OMG I just realised I have passed the 08/08/08 without any inkling or significance of it being THE 08/08/08 despite the big hoo-ha over it AND the olmpics AND the national day. It obviously manage to blot itself out of my head together with other important things like studying.I feel kinda weird now. Maybe in my next life in 08/08/3008 that I'll encounter it(if i do have a next life in the first place)...coolz.I feel really weird. And its like superrrrrr auspicious?HUAT AH!I really do kinda feel I wasted my life day. Feel so bad.WAKE UP BITCH! OMzGGG.I having the mother of all headaches.and a sore throat.Shouldn't have touched that bloody durian lah!SMS CONVERSATIONDar: Got drink many many water?..Me: Not many many leh..I think I'm having a sore throat too hahaha..Later shall go drink man.Dar: what later.. NOW!Me: Wa so fierce.. iScared. ok ok now now. HAHAHA.Dar: Yeah. Good Pork.. heheMe: I'll kill you if you said dog.Its like durian overload lah! Cuz its like durian season or something.hmm.Working tmr. National day and I didnt even realised its tmr lor! GOD. Its gonna be a crazyyyyyyyy day tmr.And to think I refused an offer to a delish delish dinner at little india just now.Now the headache is killing moi.And I'm blogging randomness again.Listening to loads of Shiina Ringo, The cardigans and blue foundation these days. Sounds familliar to someone eh?Lol.Wednesday study date with my darling ying! I miss her like shite! Gosh. it has been long. Looking forward to it. wtf? I don't think the chinese characters in my previous post is readable to all. zzzz. And I'm finding it hard to adapt to my new gmail account. MY INTERNET CONNECTION AT HOME ISH FUCKED UPzz. Today is really a brainless day for me to 度过.. I think I didnt manage to waste any braincells just going through today.So this is pretty much gonna be a rambling post.Firstly, there's like no school today? Yay.Reason is that we finished our modules and its study break now, in preparation for exams next week, yet I don't see myself studying.Omigosh.So I went to my dardar's in the morning to bunk, hit the sack once I reached AND SLEPT TILL 3PLUS IN THE AFTERNOON. It barely even registered in my mind when he left for work in the morning because I was half awake. How did I do that man.See. Today was really a very brainless day. And I ate Macdonalds for dinner-.- zzzz So long never eat macdonalds already..But I have a new thumbdrive from my bf. Haha so happy.Hmm. a 2GB is more than enough for me actually, since I don't need games and videos/movies to be inside, just my school stuffs. Coz I lost my thumbdrive again! OMG LAH. I suck. I lose my stuffs all the time. And that one had my specially compiled and sorted school stuffs. So pissed.Who knows I'll probably find it somewhere in one of my numerous bags I bring out and compile rubbish inside and change the next day.-.- And I borrowed kickass bigass cool earphones from my dardar cuz I spoiled my littleass cheapo(42bucks) earpiece. Music! But it really makes me look like a wannabe coz it really is igass.Nikki just msged me. love that girl. We're going shopping soon!(:And its raining like crazy now.I love the rain, but I super bothered by the house's internet connection. It is so fucked up! Gosh.I cannot even upload pictures of the rain.Ok I no mood already.I sound like a kid.总觉得今天过的好无趣呀！so not productive lor.*叹气*平时下雨超高兴的，可是好想现在就能飞出国。不要在这里就好了。希望明天会比较精彩。I sound so dumb in chinese.Nevermind, Shall go finish up my Pendragon book nine: Raven rise. Its so exciting! Its the second last book in the Pendragon series and I have been reading it since sec 2? Yeah..along with all the boyish-fantasy-ish-spies-coolgadget-ish books. Love it lor. Like Alex rider, young bond. Hehe. So in a blink of eyes its already book nine and a couple of years had passed since I first touched book one.Used to read a lot of christian Jacq. Super super good I swear! Mostly about ancient egypt and mystery cum thriller cum historical. It was rather awe inspring when i read it all the time in my lower secondary years.. My first Dan brown book was Angels and Demons and I finished the rest of all his books in a month during my sec two year. Hahaha.Being a grown up does not mean you can only read autobiographies of famous politicians or historical books or serious novels which thoroughly depresses you sometimes. Read young books too! General knowledge are good but it doesn't hurt to inject some chicklit and young-ish fantasy. I swear you'll have more exciting dreams as compared to a nightmare of the stock market crashing.I read my Harry potter non stop. Like book one all the way to seven non stop, then I stop for a couple of weeks and i reread again. I love Harry potter!*Beams*Ok I sound like a kid again.Wait, I am a kid-.-Oh, oh, and I have takashimaya vouchers! Just in time since I'm already going to buy a new bag from Agnes B. So happy.Ok my mood has changed drastically now in the midst of blogging.I want a kickass red valentino dress. OK this is possibly my most favourite Shiina Ringo song ever! Other than ishiki. I really really love it! ギャンブル (Gamble)- Shiina Ringo.So happy(: updated/:I found my collage! SO happy.GORGEOUS RIGHT?I love it lah! Seems so materialistic with the chanel 2.55, prada, ferragamos, comme des garcons......but thats all the nice things they have there! and it doesnt hurt to dream mah. hehe. Abit noob ah but I'm making another one yay!Ok I'm like super bimbotic.urgh. A POST FOR MY DARLINGHi dardar, just wanna say thank you for everything and sorry for some things. I AM SO SORRY BABY! Thanks for always being by my side and trying to help me in every dumb mistakes i make. Like losing things-.- You are uber calm while I panic, so thanks! Without you I would have died long ago.Thanks for always being so generous with me and not ji jiao for every little things.Thanks for loving me, my dear. I am glad to be able to be who am I in front of you.Love you loads dardar! And early happy 16 months dear! dumb dumb spacepork. MUACKS!Well, its kinda rare I'm blogging in this kind of tone. But for my dear, can lah hor!hahahahaha.School was really boring today lah. I totally wanted to fell asleep so I started making my collage. So nice lah!!!!Make yours here! Its one of my fave websites. hahahah. for fantasies.Ahh fuck it! my saved collage was gone! Shitty hell. Must redo lor. Boo. shall post it next time. I really really wish its christmas now.Please?I promise I won't complain about the irritating wonderful christmas jingles playing all over the place.Or grumble about the gross interestingly warm crowd that fills up every nooks and crannies of Singapore when the season arrives.Or complain bout the presents I don't like.I promise!Its just that life's getting more difficult as each day pass by. I just need a reson to celebrate or to be thankful to. The so called holiday spirit kinda warm feeling that fills you, you know. The sense of contentment that makes you tingly and happy.enjoy.LISA ONO'S WHITE CHRISTMAS. So much for not feeling like blogging huh.Im blogging again!A or B..A or B?The sichuan Mapo tofu at Aliwal street is damn good! So is the xiao long bao.hehehe. Happy man, talk bout food. I love eating.And I cant believe I drank like 4 packets of vitasoy melon in 2 days? Omg fats fiesta-.-Hmm. Long week last week huh. Saturday was happy working at raffles place and office after that. I love the office(: Working at raffles place.Sunday went suntec city with my parents. I love being with my parent too. haha.So as you can gather, this post is gonna be rather random. I don't even know where is my train of thoughts heading to now. And I'm still blogging, despite the lack of hope to do so few days back. Ahh. Its okay if nobody understands what I'm talking about.Monday was a seminar that The intercontinental hotel.I can only say that i LOVE THE FOOD! HAHAHAHAHA.The place was really pretty. I mean, i've been there a couple of times and it's always nice.Oh yah the desserts were fab. hahaha. I really have a penchant fpr gorging on sweets. boo.After that I left early and went to meet my dardar(:Today was a dull and boring day. I realised I've been feeling dull and boring recently. boo. I need to shop, dude! Oh ya. Saw this woman walking in front of me whe I was on my way to IMM this afternoon.She was wearing this dress thats completely translucent with just a black tube and black panties inside. All the banglas were STARING at her. Me,too. LOL.I'm so damn thirsty. Quench my thirst!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE THIS CRAP! School ended damn early today!!! hooray.In the school's library now. Feel so weird with the bigass screen wordings size jumping out for everybody to see when I'm blogging. Plus this hong kong student has been yakking non stop on her phone beside me since just now. so irritating lah.Yesterday was a good weather thursday.Visited my dardar in the morn and fell asleep in his house all the way till afternoon and den I woke up and went to his workplace to pass him the lappy.In other words, I had no school yesterday. SO DAMN HAPPY LAH!Couldnt bear to go home early because I had the need to go somewhere else to walk walk and furthermore my mother was at home and I didnt wanna arouse her suspicions by reaching home extraordinarily early. So I went to bugis to pick up my pouch where I left it there for over a week.....and met my boss in shop too. We talked and went upstairs to "look" at the new retail outlets that sprung up recently. Den we somehow ended at the foodcourt and he treated me to paper prata. LOL. Mine was so kiddy. Its a towering cone of strawberry syrup and rainbow sprinkles. His was chocolate-.- Old enough to be my dad okay! But nonetheless it was nice lah.hahaha.Squeezed in the bloody squeezy train and had dinner with my family at bukit batok, and concluded my thursday.Not to mention I had a gigantic hugeass headache. Fackit!Therapy was good yesterday(: Omg I feel super bad. I totally forgot to feed my doggy MEOW at facebook for over a month. And she looked so cute when I finally fed her. I'm such a bad owner lah!!!!):Like this how to have babies?!? /updated. This post is gonna be damn long.aww.WELCOME TO MY BLOG ZC!!!If u really came here lah.Ok good for you..NOW EXIT! BYEBYE.bye bye bye bye bye.Ok fine I okay with it. Serious(:Yesterday DTRM went to the Singapore Tourism Board for some field trip thing. It was way boring. But the Lady who presented and introduced things to us is quite pretty and she speaks in fascinating accents.Her English: American accent. Her Chinese: Puur-fect Ch1nese accent. So cool right. I was busy listening to her voice to hear what she was actually saying. and I dozed off towards the end. omg.babes(:serene and meMr and mrs Singh says HI. But this wasnt taken purposely i swear.The place is really pretty.Hehe. But seriously I was quite embarrassed by the students behaviour.I mean, we are all 17 years old and above, some even 20..21...but wtf everybody behaved like pri sch kids. Okay maybe not everybody. and maybe it was really kinda boring, but there's no excuse to be like this! Where's the social graces we suppossedly must possess to study this course(Dip. Tourism and Resort management)? Gosh. Im not at the liberty to judge but I am quite sure the staffs there sure aint impressed by us. Boo.Anyway, Went on a "date" with Serene Lim! Hehe. We went The cathay to watched Dark knight AGAIN. I mean. Both of us watched before on separate occasions and decided to go watch again. Yes. We were bored lah. Hahaha. But it was really fun! Serene is sweet lah..Hor, Serene? Bus-ed to The Cathay and saw Ben Yeo there. I think this is his name lah. (The guy who played the sissy-ish "Zhigang" at the 7oclock show at channel 8.) We had Chicken baked rice after that and after that Serene left for home/her bf's and I seriously needed the library.Because I have two heavily-fined-unreturned-books and they kept sending notices to my house. ARGH-.- DIE DIE MUST RETURN. They were really heavy okay.Serene!Chicken baked rice. It was really peppery.Yup. So I needed a Library and the nearest place seems to be the esplanade(which is a few bus stops away). so I went to the esplanade! Listened to a piano recital which was damn good.And I dunno why I started sneezing like mad once I stepped into the place. Like wth? I think I sneezed more than 10 times in a setting lah omg.Went up to the library and returned the poor books that I had held on for so long.And went up to the librarian at the counter to apply for a sms notification for books thingy. Cool right. They will sms me 3 days before my books are dued. NO MORE NOTICES SENT TO MY HOUSE AND NO MORE ANGRY FATHERS! YAY!The library. Directly under this pic were 3 noisy sec sch students arguing-.-And I went up to the rooftop terrace. Its so damn fabulous! I wished I was the only soul there though. There were like loads of tourists and people taking pics there.boo. But I really enjoyed it.Yup. So I went home after that, jostling with the after-work crowd. It was so damn terrible man. Hate that time. But its the exact same time that makes me feel like going home. So I went home to wash some clothes and clean the floor in preparation for my mum's return from hongkong. Coz she loves nagging bout the cleanliness in the house. I got lectured for a zillion times over tiny things.Grrr.Went to the airport. My dad was seriously speeding. It was terrifying but I liked it though. And I managed to fell asleep until we reached.Sis and I.Terminal one.So as I wrote in the previous post, my mum came back!hehe. I think my dad misses her alot cuz he's super eager to go fetch her and we waited super long lah! My dad- whose usually late for EVERYTHING(like me).Today I went school for 2 hours of macroecons. Crazy right. And Clementi road toward my school had a major jam gosh. Woke up at 11 plus, showered, slather on some war paint and headed downstairs where my mother gave me cup noodles for lunch. HAHAHA. She's so cute. I mean. I boiled the water and made it myself but she was the one who presented me the "sesame flavour" one from hong kong. Its quite nice lah. Or maybe I was just hungry. haha.Speaking bout war paint, Im super in love with mineral cosmetics! And finally they are selling more ranges at places like watsons where its more affordable. I dun mean the foundation that came out long ago but the blushers and eye shadows. Because I have sensitive skin so it will itch when I put on certain things. So I love mineral make ups coz it doesnt make me itch. At all. So happy. And it covers up really nicely.hehe.Ok now this is turning into a strictly bimbotic post at this point....But I really love the deers on my teeshirt! hahaha. It is not a bedsheet/bolster cover like what someone said okay. Omg. Its so cute lor.And I really need to cut my hair. Its not long-that-it-touches-my-butt kinda long but it is definitely long-enough-to-irritated-the-hell-out-of-me when i have a bad hair day, which is like, everyday. Lol.Okay end of rants.For those who stuck around long enough to finish reading this, Good for you!(: hahaha. OKAY MY MUMMY IS BACK.So happy. She looks so pretty.We went to the airport to wait for her and waited damn long lah. Then we saw her coming out with her friends and pushing her trolley, looking flushed. Apparently the weather at hongkong is super hot and she hates heat. Its like, 38 degree I think.Its the Hong kong summer sale! hahaha. Wished I was there though. I prefer shopping for my own things. And my mum is wary of buying wrong stuffs for us so she didnt buy much. Duh uh.I'm just glad my mummy is back. Missed her naggy presence.(I know I'm gonna regret saying this sentence tmr when she starts yelling again, but still.)I.LOVE.THE.AIRPORT. Ok I sound totally whiny and bimbotic in most of my posts actually.Including the next one. How ah. I didnt mean it man. Girls are born to WHINE lah.Hmm. Finished reading two books. "The devil and miss prym" and I reread my "tunnels". The first is a story about making decisions and the battle of good and evil in everybody. What is human nature? Author is Paulo Coelho who gave us "The alchemist". Actually I read most of his books already and have a few myself. But to be honest nothing really struck me as deep as I expected. The meanings were too much and too obvious and too irrational in a world we live in now. In fact, the past two book which made me cry were just simple novels that gave such real and insightful voice to the book that I really kinda teared. In Marian Keyes "Angels" which I've read two times, something the character experienced, and in the twenty lines or so, it felt like it was talking bout me. And I was gasping "But why is it exactly the same?". But of coz, as common sense tells you guys. It was not a good experience and I really did cried."Tunnels" is a series of books that is supposed to be the next Harry Potter (NO!!!) and is published by the very same who published and was agent for Harry Potter. Its actually a very nice book.With mysteries and secret lands underneath and discoveries. But a tad too British-ish for my liking and had none of the whimsical fantasy but immensely real characters you fing in Harry Potter. I swear. Ever since my 11th birthday where my dad bought me my first Harry Potter and the philosophy's stone till my Last Harry Potter and the deathly hallows(preordered for me by my darling bf), I have never stopped loving Harry Potter.There I said it.I love Harry Potter!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I really do. Ok I know I sound girlish again when talking bout crying when reading, but I can cry in Harry potter too! The few times I read Harry potter and the order of phoenix, I totally cried when Sirius died..When he fell through the "curtains"..and Harry shouted for him. And in Half blood prince when Dumbledore dies, I totally cried again. How can he die!!!!!! Book seven was lots of surprises and closure when pieces all fell into place and we started understanding mysteries unsolved since book one. I was so sad when I finished the last page of the Deathly hallows and it felt like a part of me died. Serious. I couldn't sleep and had weird dreams for the next few days. No more harry potter already!!!Somehow this turned into a Harry potter dedication post. I'm so proud of myself today. I realised that I frigging didn't eat anything the whole day lah! OK this is nothing great to brag about since any other girls can do that easily, but..but...This is totally uncalled for in my world alright.. In Michelle/Airpork's world, breakfast is not a must, but lunch is a must-must. After a note: FULL lunch, a few hours will be given for digestion, then followed by whatever snacks I can lay my pig front-trotters on. den followed after will be dinner. And if I'm hungry in the middle of the night....well, you know.So it's soooo amazing I can hold up till so long lah!And read Cakie's blog and she was counting her blessings. I had been feeling so pent up nowadays. And sometimes when you start feeling sorry for yourself, and thinking so much, and feeling too much, the whole world seems to be against you, and you take things so hard someimes. Though I must say I take things too lightly somtimes.Ok. So..What blessings do I have.Hmm.1) My dad cares for the family a lot and is a very humourous person who does not drink at home and cracks lame jokes all the time.2) My parents are still happily married and having public displays of affections all the time. Like, all the time, really.3) My mum is young. She is, 37+?4) My boyfriend takes good care of me and msgs me even when he is clubbing(which is occasionally anyway) and I have to ask him to please go join his friends and msg me when he's free.5)My boss is nice and my lady boss is nice too. Both are funny, easy going people. Though that may be due to the fact that they treat me like a little kid. Pfft! 17 year old so what.6) School is so far so good. I'm not outcasted like I thought I will, like a social pariah. Though I didn't exactly blend in THAT much. Not that I want to anyway.7) I made a lot of new friends over the past couple of years, and inside them, I found gems.And a 100carat kickass Shiny one which left me confused. 8) I am not injured or sick in any way.9) I am not bullied in school like how I was in primary school.10) I do know how happy it is to be able to go wandering around alone and enjoy the feeling of being with....me.THINGS I'M SO NOT BLESSED FOR.1) I totally cannot lose weight no matter how hard I tried. Or how I didnt.2) I am not smartz alexz like a lot of people.3) I cannot resist spending money. And by spending, I mean on everything that I can do without.4) I like being alone too much sometimes.5) I just had a sudden outbreak of pimples.6) I am broke. awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.7) I have worries. ALOT ALOT ALOT OF THEM.zzzzz ): ): ):8) I feel like giving up sometimes. Ah forget it. That doesn't makes me feel way better in any way.BOohoo.I'm now drinking honey mint tea that I made myself. So nice man. But how I wish I can be lazing somewhere else cozy with a cup of iced honey camomile tea in front of me.Oh mann I'm sucha tea druggie.My mummy is coming back fron hong kong tomorrow night! I wanna go fetch her..cuz I love airports lah! Aha. Another day of lameshit camwhore. haha. Please note. pics are taken with carefully angled height but no editing is done. It didn't turn out very great anyway. Ah whatever lah hahaha.Posted a pic here of my loved mascara-ed lashes but removed it due to my absolute horror at the state of my bad bad skin. wtf?! It was damn gross.So poser lah. But it wasnt deliberate btw.Tomorrow got field trip to Singapore Tourism Board with my class.Ben says his friend just joined there as some position I dunno what, can intro to me. HAHAHA. I haven even complete first year lor. Ok wait see after three years you still friends with the guy or not, den intro to me and gimme lobang job okie?Not that he's reading this anyway. I'll totally die if my boss reads my blog lah! URRGH.I want an Ordeur 53 by Comme Des Garcons. PLease? Throw in a Comme Des Garcons play heart tshirt also. Please Please?Haiz. Haiz. Haiz. Singapore like never sell hor. Okay. Another blog song.Young Folks by Peter Bjorn and John feat Victoria Bergsman.Have been listening to it since I chanced upon it a couple of years ago when they just released this as their first single. Its good, hor! I like this song alot. Its makes me feel happy too. yeah. simple adjectives, complicated feelings.Young FolksIf i told you things i did before told you how i used to be would you go along with someone like me if you knew my story word for word had all of my history would you go along with someone like me I did before and had my share it didn't lead nowhere i would go along with someone like you it doesn't matter what you did who you were hanging with we could stick around and see this night through and we don't care about the young folks talkin' bout the young style and we don't care about the old folks talkin' 'bout the old style too and we don't care about our own folks talkin' 'bout our own stuff all we care about is talking talking only me and you usually when things has gone this far people tend to disappear no one would surprise me unless you do i can tell there's something goin' on hours seem to disappear everyone is leaving i'm still with you it doesn't matter what we do where we are going to we can stick around and see this night through and we don't care about the young folks talkin' bout the young style and we don't care about the old folks talkin' 'bout the old style too and we don't care about our own folks talkin' 'bout our own stuff all we care about is talking talking only me and you talking only me and you talking only me and youAnother of my fave is Burning by The whitest boy alive.Go hear. its similar to this somehow. I like.why should we judge people when we're all not exactly saints yourself. It takes a bad person to know another one. And as long as I'm happy myself, I'm happy. From a person who thinks I'll look better with my hair shorn short."When you're gonna cut your hair short?"Me: "I dunno, when I'm depressed?""Oh. I rather your hair touch the floor then."Talking bout hair. My hair is bloody long lah! I scared cut already it will become unruly frizz. Because it's like straight straight now? But I rebonded it almost two years ago. OMG. And i have years of experience with my own curly baby hair under my belt. So why is it straight? I don't understand. But thats a good thing right? Get a good hairdresser I guess.Oh. The same person.Me:"Can I have bangs? Should I? I think can right?""NO."The next day, Sunday was a lazy day. I finally watched The dark knight with my Kelvin. Its good! Shall not dwelve into the whole movie review thing and plot analyse thing since everybody's doing that anyway. Its just nice. Go watch when you can! I think the Heath Ledger's perfomance seems so real. I mean. I couldnt really see him in a normal setting already. Not that we'll have a chance ever again.ok camwhore gross shit. didnt get to take any pics of anything or anywhere or anybody else. I dunno man. I just don't have thoughts of whipping out my phone when I see interesting things. I just stare with my eys open big big.wed.thurs.sat.Yes yes I know I'm wearing the same outfit on wed and sat. Its laundered and clean and anyway I wore it to totally different setting. School and work's are worlds apart.I'm so bloody hungry now laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. OMFG I'm having such a gigantic headache I totally feel like puking. Grrrr.Noted one interesting plurk that came out earlier today. Didnt comment but Jaywalk may know which one I'm talking about. Lol.Today was an ultimate tired day.Walking around in 4inch heels for the rest of the day in work didnt help too. And probably due to my weird ass dressing today, Zc remarked that I look like the Haji Lane clan.. I so didnt do it purposely! Woke up late and grab random things from my wardrobe. A white shirt tucked into a flared grey knee length skirt held with a wide black leather belt and said black satin heels. Plus a canary yellow wool cardigan. fucking OL! I don't wanna look "mature" lor.Work tmr!!!FUCKSHIT I JUST REMEMBERED I FORGOT TO BRING HOME THE BUGIS'S OUTLET DOCUMENTS FOR TMR. OMG.ok so I have to like travel again tmr. shittyhell.I'm super irritated and this post is random to da max........I love the weather though. I really really adore the weather, even when I'm right now freezing my ass off. GRRRRR. OK OK people..Can you guys please help me do a short survey for my project? everybody everybody. It won't take more than a couple of mins. thnks arh!DO IT HERE Blogging at an ungodly hour again.I feel so...unsatisfied somehow..Like something's missing and I'm craving for it. Feel so restless. What is it huh?..Maybe I'm really a nocturnal through and through. I have this urge to prowl the empty streets now. Or to sit by the dark riverside of Singapore, looking at the city lights that makes up the skyline. Eat at some near empty 24 hr eating place. Observe the damn long line of taxis everywhere. Look at the people walking in an out of the cheap motels.Wander near the highways, feeling the cool cool breeze.You know.The kind of air you only get to smell in the middle of the night.When you sneak out of house at 3 am and you can hear your heart pounding in your ear.Oh mann I love that feeling.I miss the exitement of a new new raw raw chemistry. When the air always seemed so damn charged with fission and I swear, every touch friggin sizzled. But I guess that has to do with the middle of the night thing. I love the darkness and the silence.and simply, I guess I've been having a lack of adrenaline.Someone chase me around with a chopper please?But usually if the time of dark is up and the world starts to stir, day starts to arrive. I'll freak out bad. I don't know why. But I totally hate the transition of dark dark black to inky blue and suddenly its the crack of dawn and its becoming brighter by the seconds. I just don't like. Because I'll feel scared. Like I have to finally face up to my deeds. Sigh-.-Its amazing how some people can be so retardly rude and yet some can be heartbreakingly polite. I'm really enjoying the "Thank you very much", "Yes, please", "If you would like to"...from some people right now.It makes my day and is way different from the casual "okok" that evrybody uses for every single thing.Not that I'm terribly polite all the time. I do selective politeness. I mean, when someone pisses you off how to say Fuck you in a nice tone. It sounds horribly sissy-ish. But I do try to make sure I say my Ps and Qs, as learned from the Enid Blytons of my childhood. But I still cannot get over the fact at the sheer amount of young people of my age range who knows nought about 1) social awareness and skills 2) politeness 3) courtesy. SO PISSED LAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Anyway, do away with that. I want to say I abolutely loves Agnes B Voyage collections. Especially the bags charms! hahaha. Beats Anteprima handsdown, after the horrific service I got from an Anteprima Paragon staff. pfft.Raffles city's Agnes B voyage is nice.One of my faves actually. Its one of the shops where everything actually looks pleasing to me and I don't have the zoning-into-a-particular-item symdrone. The staffs are helpful without being overbearing, nor disdanful when you walk in without a 2k bag.I saw a super nice mens' bag there and its so lustworthy! Will be so damn gorgeous on someone tall lah.hehe. Its apparently "hot" in hong kong now,though Singapore is late in catching that heat. As Usual.Am awaiting the Fall-Winter colours to come out. So that I can get it together with the bag charms! Wahahahaha.I feel happy just thinking bout it. Its not that ex anyway. And..I mean, something to lust after keeps the sparkle in our eyes alright? Yay.Ok I feel happy and sleepy now = No thought of running wild in the dark streets.Some gross pics to puke your dinner out. FreshLy back from school.wannabe face.Oh ya i wanna say I super love my lashes today. No fake no fake okay!Ahh.the power of mascaraaaaaaaa.I very happy.BOOOOOOOO. KILL HER.And people may ASK. Why post pictures of yourself when you claim to be ugly and unhappy with your image and add tags like "BOOOOOOOOO. KILL HER."?Of coz unhappy lah. who will ever be satisfied de??? But if take already den never post, keep in phone/camera and stare at it everyday while smiling at yourself is WAY MORE WEIRD lah. I'd rather be normal and thick skinned. LOL.Laughing at myself is way better than other people laughing at me right? So why not! "Michelle you dumass fatass petty wannabe act-pretty gossipy bitch!"Oops. Did I just reveal my true colours? HAHAHA.This post took bloody long to type lah! Oh ya my mum's going Hong Kong this friday. What can I buy from there??? Think Think Think!!! ok since im so bored.....random pics then. now still rotting away in macroecons. Later going do ITB project with serene and xinyu. Dunno why but i feel so happy.I REALLY BLOODY LOVE THIS WEATHER. IT MAKES ME HAPPY!and it makes me think of the haji lane days. somehow.I AM DAMN HUNGRY.with sis at Jec. FLASH!!from dad's carrandom.school today(: Listening to my blog song, I really feel that its christmas again, if you call this cool weather "winter" in Singapore.Woke up in my own lazy pace. Didnt go school for the past two days. I hate the red monster lah! Lameshit problems like cramps, headache and that damn bout of food poisoning. *whines*Went school, took bus, took train, took bus, trundled to class..met xuanyi outside macroecons class. Poor thing, She look so dejected lah! Cuz she was sabo-ed to join the miss BA(business and accountancy) congeniality competition and the supporters/sabotagers (my classmates) were happily making big boards and cheers. She freaked out and came upstairs where she met me. JIAYOU XUANYI!Lol. Looking forward to work this friday and saturday.Have so much to say but dunno how to say lah. gosh. I'm having a word constipation. Its either word diarrhea where I say all sorts of rubbish that I have to be accountable for or I have so much to say and I feel all bloated but I just cannot shit say/type it out.boohoo.Hmm...dum dee dum dee dum...*twiddles thumb*I feel like dumbledore!hahaha. Reading this novel called Brilliant now..its about this cool jewel thief. And also reading the 9th installment of Pendragon. Second last book already. Wonder why I'm such a sucker for it even though its a boy's kinda book actually.Time travelling! Heros! Fightings!Listening to my "christmas" recollections songs-Feist, coldplay, Kings of convenience, blue foundation.This is a frigging random post arghhhhhhhhhh. Once I had a secret loveThat lived within the heart of meAll too soon my secret loveBecame impatient to be freeSo I told a friendly starThe way that dreamers often doJust how wonderful you areAnd why Im so in love with youNow I shout it from the highest hillI even told the golden daffodilAt least my heart's an open doorAnd my secret loves no secret anymoreNow I shout it from the highest hillI even told you the golden dafodillAt last my hearts an open doorAnd my secret love's no secretMy secret love's no secretMy secret love's no secret anymoreI love this song like mad! It was written in 1953(older than my dad!)and has been sung countlessly by Connie Fransis, George michael, Doris day, Frank sinatra and other people..it all adds up to more than 10 covers and versions done.This gay sounding george michael version(He really is homosexual) from his 1999 album makes me super happy everytime i listen to it, like, everyday.Partly why I'm so attached to this song was due to the fact that I first encountered it during work last november when I first started in my job. It was playing in shop for the whole 2-3 months and I listened to it almost everyday. It was the christmas season and the newness, the excitement of holiday, the joy of working and feeling of freedom when I stepped out from my secondary school life, trying to fit in with a working society really makes songs I listened at that time carry a tag of special feeling.I do not know how to describe but songs always remind me of a particular exact timing when I first heard it or played it often. Like how Nana by mika nakashima and falloutboy reminds me of the courting days with my dear bf.. how Like a star by corrine bailey rae makes me feel protected last year august... (Guitar Hero is like damn funny! Especially the aerosmith version my bf bought. I suck big time lah! But managed to do resonably well ok! Even on medium mode.Me: (Struggling with complicated and fast notes) WAAA I suck at this lah! omg! AHHHHHH! My fingers cant touch the last button!Bf: (Laughing from the side) Aiya Let me show you how to play properly okay..*starts music*Bf: (struggles with same notes)Me: WAHAHAHAHAHAHA. U SUCK TOO LOR!But we are both great at cooking mama-.-*OK PICS*due to my long time neglicgence of failure to put up any photos, I shall do so now, and in categories.SCHOOL friday.. very long ago econs class.. cute girls matilda and silin! school library from our room..I love schoolhahahahaha. sometimes.Bf&I new games "the" guitar from guitar hero.looks lame doesnt it.hahaha. bee-oo-tee-fooo day........................... ok ugly. (: the camera doesn't love you baby! gazillion calories. Isnt this pretty(:RANDOM Free pencil. My eyes look super weird. I don't wear contacts! Fall-winter Ferragamo(: Ahh. One of the random days in spinelli. I guess thats all i can dig out from my phone.hahahaha.gotta go figure out how to fall asleep at this ungodly time of 3.58am.OMG ITS 3.58 ALREADY????? OMG.This is so boring lah.My lms teacher cant get her laptop to be projected up on the screen and now she is using MY laptop to teach the class.And now I'm using Dorcas who kindly lend me hers.AND NOW ONE SEC AGO SHE JUST IMPOSED A NO LAPTOP RULE.sanba!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!shit kbye. Today very happy!Went shopping with Sereneeeeeee! hahaha. We scoured far east so long just to look for my shorts and didnt have time to go Agnes B(pronounced as "Ahn-NYAS Buh" please people)see my bag lah! But nehmind, we had fun(: Shopping doesn't necessary means buying, it also means the happiness of ending a long tired day with a smile. ought random stuffs. I love Serene's dress! Though I'll probably look like a hog in it-.-Hee. I very happy today. I love the world, my parents, my darlin' bf, my bestie Carryl Loh ju hui(who msged me when I was JUST gonna msg her, out of a sudden after nearly a month! And I'm so proud of her, she topped her level in Bio and Econs. So smart right! My best friend mah(: Though I saying this here coz she don't read my blog i supposed so she cant gloat.LOL), my friends in school, the barflies, the grass, the clouds and everything!Its a wonder how freakish my moods are. When I can switch from happy to downright crying in a min. I'm a freak! Eh, sorry, say wrong. I'm a girl, thats why lah. We are all so afraid of being judged......Of what we do, what we say, what we did, what we said, what we are going to do, what we are going to say...You may look like you do not care of what people think, which may be true when it's people you do not give a shit about, but deep down you do care for at least one person's opinion. Your mother, maybe your husband...the pretty girl who walks past everyday, or the sister you worships.Prejudices exist and always will exist in this world. Be it discriminations or moral rights and values...everybody seems to be fighting to say something.When can we really be free from that cringing self awareness that blankets when you know you're being judged?Maybe its just me having a low threshold for critism or any form of judgement, but when can I be finally be comfortable in my own skin...There is so many things I want to say, so many things I want people to know, so many things I regret, so many things I want to do.Weirdly, sometimes I glad I still have this shell that is me, as a smiling armour, sometimes cold, another form of organism that bears the same imprint and dna as I do.But sometimes I just want to be.......the me that is inside. Writhing, bare, clean and pure. Black scribbles that consists of my thoughts and red lines for my love and emotions. Just simply, black scribbles and red lines. Isn't that good? No grey areas, no moral obligations, no rules, no hearts feared to be broken, no briddled passions, no witheld lust, no feelings to be taken care of..Was browsing through Shelly's archives for the whole day. If her blogcounter counts by page loads, I swear I accounted for more than a hundred of them.Read a particular post from long ago, struck me so deeply and sadly, I cried, right there in the library little study cubicles, with strangers all around me.And my heart hurt for some things that could have been, but never will be again, because I gave it away. I am utterly in disgust with this specimen who calls himself a male. Eww dude!I can safely swear my father, my dear boyfriend Kelvin and any random male friend like Zc or even Jaywalk(and he's like, older) is tons better than this idiot .I can say that they are every bit as gentleman and decent as I can hope for.Not some DISGUSTING PIG ASSHAT! I'm so pissed lahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Fucking ignorant asshole who pretends that he knows everything and thinks that girls fall for his outrageous grossness.I'm sorry for being so mean now but I seriously cannot help it. This happened before, when I was in sec 2 and I refused to interact with this guy from my class for more than a year because one fine day he did nothing but disgusted me. But after that we all(the wholeclass) became good friends and he became a nice friend(:BUT now. that will never ever happen to this particular organism wriggling here. I shall not name your mannerism and stuffs you did(not to me lah duh, never ever touch me, you freak, or else I'll chop off your fingers). YOU DISGUST ME!bye asshat. I did not name any person or provide any visual images, so.I could be talking bout an imaginary enemy right????? Yesterday went down Raffles place shop after school to teach Li juan how to do inventory and. She is super blur man...Even after her frantic nodding to my persistent questions of "Do you really understand?", I was stil very apprehensive. But I guess she'll cope. I mean, she's like 20 and I'm 17? -.-Blog song is 一色/Colours/Hotoiro: Nana by Mika nakashima. My fav since it came out.hehe.From Coldplay's Viva la Vida, the track Lost:Just because I'm losingDoesn't mean I'm lostDoesn't mean I'll stopDoesn't mean I will crossJust because I'm hurtingDoesn't mean I'm hurtDoesn't mean I didn't get what I deserveNo better and no worseI just got lostEvery river that I've tried to crossAnd every door I ever tried was lockedOoh-Oh, And I'm just waiting till the shine wears off...You might be a big fishIn a little pondDoesn't mean you've won'Cause along may comeA bigger oneAnd you'll be lostEvery river that you tried to crossEvery gun you ever held went offOoh-Oh, And I'm just waiting till the firing startsOoh-Oh, And I'm just waiting till the shine wears offOoh-Oh, And I'm just waiting till the shine wears offOoh-Oh, And I'm just waiting till the shine wears off…Somehow it appealed to me tremendously. The lyrics I think. Listen to it Here.Yup. Doin projest at level 5 of library now. Wah lao. Always choose 5th floor. I went up and down for three times to get things and I was seriously panting like shit can! gosh. First time was to return calculator from my friend, then I had to get the book Ben Liew was lending me(Pengragon book 9!!!!)..and I had to get food. Fuck man! My physique sucks like hell now. So depressing.OK got to do project. Tmr's presentation and I have to wear formal. I'm gonna look so weird lah. hahaha. Ok. bye.