit there and holding the drink and dance as happiest as i can..and drink the juice.. i'm the luckiest ~ just somewhere so near to Louis Koo~ MAn!!! he is so handsome !!! Hongkong's own Mr. dimples-in-your-face . He makes many girls' heart go afluttering . OMG~ his sexy eyes kills me !! on that scene , no more a malaysian dreamgirl role anymore , haha.. i'm just like a small fans of Louis.. haha~ before the shooting started ,the producer of China warn us not to take picture of Louis koo. ish ish so bad geh~..But i still manage to catch the pictures stealthily to post here .. muahhahaha... so cunning ~ kekei was astounded by the level of preparation for this shoot . it was pretty impressive .they got props for every little things i could think of to prepare for the shoot . we have to wear our own beach look outfit for this shooting ~ this shooting is in Pangkor Beach Resort (private beach) . hmm.. if you guys watch a normal ad or tv commercial .. you'd know that the ad was pretty short . in reality they actually take few days to shooting just for a short ad ~ pepsi tvc takes two days to shoot~ have to shoot multiple scene because the director and editor wanted to have a wide selection of different footage at his disposal for editing later . being an extra role is not easy too ~ many scenes have to repeat over again and again to achieve the best take . if there is one person made an error or mistake , so they have to shout "cut!! " the entired scene have to resetted and then we have to do it over again .. shout again .." extra extra !! get ready .. and stand by !!! " ish ish ...lolz .... keep shouting "EXTRA EXTRA" !! i swear to god u will have a "extra" nightmare when you went back ~ hehegroup picture louise khoo is actually who just same height with me nia~ :phere's the pictures of me and tvc buddies ~ chyu love sandy beach ~ chyu love sea .. i'm pretty enjoy the whole pangkor trip ~p/s: there're still many pictures to upload , stay tuned :p ~ babychyu ~ baby chyu please !!! ang gu gu ~~ chiak!!baby chyu please control urself !!dun cry please !!please stop crying ~password to cheer up chyu ?password is temporary locked !!********access denied !!i'm moody ~i'm so sad~i'm just so down~i'm just need more cares..i'm just need more concern ..i'm just need more loving ..i'm just need people to tam me ..i'm so emo i'm grieve~ sadess just keep pop out on my mind now~Sob ~~ T_T Bay Day ~ 31/05/08-yiiihoo.. ^^ let's start my day here.. wakey up from oikie..~ "bangun pagi.. gosok gigi..cuci muka.."(kindergarden's song).. okie okie stop !! =___+" *i know is childdish* ~ after shower make up done , hair setted , ban leng leng jor.. yeah !!ok grab.. my handbag and glupp** my stuff let's go gai gai shopping today ~ yahoo!!! mwah mwah \*0*/#$%^&#%&#%^&#% !!!huhuhuhuhu T_T how come so cehh geh ???!! TERRIBLE , HORRIBLE VEGETABLE YOU !!! @_@~Arrrrrrrrrrgh!! ABS Light , Brake Light and AIRBAG light blinking ~OMG ~~~~~ O_ochamm lo.. how ar ? am i going to continue my journey ? i'm dreaded !! is a bad sign !! ~ on the spot i called my fren who is a ex-foreman immediately. he ask me better bring my car to the nearest service to find out what problem is..3 light blinking is quite serious jor ~3 also involve in brake system .he afraid that brake faultly is quite dangerous..dun continue ur driving most important you check for brake pad and brake oil "dun play play".. Waaaahhh.. "dun play play" this word is so serious ! DaM~ ish ish .. aiks...T_T ok la .. my SATURDAY end up like that !! ~ my plan ? my party tonight?1. 1u shopping gai gai ( women secret voucher Rm180) . 2. my yummy Lunch at 1u .3. my friend's birthday bash party4. Hennessy Artistry Event5. Bamboo ttdi Arrrggh ~ i missed ALL！！！！ huhuhuhuh T_T i was thinkin next week i'm going to be very busy for my job so i got no chance to enjoy my weekday ~ i HAVE TO enjoy this week..haiz who knows this kind of this happen to ME !6. The Click Five Live in Genting7. Seventeen Roxy Summer Splash8. Wargame with CLEO Bachelorall my plans end up here ..what to do .. i have to stay at home ~ but i got nothing to do at home.. saturday ..saturday.. my saturday ~~ ish ish ... the dog also buwee me ~i'm going to take my nap now ~ what a BAD day !!1/6/08- my mum was telling me when i'm wakey up today.. .daddy drive her to pasar today.. the car's battery burn~ brake oil come out all.. the people who check the car for daddy said if i keep continuing drive to kl yesterday , daddy's car will burst !!! terrBaaBoom!! omg @_@Thank God i'm safe ~HI EVERYONE !! see ... I'm staring at you !! the malaysian dreamgirl still alive !! phew ~~ Bridal make up ~ (updated) Here's another picture of students works for examination which is from Bertha Gallery ~Bridal make up shoot ~ Who wants to marry me ? XDokie okie .. enough for joke ~ kekeke :p hmmm .. so which 1 nicer ? candy look or bridal look ? how do u think ? i want to know what do you think . Tell me tell me ... ^^v (1/6) the comment still open ~ is ur choice to decide which is nicer ..going to post another picture due to ur vote .. give me more response .. kekekebridal : candy 9 : 8 Candy look okayy.. finally i decided to put the pic which is some student works for examination from Bertha Gallery .Make up shoot themed Candy Look . My Plant ~ ~MARIMO ~Marimo is a rare growth of the species where the algae grow into large green balls in a velvety appearance.It is an iconic item of the Lake Akan in Hokkaido.This mysterious plant known as marimo habitats in the deepest reach of the Lake Akan . Marimo will grow n flourish in a rate about 5mm diameter a year .~Do & Don't ~It can habitat in tap water.The lower the water temperature ,the better for the growth of marimo .Marimo must not hav direct contact with sun light ~Must pay extra tenderness n care to gently brush the branches on the surface of marimo .When u change the water gently squeeze the water out of marimo. marimo turning 2 years old in tis coming up june of 18 ^^ chyu & marimo _ 260508 My Day ~ 20/051100hrs: Meet my 1st client for Wella (baby Natasha & darling Fiqa ) 3 of usKLCC- huhuhuhu T_T .. DAMN!! parking cost me "RM13" !!! @_@NatashaKinokuniya : my new novel ^^1613hrs: i was on the way back to port dickson...guess what ??huhuhuhu T_T salah jalan !!!"why salah jalan?"jiang jiang jiang ~~~i was so busy to take pic and messaging when driving all the way back~ wakakakka :pWuuuoh ~ Madza RX8 !!my favourite sport car !! Powerful, sleek and sporty. i hope to get one *o* ... #$@%#$ .... no money no talk !! =.=" k la k la i will get myself a toy car ... ! salah jalan but worth !! :)Finally reached Pd ~ ^^21/5/08i got a call from Grace Lim ,the asst.product manager from Wella.YeeeBaa~!! i get my very 1st job ~i will get to be in Marie Claire magazine for hair shoot... the hair cut will be done by Edwin Saw (Saw Saloon)... one big page ..wuoooooh *o* cant wait ~Dinner time !!!Look Out Point , Kompleks Pelancongan Menara Tinjau gasoline Xlive !! comforter ~ pillow ~ bed ~ i'm home ! Chyu finally home from Xlive ~XLIVE IS OVER =( huhuhuhuhuu Just like what i mentioned before XLive is much more tempting right !! here i come !! XLIVE ........!!! MUHAHAHHAHA!!! Missy Elliott !!! muhhahaa ..guess what ?? i met my ex-boss SVP there ,he give me a ticket .its VIP Ticket!! am upgraded my pass to VIP dy ~ muhahhaha ~ so cunning me ~ *giggle*Xlive was a awesome event~The best of all it is happening at the outdoor Theme Park Genting Highland with 3 rave zone ,there's Xlive Main stage , XL-tronic & XLR8 .Of course whole the night i was based in Xlive main stage which mainly play RnB & Hip-hop and party with the rap queen Missy Elliott .. Everythings was just going the right way !! Everyone had fun, everyone got high ! Missy Elliott rocks !! "Ching-ching, gettin' paid over here, Ching-ching, gettin' paid over here, (this is...) Thirsty, baby bring it over here, (a Missy Exclusive)Thirsty, baby bring it over here.. "Missy ! I love youuu ~ "Thirsty, baby bring it over here, Thirsty, baby bring it over here, (New MISSY) See my money maker, do my money maker, See my money maker, do my money maker .. " ^^v my life seems fine on the surface ,underneath i'm just not happy 14/05- 1239hrs -back office at damansara1609hrs - Celebrities Fitness 1u + hang gai gai ^^v2000hrs-GAP presents Marie Digby live in 1u surprised meeting nigel at 1u Waltz our official web designer15/05-0722hrs- breakfast - dim sam *o*0812hrs- pd beach ~ jalan pantaimoody sky ~my life seems fine on the surface, underneath i'm just not happy hmmm..aarrr..hmmm..aaa ~~~~~~ chyu with sleepy face neh~0954hrs- a visit to The Legend Water Chalet.. 你舍得让我哭吗？ 喜欢那些很怕女人哭的男人。只要看到女人哭，他就会手忙脚乱~只要看到女人哭，明明他是对的，他也会认错和投降~只要看到女人哭，他会忘记什么是原则~只要看到女人哭，他整个人也会软下来~只要看到女人哭，他愿意为她承担一切错误和后果~只要看到女人哭，他愿意用身体保护她~只要看到女人哭，他就觉得对不起她~也许他不是一个很聪明的男人，也许他不是一个很有出息的男人，他也不是一个很深情的男人，但是，他害怕眼泪，他就是可爱的~从此以后，我就可以用眼泪来终止一场吵架获一场冷战~我可以用眼泪来讲我那些横蛮的道理~虽然我自己也都知道也都很清楚~当他变了心，多少眼泪也无法令他回到从前的他~但当他爱我的时候，我还是可以用眼泪来征服他~无论我多么坚强和独立都好~无论我多么讨厌用眼泪来达到目的，但我想用眼泪的时候，我要知道我的眼泪还是管用的。我就是很‘眼浅’~ 人就是有感情的，我就是个大爱哭包！！ 你舍得让我哭吗？ Freedom Festival 2008 @ PortDickson Freedom !!!! Freedom !!!!2 Days of FREEDOM presents the superstar DJ Tiesto (current World No.1 and Grammy Award nominee), Ferry Corsten (World No.8), and German trance duo Cosmic Gate. Taking place at the Admiral Marina in Port Dickson Teluk Kemang over 2 days: Friday 9th & Saturday 10th of May 2008.i made a last minute desicion to go for the freedom rave at PortDickson on day 2. Didn't wanted to go at first ,coz the Xlive Festival at genting sound much more tempting .. R&B ~ arrrrghhh!!but i was pretty enjoy last night .a great party with my kor ~ nO regret~ ^^vOh yea.. i meet NADIA!!! muuuuaks.. i miss her so much~ Each can of heineken will be sold at RM 12.even Mineral Water sold at RM 5/bottle. OMG~~ killing!!! thank god we had some chivas b4 the party ~ bluek~Saturday night was so awesome ~Damn Happening wei!! Traffic jam in port dickson , the 1st time i ever meet ~ lol 1 day of rave is enough to kill me .Exhausted ~ dinner @ Blue Lagoontag and some free gifts trance's zone Recharge _ R&B zonechyu & my kai kor Thank You ! HoMe swEeT hOmE ~To all my dearest fans and friends , i would like to thank ALL OF YOU that fully support me and who actually voted for dream 01 (me ^^v) .. To my family , my friends,my fans,my ex-colleagues in genting ,my buddies, my kai kor kor ,my kai jie ~without ur support, I wouldn't have reach this far in MDG ~Appreciate all the good and bad comments about me that you guys post in the blogs. To all the people in friendster and facebook who support me all the time. i will do my best & improve my weakness in my every single weak point to bring myself futher in this industry ~This great experience proven that i'm capable person, i stay more stronger & independence even i kn i'm not the best & outstanding in the show but i had done my best to proof to u all in MDG to achieve my dream .. I'll keep fighting and never give up...To all the 11 finalist contestants in the show ~ wish u all the best ~ i miss you guys very much To all the crews who involve in the show ~ u guys rocks !!Been away for 2months .. Finally i back to life back to reality ~ MDG 心情小说4 ~ 23/4/08-最后一个礼拜的战赛了~要加油要加油~今天l练了更改的新舞步~simone练猫步~回公寓再游泳再跑步~嗯~好累好累~晚上去了Shawn Cutler opening ceremory ~一整天的时间都很充实~24/4/08-这次的photoshoot延迟了也是最后的了~领导limJimmy的带领下开始了今天的shooting~我的照片找到了适合的角度但依然找不到我要的眼神（微笑的眼），因为失去了你后我就失去了我微笑的眼睛，活不起来~只有爱睡的眼睛~呜哇T_T好想放声大哭~我做不回自己~我怎么变得如此恐怖？是你改变了我吗？好寂寞~但我发现失去了你虽然我现在的生活很顺畅~往往得到了一样东西又会同时在身上失去一样东西~这就是人生！！真正的我已经被我刮花了角色，since你已经变心了~我也没什么退路了~只好低头静静地离开而去~又有谁会了解会明白其实的心情我在受着的又是如何？？我是多麽的空虚多麽的寂寞，我的心是多么的痛苦多么的悲伤~我是如何强忍着我的悲伤每天掩盖着带过~而假装着坚强~是多么的辛苦~没有人会了解我的那种痛~希望这个最后的shooting会很好~自从我离了职后很久就没有见到agnes了，很想念她~ 还有向慈和晓群~她们三个都是比较知心的朋友,还有我家乡最最最想念的晓盈，我唯一的一个知己。现在想找回的是快乐的我~可是快乐已经离我很远了~远得已经离掉我的视力范围了~，抓摸不清~很模糊很模糊！掩盖着我自己失落的心情去支持我现在的生活很不好过~很痛~25/4/08-今天去了修发即染发~染回比较暗的颜色~一想到以后要给wella的人替代飞剪就有点怕怕的。怕生！今天是waltz生日~生日快乐哦！明天就是妈咪生日~muuuaks妈咪早来的祝福生日快乐！今天的acting challenge我赢啦！^^v peace~ biibuuubiibuuu~ 26/4/08-fitting了决赛穿的Tangoo。回公司，escada moon sparkle girl诞生！alison!今天在office和waltz 偷偷打game~shhhh.. ~ 打zombie ~很恐怖可是很刺激~打行尸！！xoxo~ 打到滑鼠都差点给我丢掉 =.=" 呵~决赛还有三天~好吧~开始收拾行李~收着收着~竟然竟然。。:'( 断了！！ 我的宝贝水晶心链！！！！！ 呜~自己掉了下来~这是代表了什么？不好的预兆~ 呜~ 今夜的我又哭了~痛痛痛进心底~唯一一样东西可以天天带在身上的~连上天都要把我唯一的东西带走~你知道这条链对我来讲有多重要吗？坐在化妆台前的我痛痛痛，泪不停的流~拿起ipod听着Bobby Caldwell的Merry X'mas正代表着我的心情~我的另外一条链也在练舞时自动断了！今天是怎样？？！！ 链断了证明它的'心'已经回不来了,头很痛~ 去睡了~28/4/08~~ Rehearsal (mid night) ~29/4/08 ~~Finale Grand Final @ 1u Top 11 Finalist ~1st Runner up ~outfit that i like the most ~ `````完`````` Iron Man I went to watch Iron Man yesterday @ MidValley with l.sheng. hmm..i love this movie so much ..Tony Stark builds a high-tech suit of armor and escapes captivity. The suit damn cool \(*o*)/~ xoxo... can't wait to watch Part 2 ~when i come back home switch on my pc online~ i heard that there's somethings at the end of the credit from nigel~ omg~ @_@ i missed it :( showing Nick Fury ~ *sh*t*!! aiks.... nigel ask me to buy dvd ~ buden i'm not going to repeat ~ that's SO NOT ME !! ^^voh yea i do enjoy drawing ^^~ here's my "charming" drawing ... nahhh~~~ *giggle* ～～　IRON MAN　～～ !!hmmm.. aiks.. my gastric attack again yesterday night~ :'( suffering .. really couldn't endure tat kind of pain ~T_T my body cant move at all just sitting infront of my pc and chatting there.. sob ~the bloody hell medicine doesn't works at all~ oWuuuoh!i found a bottle of nutrigen inside my fridge .. tips : nutrigen helps !! nutrigen kill gastric !!wakakaka~ aiks.. the sun risen !! Sigh~been suffering whole the night couldn't sleep ~ kesian me ~i think maybe yesterday i had caffein in oldtown with empty stomach ~ GOsh~~ papa !! MDG 心情小说3 ~ 跌进了两次bottom3的我，那种心情可是很害怕~这个礼拜给了个超大的开玩笑，没踢人~一想到下一个星期就是最后一次踢人，还是一次过踢三个那种。哎哟~ 天使天使给我点能量~决赛就离我不远~不想出啊~ 很伤心！在这个时候脑袋同样的又依然想起他~回想起那天他很开心的跑到我工作岗位来找我，他向我要了意见，他的部门上司要他和几个同事去某某岛做实习训练十二天~我顿时呆了~“十二天”！！由于我们同组，26天连续工作然后才休息的，放假都是一样的~只是他五天我四天。他竟然要去“十二天”！！！我承认我超粘他超依赖他~就算第一天我们各自回各自的家乡见不到他~我都很难受~在家里的我只会一直哭，哭哭哭不停~很想念他！要他回到我身边来~一天我都受不了~这可要去足足十二天~我该怎样办？我脑袋里顿时想了很多东西~虽然我很很很需要他~很舍不得让他去那么久~可是我终究要为他想想他的前途~让他去训练去实习学更多的东西回来~我总不能那么自私把他绑得紧紧的~可是我就是不舍得~想了好久~看到他那种开心的样子来问我，我又心软不愿意伤害他~最后我还是决定了为了他前途压着我的胸口盖着眼睛答应让他去~他就很开心的向我道别马上回去答应上司~又有谁知道其实我好想哭好想放声大哭我很舍不得他~我很心痛，在做着工被逼要忍，最后还是忍不住跑去洗手间哭了一场~可是看到他开心一些牺牲都是值得的。。在他起程走的那天他竟不要见我~间种发生了些事，他性格开始变了~ 我一个人偷偷躲在一边远远的看着他，我满脸都是泪水~哭得很契惨！最后他发现了我，跑过来。我紧紧地抱着他哭到更厉害心里不想让他去！:'( 当他上了巴士我整个人跪坐在地上像哭包一样不停不停的一直哭~看着他的巴士离开~原来一切就是噩梦的开始~原来我的放手就永远永远的失去他~他去了回来就整个人变了很恶劣甚至像被下降头一样的恶劣打我！连我也认不出他~ 我们分手了~是我做对了？还是我后悔了？为了他前途放手让他去，我深深爱的他，永远回不来~一年多要两年的感情就因为我这样的放手~我失去一切一切，我做不回我自己，我很失落~ 我深深爱的他~~ 永远回不来~~ 永远也回不来~~~~22/4/08-今天是最后一次踢人的一天，上了simone的catwalk class，去了Bar Savanh的最后顿晚餐终于回去capxion踢人啦~失落的我经过了两次bottom3我已经有心理准备我一定会被踢出去~因为我自己并很清楚在mdg我并不是最好的一个但是我还是很努力去把自己做到最好~我就很安慰地去面对踢人的这个时候~ ~竟然！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！天呀~天呀~我简直不敢相信！！！！！！！！！！！我终于进了top 3 ~ chiang chiang chiangggg~~ mummy!! 我的努力竟然没有白费~audience开始相信我的进步我刻苦耐劳的努力~好想第一个时间打电话回家~我整个人呆掉开心地讲不出话！我又多了一个礼拜的压力要去闯去努力加油~远方的你又会怎样想呢？ 呜~~~ MDG 心情小说2 ~ 在MDG的日子里可真很闷骚~还好有我宝贝ipod video陪伴着我~没有音乐的生活像在地狱~因为别墅里没有电视机没有收音机，唉~而且又隔离于电话，网络和相机~个个都是我的命根~很难熬~面对每个礼拜踢人的阶段真的很反感~摄影的现场，心情很压力在那沉静的现场~很怕很怕~kan jiong kan jiong ~每一个photoshoot我都很努力很努力的去表现我自己~可是我爱笑的眼睛在我分手后就一直都表达不出来~很不乖~那种悲伤的眼睛连我自己看了都很失望~不能怪很多部落客看了我照片都讨厌我！伤口还在痛着~唯有逼自己坚强下去~在失落的低潮期很努力很努力的去逼我自己做到最好去表现好我自己~我知道我自己可以做得更好更好~就好像一辆车驾了很多久，终究要送去service.坚持逼那辆车走下去，总有一天你的车驾到一半就会坏掉再也动不了~我在里面的角色就是逼自己把我自己做到最好~所谓一份耕耘一份收获~我一定不会让支持我的人失望！在这失落得期间参加了MDG对我来讲有好有坏~好的是我的时间全紧逼着满满的充实我自己并没有时间去想过去的他，坏的是在这段失落的日子真的很难熬对着每一个人都是着掩盖着我的悲伤~做不回我自己~没有人能明白我真正的感受是多么的痛苦终究还是会想很多东西~我很傻~为了一个这样恶劣伤害自己的人失去了自我~只因为我爱他太深。8/4/08- 这一天我跌进了bottom 3.天呀~我再次受到打击~很压力很压力~失去了自我~感觉好像真个世界都不要我了虽然我最终没被一脚踢出去~ 呜~如何收拾我的心情？bottom3的感受是如此恐怖。一定要振作！e.d:hw badly u wan tis ?所谓我的标语.deeper thn ocean higher thn mountain.不懂何时何刻我竟有了我自己的标语。sigh =.="老天给了我多一个星期的机会好好去表现我自己！接下来的Mifa,breakfast show ,G-force-X...etc讲到g-Force-x .够力！adeline lee你竟然酱大胆走上去玩~.......... 他妈的！没有第二次了！！！！！下来了受惊到脚都软走不到路~喊到声音都沙掉~算你狠!!producer!! 白棋抛出~ @_@我的努力总算没白费~赢了三个challenge.第一个12/4/08-fashion+catwalk challenge。第二个17/4/08-Escada Moon Sparkle Commercial challenge.第三个25/4/08-acting challenge.~ 我的新宠物~